November 04, 2012

What's so good about picking up the pieces?

back to the caraphernelia days, while also imagining living like a king some day (thanks to ptv and kellin quin) replaying this two tracks for the rest of my life.

so lots of things have happened, i'm sure you guys are aware of it because i've been getting lots of texts and messages from everywhere checking on me. thankyou everyone for being so sweet, i really appreciated it. well, but i dont know where and how to start writing about this, and i dont actually think that it's necessary for me to pen down a closure and tell you guys what exactly happened. there's a reason why friends are grouped into different categories, and there's also a reason why the term 'close friends' exist. i just want to say that, at least it was all good while it lasted. this love we had was real, and we were nothing less than perfect. i was definitely the luckiest person alive when we were together, but things just didnt work out. i felt that a part of me was missing, and bad things just kept entering my thoughts. it was mutual. put it this way, "sometimes you miss the memories, not the person." this was quite applicable. then again, thank god memories never die. at least we didnt continue that drag, and am not drowning into self pity that much comparatively to how it was a month back. tears are not overwhelming me anymore. even though i still dont know what the fuck do i want and expect out of it, for all i know, love does not mean you have to hold on to it forever. haha why do i feel like i've grown so much.

frankly speaking, i really missed how things used to be. been so used to waking up to texts, or the other way round. i miss having a certain someone there for you. thankfully i've got so many distractions at the moment, so much workload, it's super annoying. i cant even work now (oh fuck...) but at least i dont even have to look for things to keep me occupied. feeling odd these days, but i also accepted the fact that things are not the same anymore.

ending this off w some old photos from equarius hotel two weekends ago, that didnt get up onto fb (hahaha sorry for that lameass heading, but i'm not even lying)
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