September 30, 2011

hi

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i'm still very much alive.

sorry for the lack of updates, i cant seem to get back on track on blogging. and i update way too much on twitter, i think i'm starting to annoy myself very much. i dont like how people think that they can know me, or my life story merely by reading my posts/tweets or even worse, by just looking through my photos. sorry but my life is so much more than this, there is a difference between public and personal life, and i very much know about my own life more than any one of you, fyi. october is just round the corner, in a few hours actually - which means i'm leaving my work place soon, another school term is starting all over again soon, and also, sean's departure to australia for his army training is approaching too. (oh and not forget halloween!) also, i finally registered myself as a candidate at bbdc. yes i'm gonna take up driving! i know i'm ambitious but i really want to try getting a license by the end of this year or maybe by january next year. i'm hoping i could drive sean to his camp at least once before he ord next year, haha ikr what kind of motivation manz, but we'll see..

lately, i'm been thinking a lot about life. i mean it's nothing unusual for me, i do this pretty often if you know me in person or perhaps read my blog since my junior college days. but because working at nhb (despite times that i wouldnt consider favorable, you shouldve seen how i curse and swear so fucking a lot everyday on twitter due to annoying colleagues) it is really difficult to narrow down my experience at nhb but i must say, i learnt so much from my older colleagues, they definitely have way more life experiences than myself. i love hearing their life stories even though i dont response much, but deep down it got me thinking a lot. today, i attended another farewell session, another lady from the department i'm working at is leaving. we chatted about the past (how they started working and knowing each other thirty odd years ago, how the others joined them becoming their colleagues, their younger days when they were twenty odds having really enjoyable and fun working environment and so on) i wonder if i would reminisce this way in future too. "you never know what life will throw at you", shirley, my manager spoke to me today, i mean it's true who knows she might get sacked one day or go onto a new journey - we just have to keep picking up and learn on the way. i guess she wants me to embrace the fact, and find joy in every different paths in life. which i think i did pretty well so far, second year into my poly education, well i still have a long way more to go..

i think being alive is an amazing thing. i used to dread life a lot, listen to emo and screamo songs, wanna slit my wrist lolwtf (isnt that what all emo kids used to do hahahaha) oh well, the phases of life. maybe i should go a little further back to times when we were still young and naive haha. remember the times where we start to learn how to trust and how to have faith in people and how we learn to adapt to changing environments? remember the times where we start to learn to explore the world? and then when we enter primary school (ok, for my case), we start to initiate and plan our own activities w our friends etc; our parents/guardians set goals and values and that's how we find out that we should discover life on our own terms. my primary school days were gold. i can remember so many shitz from then. then we grew into the next phase of life, we start to compare ourselves to others, we start to question our self worth, it started from just a small group - then it grew eventually to outside your circle of friends. i think it happened somewhere before puberty and throughout our transition years as adolescences. yet into another phase of life, i say teenagers. times where we rebelled, and we just wanna go against everyone's ideas - especially our educators and our parents. we just find it so hard to appease to anyone, except ourselves, and probably our friends. been there done that. grew out of it. just that inferiority complex still exists, but in a different form. days where i got sick in my mind where all i cared was to fit in and to be skinny. i needed attention. then i realize my life is so much more than just being cautious on my fucking weight, and i moved on. i remembered the days where i was seventeen, eighteen -i questioned myself on what am i going to do in future, why am i doing this why am i doing that? who the fuck i am? why am i here and not in uk/usa (hahahaha yes that's so me) and especially this one, why the fuck am i studying? (haha) we were all confused who we were, and we wanna do things we like and fuck the rest. fuck what everyone think. i mean as a child, we were taught to work hard, study, etc. it's true. it's a good habit to have but to abide it or not is entirely up to us. along the way, we experienced failed friendships. we learnt about how people come and go, who gives a fuck and who dont. trust issues. inferiority surfaces yet again. decisions after decisions. accomplishments and failures we face..... nobody said it was easy.

i'm glad that my parents are not so strict w me, and i can do whatever i want as long as i'm not endangering my life. in fact actually, as long as i'm happy. i hate to conform to views and i'm thankful i wasnt pushed to any of that kind of shit at that point of time when i was growing up. i know my limits anyway. so like i said, i had my share of fun. for me, i thought i was unique and i could do so much more than just books, books, and books. i was so inspired by all the bands i listened to, all the female fronted shit, i wanted to sing and go out there, make a name. and i was so excited at the point of time when i joined a band, it was a dream come true. then again, it was a part of me growing up as i searched for my true identity. life goes on, and as i had fun along the way, i met someone who changed my life completely. here i'm talking about growing into yet another stage of life - young adulthood. love - for your friends, your family, and other r/s. the ability to love and the kind of intimacy shared. who i wanna date etc settle down or not... and as for me, i chose to commit in a relationship. i dont know how long am i going to stay stagnant at this stage, but i'm truly thankful i'm alive, learning bit by bit along w my love, and as well as documenting this down.

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fact: i think my post is getting lengthy so i figured i should throw a combined photo of my cutesy catboyz and myself, no doubt he's my favorite boy.

right now, i just want to live this stage to the fullest, the way i want it. the way i want to tell the world in future. i want to learn and experience as much as i can, also applies to the future as we enter the next stage - adulthood, middle age (think providing for our kids, helping the next generation) and eventually our aging years. by then i would be probably saying, "oh how i wish i was a kid again" hahaha before we touch on material and other responsibilities of the adult, i think we all see a pattern. life cycle. we have new crisis to face, and it's just another set of life's challenges.

September 11, 2011

Nothing but the beat,

title taken off from guetta's latest album hehe.
and i was bored at home last night, yes i did yes i did it, so please dont judge

LOL just for fun

caught some movies over the span of two weeks (or was it three) - crazy stupid love (gosh my dose of gosling goodness!!!!), bridesmaid, bad teacher. just downloaded friends w benefits and never let me go (andrew garfieild, keira knightley), excited for the latter!! also, uncle gabriel from my workplace has got a couple of dvds and cds from the 90s that he wanted to disposed, and he got us to grab what we want before he throw them away. i picked a dvd out of those - the wedding singer (1998) - from adam sandler and drew barrymore. that's where my fave song came from, and i cant wait to watch it w sean.

been lagging so much, but i'm still alive and kickin'. i started work at national heritage board, felt like it's a good environment so far, helps me a lot. i'd always feel that i learn more when i work anyways. my jobscope's pretty simple, i mean i'm just a temp staff. so handling mails, in-coming couriers, despatch to various departments and museums everyday, and to assist anyone in the office if they need any help and so-on, been sorting out documents! received so many boxes of mooncakes this week, seriously.. managed put my knowledge from my previous jobs to good use too - using the franking machine. i love how people in the office are really helpful, and offer to guide me through everything - especially philo! my new friend here, she's in her sixties yet she doesnt even seem like. still learning so much both within or outside my jobscope from her, a really wise woman who makes me think a lot about if what i'm doing is worth it or not. mdm tang and mdm yati from the same office are leaving next week, and i'll be taking charge over mdm tang's duties from next monday onwards all alone, gosh. this is pretty exciting isnt it? also attended their farewell reception on thursday (i dont have any pica w me) and there's mooncake festival celebration in the office on monday. i like how i feel like i'm working you know, lol no one bothered to invite me to company celebrations or have lunch w me when i was working at my previous work places.
so work didnt actually drain me out at all. but i have no time to blog since after work, i would be meeting up my friends over dinner and what not. i met five groups of friends last week, but i dont have a single picture yet, i'll get them up on here sometime later then.

last weekend,
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baked muffins (forgot to add in baking powder...... so it didnt even rise you see) what a failed attempt, dumped them all to sean in the end LOL too sweet of him to down them all even though they are pretty horrible. i told him that i will make a comeback LOL #joke

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heartshaped lolly @ a curious teepee
oh i bought breakfast for sean and his family that day! we all stay around the same area but they havent actually tried this fucking awesome carrot cake off bangkit. it's a random stall out of nowhere, not in a coffeeshop if you wonder. i had to wait for close to twenty minutes but it was worth it!! so i chionged all the way, lightning speed LOL because the carrot cake wouldnt be as nice if it's cold, ended up sweating like a dog. at times like this, i wished that i had my driver's license. gah.
ok back to a curious teepee, it's a pretty horrible place because they made us waited for an hour plus, for nothing. made orders and paid for our waffles and then an hour later, they said "they ran out of waffles" lol their machine spoiled or smth i dont know. yeah that only happened after an hour, the fuck? i mean obviously there was a refund, but still, what a bad dining experience!! no wait, what am i talking about, we didnt even get to dine lol

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oh hi this is good

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cheese shakers and my horhorhorlicks mcflurry
fattyfatty food, but they never disappoints

twelve cupcakes (http://www.twelvecupcakes.com)
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visited pretty @VienQY at work, cant remember when was the last time i see her, so long ago! been wanting to try these cupcakes since forever, have heard so much about them and read about them on the papers too. fucking finally. we got three of those pretty cupcakes, and they were incredibly good!!

sakae sushi,
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not a big fan of sakae sushi at all, i used to like it when i was a kid because we dont get to dine in these restaurants often. so the other day we were here again for buffet, and i must say this joint is pretty horrible. it cost us almost $40 for buffet dinner, like wtf $27++/pax added up to about $40, fucking scam seriously. thank god i made the money worthwhile - downed 13 plates in total by myself, and that inclusive of 8 red plates. yes v aunty, but i dont like to spend my money on food like that. i rather accumulate all these unnecessary expenditure and dine at somewhere nicer

and overdue picas from all over,
this is super long ago but i actually played my part for the 'cook a pot of curry day' on 21 august. and if you dont know what the event's about, you should be...ashamed. haha just go google it. i found that event quite interesting and wanted to join the fun, apparently i see a new upload on the event page every less than 5 minutes, it's amazing how everyone get involved in stuff like that. and also, #replacesongnameswithcurry started trending worldwide on twitter, LOL and yes we singaporeans started it, amazing.
i offered to cook dinner for my boy and his parents that weekend! told him i wanted to cook curry for him, so yeah might as well for the whole family you see. sean was stucked in army prior to that, and they had to go fetch him back while i spend sometime preparing some simple dishes for my lovely boy to come back home to,
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it's not too hard for me since i've been cooking all these chinese food since young, yes i love homecooked meals - and i will make sure my kids love it too
his parents were amazed w my vegs and of cos, my pot of curry. it's really not too bad. in fact extremely commendable for a first attempt. LOL shameless but yeah, so proud of myself you know
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main lead
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simple homecooked dinner for four yay!
xx

September 02, 2011

And it's progress, progress if it's made

this is extremely random, but i cant wait to catch ryan gosling in the theatres tomorrow.
oh and also try the new horlicks mcflurry, horlicks milkshake and cheese shaker fries from mcdonalds. i'm such a huge horlicks lover and i HAVE TO try it. the only time i had horlicks icecream was at island creamery, but oh well since macs have it.... i just have to. and i heard there's this new bacon shitz on their breakfast menu too. seriously mcdonalds, why all my fave things together, huh? want to earn my money so bad?! LOL well i got to try them all over the weekend anw.

also, i've gotten myself a job. starting next monday. not exactly excited at all, but i need money and that's exactly the reason why people work, no? so there goes my holidays. but i can still make time for dinner dates, people. am hoping i can pick up as much as i can while working, kinda like the idea of exposing myself to new people and new environments. i'm also trying to make a list of goals for myself, not exactly surprising since i've been doing so for the past decade and i admit i'm a avid goal setter (but completing it is totally another issue) it's fun setting goals you know - especially when you experience that sense of satisfaction if you accomplish them all. i love that feeling. so even though i'm working full time, it only takes up my day time, i'll have most of my evenings free and mostly i just want to have fun. i should be taking some time to compile my list though, but here's some:

1) bake/cook food or try a new recipe every week
2) dine at at least three totally new-to-me restaurants/cafes in the city
3) repaint my room and hang up photoframes
4) with that, reorganise my room gosh, storing shitass junk in boxes
5) get a film camera and start snapping away
6) take more pictures of myself and others
7) make it a point to look awesome at least five times a week
8) get more makeup and look for the perfect lipstick
9) restring my guitar and do random covers
10) pick up at least two new skills
11) clear my wardrobe, either start a flea w my girls or donate them to salvation army
12) stayover @ mins
13) mid autumn w my girls, or our picnic/tze char date to work
14) have a picnic
15) meet up and spend time w people i've neglected
16) have dinner (or dinner parties) w friends
17) spend more quality time w sean
18) go to the river or visit new places at every opportunity
19) arrange my chrome bookmark folder
20) sell something online
21) get at least one photoshoot done
22) make a scrapbook
just listing them down has got me so pumped, haha and yes hi i'm weird like that.

i have some pictures to share from the whole of last week:
nus arts bash 2011,
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that's my cousin for you, haha looking so dashing that night.
so it was actually my first time attending a uni pageant and it was quite an experience? expected more like question and answers session this and that, but it didnt happen. and the whole event was just so short and it was actually a little boring, thank god for jiahui, xinhong and jacq's company. but still, am proud of my cousin clinching both mr groovy and mr glow!!

so right after the pageant, i pulled sean along w me for supper because my tummy started growling and make weird noises non-stop for no apparent reason (though i had my meal), thought i should just feed myself again oh well
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and there you go- my chilli noodles, yuan yang and har gao, and sean's kaya toast!! been eating a lot at hk cafe recently. the other day after tzechar dinner w jasmin and gang, we had dimsum at hk cafe too... and if i'm not wrong, we're meeting this weekend again for sushi buffet lol, life of a glutton srsly. that also explains where most of our money go.

soup restaurant,
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i've not tried the samsui ginger chicken at soup restaurant (ikr.......) so sean brought me there and omg we actually finished the whole portion of samsui chicken (serves 4), lotus root soup and some toufu dish, and you can see how bloated we were - close to dying haha i'm serious. but it was so gooooooooood, i will never get sick of that samsui ginger chicken omg, it's so perfect. i want it in my mouth right now no joke.
(been eating so much chinese food recently i realise)

simply sandwich,
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met pretty gerri for breakfast one day last week! apparently strictly pancakes was closed and we had no choice but to make our way to somewhere else. popped by this place called simply sandwich off the cbd area, and it's pretty good for sandwiches! caught up w gerri over breakkie, it's been so long.. way too long, the last time we met/set down for a meal was i think, three years ago? gonna plan another dinner date w her sometime this month.

xx

September 01, 2011

We go together like copy and paste,

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last weekend, we met up w gaggy to help her out w her photo assignment. i thought the photos turned out really pretty (i love all of them) despite my much horrible receding hairline..... i really have to do something about it before turning bald even before i hit 20. thanks gaggy for the pictures, i hope we'd helped!

so the other day when we were waiting for a bus to town, i told sean something really cheesy, this line that i got from somewhere i dont even rmb. haha well we had fun coming up w more nonsense before boarding the bus and i thought i should just share it here,

me: without you, i'm a pencil without lead, pointless. (LOL srsly cheesex3)
sean: without you, i'm eating tori-q chicken without tori-q sauce, tasteless. (love this one)
me: without you, i'm painting a picture using just black and white, colorless.
sean: without you, i'm having an arrow and not having a target, aimless.
sean: without you, i'm a head with nothing inside, brainless.
sean: without you, i'm like having a butt and nothing inside, shitless.

hahaha we're made of nonsense, but i love us just this way. hehe love you so much my skinny bean.