sunrise on the east side,

Woah, woah, woah, woah.

2012-01-26T00:14:00.005+08:00

didnt expect myself to get addicted to this song, been listening to it few weeks straight. so i had to..... pardon me.

i like a phone call, i like to hear something like this. woah, woah, woah, woah. a conversation, that maybe leads into a kiss. (aha) mwoah, mwoah, mwoah, mwoah. aah, say that you love me, say that you need me too. best you ever had. it could be so easy, for you to please me, baby. so how come you tease me? you told me so what do you say? all you gonna take is not a opportunity. won't you give it to me, because you've got what i want. maybe it's my lucky day. just like the first spark, and watch the fireworks explode. boom boom, baby. you've got a fast car, so why the hell we driving slow? zoom, zoom, zoom me. kisses on my pillow, i've hundreds of those, though. i want something more. so congratulations, it's not the occasion they went. i get my way. you told me so what do you say? all you gonna take is not a opportunity. won't you give it to me, because you've got what i want. maybe it's my lucky day.

and more photobooth pica from few days ago. cny eve i guess, i had to kill time you see,

my cny was not too bad, i dont have lots of photos w me since my camera sort of broke down. i still can snap pictures w it, but the touchscreen isnt working at all. i cant change any functions, set timer, i cant even delete photos. oh and i cant use my flash at all since it's set to no-flash before the touch pad went mad. sigh. food was good. i gained a few pounds from all the eating and snacking but it's all fine. my family have got like more than 30 different cny goodies (i'm not even joking a bit), well mom and i didnt bake any goodies this year though. but we went shopping for cny goodies tgt, and i couldnt ask for more. i really love spending time w my mom, but i haven been doing so...... also, i got to cook for my extended family as usual on cny day one. i've been doing it for more than six years alr. day two was spent at sean's relative's crib, well ban luck (blackjack) was good. ban ban a few times and ban luck x2 when i was the banker, seriously what are the chances? what a good start of the year lol, huat ah.

& i figured, sometimes life is really nice.

what a random post. (oh yeah im trying to kill time)

Fresh and lovely like a dream come true,

2012-01-22T04:13:00.004+08:00

neat.

made a trip down to plain vanilla bakery last friday! i'm pretty determined to find the best cupcake in singapore hahaha, especially since so many cupcakes shop has sprung up here and there. that's one of my goals (i'm serious lol). okay or find my favorite one at least..... i should make an effort in trying as many different cupcakes places as possible. so i was quite determined to head down after reading all the positive reviews! apparently, sean found out about the bakery even before me... well, good effort! we had a little difficulty locating the shop, so if you're thinking about heading down, remember it's tucked away on the second level.

i picked up a red velvet cupcake as usual, while sean went for the milk chocolate banana. red velvet seemed like a safe choice for me, and also i've made a mission to try red velvet cakes/cupcakes whenever possible. there isnt any seats available, so we had to move to somewhere else instead - decided to have our lunch at 211 roof terrace cafe.

the cupcakes were moist, and the frosting was nice and light - they werent too sweet (which is good, so you can keep eating them!)

it's really amazing how these little sugary treats makes me/one so happy.

Plain Vanilla Bakery
34A Lorong Mambong, Holland Village
Singapore 277691
tel: (65) 64655942

211 roof terrace cafe,

grew up in the west, and of cos, i've been to holland v for countless times. in fact, very often! however, dining at 211 was my first. we took advantage of the lunch time set menu, and there we had the soup of the day, a main course, as well as a lemon meringue tart. the food wasnt fantastic, and in fact very disappointing, portion wised.........

palais renaissance,

decided to head down to town at late noon, sigh, we are boring people we dont know where else to and we always ended up in town!! thank god we decided to drop off earlier, and went to palais renaissance (i wanted to check out ps cafe). there's a galleria showing lots of art work and painting. spent quite some time there before moving on for our usual snacks (tori-q and bbt fix) and window shopping.

made our way to zenso (sunshine plaza) for a simple dinner. so after last friday, i've officially tried three out of four/five thai restaurants along that stretch of sunshine plaza. next time, i'm gonna try the last one and also hook up w custard pau from victor's kitchen :)

heh x2

xxxxxxxxxx

& before i go, happy chinese new year my dear friends!! steamboat w the extended family tmr, and possibly, some bonding w my cousin who just flew back from the uk. i'm looking forward to playing mahjong though.... huat ah! ;)

Daily word,

2012-01-16T02:35:00.001+08:00

on this day of your life, zhengning, we believe god wants you to know that humans learn only by trial and error, and that includes you.

" you've got to live life, not think about it. step into the midst of things, try and fail and learn and stand up again. the question is not whether you will or will not make mistakes - you will. the question is do you want to learn and grow, or do you want to shrink back and be stuck? take that step you've been avoiding. you can succeed, or you can get feedback that it didn't work, but in either case you are sure to feel alive. "

please dont leave me alone w my thoughts...............

Week one,

2012-01-14T03:05:00.008+08:00

in pictorial form,

i cant believe how quickly time flies by, it's almost two weeks into the new year. even though school has officially resumed: projects submissions, deadlines and assessments drawing near, i'm still in this burnt-out, post holiday mind. so i can see why it's taking me a little more time to get into the swing of things.

the first week of the new year always feels special, well for me at least, since i'm a sucker for fresh starts. i took advantage of the beautiful weekend - dragged sean down to farmer's market early in the morning, one°15 for sean's mom's birthday celebration in the afternoon/evening, and wavehouse's anniversary party at night - had to maximize my weekend i guess, since all these "free time" would disappear soon as we go further into the semester...... you hear that, four more weeks before our study break and i'm officially done w year two.

i cant wait to graduate.

the loewen garden farmers' market,

i wouldnt have expected a farmers’ market in singapore if i did not stumble upon it online - apparently there are a few in singapore, but it doesnt happen every weekend. so i told myself i had to make a trip down and experience one myself on one of the saturdays when it's open. like i said, it was a beautiful weekend - farmers' market was open, and it was a nice and sunny day - i couldnt convince myself to stay in. so sean had to suffer w me lol, forced him to get out off his lala land and head down to loewens garden w me.

there were various stalls selling breads, cheese, homemade baked goods, wine, organic fruits and vegetables, and gourmet meat. bought a chocolate cupcake ($4) and a cheese scone ($4.50) from the pantry cooking school as well as the elderflower poppy cake ($3.50) from sadie rose for breakfast. the area's pretty small though, so it's better not to have too high expectations (i was expecting something huge.... haha) - but it's a good experience i guess. am in love w the laid-back and kind folk setting, definitely a gem and sweet recreation of escaping city life.

went back to back up a little before heading down to one°15 to celebrate sean's mom's birthday,

from the bathroom

it's my first time in sentosa cove actually, ikr what a county bumpkin i am... but it was good, there's always a start to everything i believe. thanks to sean's mom, i got the privilege to check out this yacht club off sentosa cove.

we went ahead to check out the infinity pool, before having dinner at imperial treasure.

apparently, you could dine while in the pool

we spent the rest of the afternoon sitting by the pool, admiring the view overlooking marina, looking at caucasian kids learning how to swim, talking about anything and everything while doing some sort of people-watching.... apparently i got a little burnt (which i have no idea how because the sun wasnt that bright in the afternoon) lol. still, i loved every single bit of it...

we got out the pool and spotted a rainbow, i mean it's no biggie but we dont get this often? the last time i spotted one was maybe more than a year ago if i'm not wrong. well, actually i'm not too sure.. but i do get excited everytime i spot one.

and back to the room. view from the balcony was even more stunning in the evening, i managed to capture a shot,

sweet.

we ended the night at wavehouse, and nope, i did not head down for the flowrider.. went to look for jiahui and louis! check out their event page - ShowAvenue. apparently, i managed to find a photo of us from stomp. i look horrible though.

and even earlier on, right at the start of week one, i attended jon's and eileen's 21st birthday party! it's been five years since we graduated from secondary school, gosh. and now we're all turning twenty one already.....
eileen's twentyfirst,

super cute cake!

and a group photo w the girls and sunny for keepsake.

i've yet to post pictures of my trip to vietnam (though i have it on my fb alr), i still like the idea of keeping a 'photo diary' and jot down little details here and there. i cant wait for my next trip, i dont know when will it happen though, but i'm positive it'll happen before mid year. uhhh... hopefully! but now, i just want to save up, as much as i can. $.$ i have a goal yo. cny's in a week, am not particularly looking forward to it, but as usual, those cny goodies never fail to make me happy. and high.

snooze!

One last bit,

2012-01-06T03:44:00.003+08:00

last christmas (i know this post came so x3 late),

my two favorites this year (ok apparently i meant 2011): paragon's and knightbridge's.
i still remember clearly five years ago, a boy made a promise that he'll go around sg, and take photos of all the christmas trees w me. haha and right till now, i'm still pretty ambitious even though my plan fails every christmas since then. only managed to head down to town the years that followed.

and there you go, second christmas w my favoritest.

buffet dinner on chirstmas eve w sean's family at cafe vanda (paramount hotel), and a little gift exchange back at home. the spread was pretty good: turkey, ham, gratin, brocolli, steak, logcakes, butter and choc cookies, salmon, cream puff etc... just some of my fave food listed. sean and i had six rounds worth of food apparently hehe. got to choose what i want from sean, and vice versa. i got him a ben sherman top - i was in vietnam that week and couldnt head down to collect from the store w him, how funny he had to ask for a gift box (for a gift for himself lol), the salesperson must be thinking, "this guy damn loner can" hahaha. felt so loved giving and receiving presents at the same time, i love christmas!!

back at home,

yay everyone's so happy receiving their presents haha x

my happy boy w his presents!

sean's mom insisted that we have a family portrait together.... lol. if you look closely, lucy's wearing a santarina outfit haha too cute please

bbq at sean's w the girls and our +1s!!! our second christmas gift exchange and counting,

lovelovelovelove x

made a collage of the gift exchange! we did it the angel-mortal way - my angel's my gaggy gag and my mortal's mins!! hehe i actually prefer it this way especially when we kinda have an idea what each other likes, rather than buying a unisex gift and all (which i always end up buying girly stuff haha, so much for 'unisex') oh we had a dress code that night, we were all s'pposed to wear white,

& our usual timershots, hahaha. we're really too good at it alr, moving and switching positions way too fast hahaha, #likeapro.

last christmas gift exchange for 2011,

bad hair day though urgh.

met up w jiahui, jacq, chinyi, tian and manuela for lunch! i joined them in annual gift exchange this time round. it was new year's eve that day by the way. sean and i decided to go on a little date after lunch w them, before heading back for new year eve's dinner.

finally some decent picas w the boy after......more than month!

this year, sean's mom suggested having a simple meal at home instead of the usual eating-out at a restaurant etc, since they eat out pretty often. and i agree it's more special like that. so i offered to make something for everyone - eggs en cocotte w bacon. it was my first try and im really satisfied w how it turned out! excited for the next round, i'm gonna throw in more things to bake my egg w.

thai sauce chicken and satay from rsyc, and sean's mom whipped the rest.

our humble spread of food, and my eggs en cocotte!
thinking of posting the recipe to it in a separate post. haha i've been cooking a lot lately, and i have no complaints at all. in fact, to bake/cook and try out new recipes's one of my many new years' resolutions..

went over to jacq's house after dinner for countdown! spent the night playing cards and mahjong w the group, while tian and yt made pancakes for us.

that's my first meal of 2012 for you x

i guess my 2011 wasnt that bad afterall. cant believe how fast 2011 went though, felt like i was just doing that twenty ten sum up post few months ago. maybe that could be because i dont post that often that i used to anymore? i really wish to blog more this year though, and to jot down all the happy moments in my life. doesnt really make sense now if i were to sum up what happened in 2011 (it's a week into 2012 already), i really should've been more diligent in blogging haha.
new life goals this year definitely. and i'm ready to work towards my target, so bring it on ohohoh!

ending my post w my favorite from our studio photoshoot way back last september,

thanks for a love like this bab. you were the best part of 2011, and something tells me you'll be the same for this year. i know we'll have a wonderful 2012 together x

Land of Smiles,

2011-12-31T04:24:00.011+08:00

after much proscrastination (i was busy alright), it' finally time to relive the memories of our bangkok trip!! got to do this one before 2011 ends. i just want to say we've been extremely lucky that things went smoothly, we both had a good time at bangkok - people there were looking so good, and the thais were nothing but wonderful to us. oh and how could i forget about all the yummy food we had, esp thai iced tea?
i've gotten quite a number of questions on my fs asking about where to head to, as well as if i'm gonna post my itinerary on my blog. to be honest, there were lots of changes to my pre-planned itinerary, but it was all good. our trip's pretty much more of a leisure trip, so it's more of shopping than sight-seeing. i'll try my best to jot down as much as i can.

day one
my dear boy was so tired but still, he managed to squeeze out some time to go on a trip w me because he knew i wanted one so bad. he touched down singapore from aussie at 6am, three hours later, took another flight w me to bkk. we took the same flight as hector and gf, as well as xiong and his friends (bumped into them at the airport wow how coincidental).

first photo of my boy after three weeks :')

bear w me, it's my first time on the plane after five years (i feel sad for myself), my family dont travel together at all and i have to save up to go on a trip myself. maybe that's why i'm constantly seen travelling to the east/north of sg just so that i'm not stucked within my small estate. traveling again after so long, so i had to snap, and i cant stop snapping. lol but dont worry i'll make up for what i've not done these few years - i'll travel as much as i can now that we all have some savings.

travelogue/travel booklet i made for the both of us, yes i'm that excited haha.

the plane touched down in the afternoon. we got our bkk prepaid sim card from the airport before making our way to get a cab. well i guess it's mostly due to the 'flood' situation, the airport wasnt as packed as what i thought would be, though we still got to queue for quite some time at the counter. we arrived at the hotel (baiyoke boutique hotel) that we prebooked from tigerairways at around 2pm, it was much better than what we expected! i mean, we only paid about 48sgd/night.. plus, we were granted privileges to access baiyoke sky's facilities since both hotels are managed by the baiyoke group of hotels. the bellboys were really friendly and helpful too, and they spoke really good english.

we left the hotel and had our first meal at bkk, some eatery along ratchaprop road, before heading to check out platinum fashion mall.

tomyam soup w rice, and fried rice (about 100baht each)
we took quite some time navigating and getting used to reading from a map. i love it though, i'd always love navigating my own way out. our first day wasnt that much about shopping, it's mostly on checking out and exploring the area around our hotel. i love how 7-11s are everywhere. oh and street side food,

and i missed these, i can have them all day. these cup corn w extra butter, sugar and condensed milk's only 10baht/15 baht, i cant remember. but it's less than 1sgd fosho. and we all know we cant find 1sgd cupcorns in singapore.

we got these potato balls! mad cheap too. but it wasnt to my liking...

loots from the first day, and w the christmas deco outside platinum fashion mall x

headed back to our hotel to drop off our loots before checking out the night markets along khao san street.

khao san's quite a distance from our hotel though so we took a cab. in fact, we traveled mostly by cab throughout our trip. the cabs are really affordable so we dont really see a point taking the train (which we might end up getting lost) but i thought it would be a good experience to. well since cabbing in bkk's considerably dirt cheap compared to singapore, we chose to go on w it.

khao san's mostly filled w caucasians since it's centre of the backpackers' alley. i love how music began blasting from streetside sound systems, and where people started singing along, dancing, etc. spells nightlife, there're so many bars here, and they're all safe - not in a sleezy manner.
and of cos, i love the food here so damn much. fyi i had phad thai at 3 different places out of our 4 days trip, and the phad thai we had here was the cheapest(35baht only!!), yet the nicest of all.

yumyumyum phad thai! in fact food is nothing to worry about when you're in khao san.

we also tried the banana pancake, w condensed milk, various bbq meat etc.
and of cos, thai iced tea (from the streets ranging from 15 to 30baht). and we had like five cups a day?

no we didnt get to try it, haha i dare not.....

there are people dancing on the streets etc.

khao san's probably my favorite place right after chatuchak weekend market.
took a cab back to our hotel, and we called it a night.

day two
since we brought empty luggages over, i didnt have clothes to wear the next day! woke sean up as soon as i did lol, dragged him down to go shop w me since i've read that the thais start their day pretty early. and it's true, so many makeshift stalls were set up!! i heard it happens every morning, but anw i got myself few tops and a romper (and got ourselves some streetside food for breakfast). got back to change and all before taking a cab to the chatuchak weekend market.

this was around 7.30/8am.

probably the best shit ever, hahaha. we had these little fried balls three days in a row. so good!!

chatuchak weekend market,

v pretty decos, i guess you can use them for weddings and tea parties. so pretty!

random book store

thai iced tea w grass jelly, quail eggs w soy sauce, fried wanton, sausages wrapped w bacon...... there were so much snacks we couldnt stop snacking even though lunch time was near.

i love this place. i really do. they have all kinds of things here, and i mean ALL kinds of things - clothes, accessories, household stuff such as porcelain and plates, toys, pets, food of course, footwear, furniture, flurry animals - everything! i was reading online that there are supposedly more than 10,000 stalls at the weekend market, and i thought to myself, what is this bragging all about, 10k stalls seriously? lol but after seeing it for myself, it’s clearly no exaggeration.... it's impossible to comb every single stall, the lanes are like mazes.

coconut icecream, w two toppings of your choice.
i cant remember if this was 25 or 30 baht, but either way, it's less than 1.50sgd. a must-try.

and more shops on the way, we stopped by for lunch instead of grabbing snacks from the streets. fried rice and tomyam noodles. it was a tad more expensive, but it was really bad. also a proof that you dont always get what you pay for.

cupcakes~

i'm sure every girls own at least a pair of denim high-waisted shorts from 'the dude'?? okay maybe not all, but most of the girls! i have two pairs myself. guess what, i found the store at chatuchak! grabbed a pair myself of cos!

we spent half the day at chatuchak, bought so many things!! should have spent another day a there though. decided to give chinatown a miss, i'm not sure but i read that there is nothing much at chinatown (unless you're heading there for some yummy dimsum/chinese food)

took a cab to siam - the central shopping district - where we spent the rest of the day exploring siam center, siam discovery centre, mbk centre and siam square. siam paragon's actually just next to siam center, didnt know that mbk centre and siam square was also just directly opposite the road till we reached siam station itself. we found out that central world was also nearby but we planned to head there on our third day, so we delibrately gave it (and siam paragon) a miss, in case we had nowhere to shop on our third day.

pandora's red velvet and irish coffee cupcakes.

bangkok art and culture centre,

a visit to the art and culture centre was totally unplanned! we chanced upon this place completely by accident when wandering around siam. dont expect to see much of thai culture in there, you would be pretty much disappointed. we managed to see photos taken during the recent flood though. still, i like how free and quiet this place is, especially when it's right in the middle of bangkok.

siam square,

the shops are pretty similar to chatuchak's, but a tad more expensive. kinda expected since it's situated right at the shopping district.

we decided to head to patpong (red light district) at night, patpong's found around silom. the distance's slightly further than the distance to khao san, so the cab fare was a little tad more expensive, and that's also because the cab driver chose to take the expressway (we had to pay for the extra fee at the checkpoint). also, many cabbies didnt want to send us to patpong using the taxi meter, i think we skipped about five cabs before we took one that was alright w charging us according to meter. the hotel bellboy suggested us not to head to patpong, but we went ahead anyway.

and well, we should've listened to the bellboy. patpong was sucha disappointment.
there wasnt much to buy, gosh there's no streetside food at all! and everyone's just pulling you into the sleezy gogo bars w girls shaking their wares, tiger shows they say. i guess they do serve food afterall, but you got to pay so much since you have to watch the shows if you enter the bars. (i've heard about ppl spending 1k baht in there for nothing) but it wasnt appropriate since i'm w my boy? haha i mean if he visits patpong w a group of army boys, and they got all horny and wanna catch those sex shows, i would understand. but definitely, not really ideal for couples lol, i guessed that mr bellboy saw all that coming. combed the street in less than ten minutes... we didnt want to head back so early, so we just took a walk aimlessly and explored around silom before cabbing back to petchburi road, just few street away from our hotel, for some decent dinner.

wantan mee soup! how i love street side food, this bowl of wantan mee's less than 2sgd.

wasted money for bubbletea at the mall, it's so so so bad. thai iced tea ftw!!! (plus thai iced tea's so much cheaper?? dont be dumb like me) bought two sticks of drumlets back, got cheated by the vendor here though , he charged us about thrice the original price but oh well...... at least the drumlets are yummy haha.

day three

woke up really early on our third day. it happens to be our eleventh monthsary too, and we planned to go on a decent date - w that, i meant decent place to shop, and omit street food. instead, we'll dine at a nicer restaurant. vertigo and sirroco in mind, but both were out of our budget this time round, sigh. even though i bought quite a lot of clothes the previous day, i did not have any fancy/appropriate dress and shoes for dinner. no choice but to head to pratunam wholesale market and platinum fashion mall right in the morning.

our breakfast and lunch at platinum fashion mall x
so much love for my phad thai (45baht) and kfc chicken tenders (25baht, approx 1sgd)!!!! i love bkk.

colorful hair accessories and ribbons found in platinum!
it was a wise choice. the mall was packed to the brim with hundreds of fashion shops spread over six levels. well, i spent some quality time there if you wonder x

got back, changed to my new loots before walking to central world and siam paragon.

shrines can be found outside every major shopping mall, including central world, where devotees would pray.

stopped by for cupcakes at cupcake love.

a shop at central world that sells scones, and only scones. so pretty!!

bought these pretty doughs from istean, central world. they had some japanese food fair going on, and i swear everything was looking so good, so tempting!! we bought these, really soft buns and dipped them w condensed milk.......... bliss.

bought a mini pizza to try! but the next minute, it went rolling on the floor... there goes my mini pizza.

we went to siam paragon next, a very upmarket shopping centre - definitely appeals to the upper class more. they have an impressive number of shops and a real huge gourmet market at the ground level! we decided to settle our dinner at siam paragon instead since the restaurants there was pretty decent, in fact we were spoilt for choice.

dinner was at amici by pomodoro,

of cos, food was much more pricey compared to streetside food(30baht can easily get you fried rice/noodles etc). the pasta here cost around 280/300baht (11sgd) well, still cheaper than those in sg!!

what a lovely place

day four
our last day! since there wasn’t much time left for the day, we decided to just head straight to platinum to get my clutches, shoes, as well as gifts for my friends and family.

and of cos, breakfast that we gotten ourselves along the way. quail eggs (this time round, even cheaper! less than a dollar), fried balls, and fried instant noodles (which were so damn good, even though it's only you know, instant noodles) x

bought lunch back! we had to check out at 12, so we decided to head for early lunch.
these wings are to die for, so crispy! and they are only 10baht each...........

third and my last phad thai in bkk....

suvarnabhumi airport,

we left bangkok w two luggages full of clothes! bear in mind we came w empty luggages! definitely a fruitful trip. we decided to grab one last meal at the airport since we have some thai baht left. though there was a whole row of nice restaurants, we didnt have much choices left. we spent all our money on shopping and had a couple of hundred bahts left only. managed to find something we can afford though,

we spent our last 250baht on a cup of thai iced tea (100baht) and tom yum rice cookies (150baht). the thai iced tea sold at the airport was almost ten times the price of ones sold along the street, but it's really good. no regrets.

roamed around the airport before we depart, and it's finally time to bid bangkok farewell. it was a fun and memorable trip. traveling's addictive, definitely looking forward to more trips tgt especially after sean's ord. i'm sure there will be, we have a lifetime to go anyways. x

related posts:
cupcakes in bangkok - sugary bliss
bangkok trip 2011 video for keepsake

Sugary Bliss,

2011-12-30T14:55:00.001+08:00

prior to our bkk trip, i did a little research/hunt online on cupcakes in bkk. told myself i had to hunt and have some cupcakes in bkk, and i did. two days in a row in fact. it's not exactly a big deal actually since the cupcakes phenomenon has been around for years since 06 (or even earlier), but i just had to. these little pieces of sugary bliss are one of those many things that makes me really happy.

red velvet cupcake from pandora
i was pretty excited about their cupcakes after looking on their website and seeing their amazing flavour selection. they even come in different sizes: S, M, L, XL!!

felt i had to try the red velvet and sean decided to go with the irish coffee cupcake. well, he isnt much of a coffee lover, but i dont exactly like rich chocolate, in fact, anything chocolaty(oreo and chocolate chips cookie are fine though). they are really good, the cake was moist yet a little crumbly and the sour cream frosting on my red velvet cupcake was just really different. i really like it.
plus, it was only 75baht each (approx 3sgd)! well definitely tasted so much better than some of the cupcakes i've tried in singapore, that cost so much more. this, such a steal!

red velvet cupcake, irish coffee cupcake from pandora

Pandora
3F Siam Center/ 5F The Emporium/ the avenue chaengwattana
all stores are in bangkok, thailand
email: info@pandorabakeshop.com
tel: +662 9800950

red velvet cupcake from cupcake love
facts first: cupcake love is lead by nisa dachoponchai who crafted her baking skills at le cordon bleu’s reputable culinary arts school. most cupcakes are 80 baht (about 3.30sgd) , or you can buy four mini cupcakes for 125 baht.

the array of scrumptious looking cupcakes on display makes it a daunting task to choose which ones to try. we decided to pay a little more and go ahead with the red velvet cupcake w a little red cross on the frosting, instead of the usual heart shaped ones - where part of the earnings will go to the victims of the recent flood. they had an impressive assortment and all of the cupcakes looked very appetizing, the decos at the shop too - they were so pretty!!!

red velvet cupcake from cupcake love
however, where they do a good job in providing assortment, their cupcakes came out too dry. though i thought the frosting was pretty fine, the cupcakes from cupcake love did not exactly leaves me a good impression...

Cupcake Love

3rd Floor Digital Gateway Building and 7th Floor Central World

email: info@lovebakeshop.com

tel: 081-496-3130

also came across a few more other options,
cup-cakerie, cupcake carousel, sparkles
i really want to try sparkles the next time i head to bangkok, gourmet bakery owned by thai-american, sophie. they have got fifty five flavors to choose from, omg?

plus, i would really really really want some thai iced tea cupcake now.....
but where can i get it?

Live on doughnuts,

2011-12-26T23:24:00.001+08:00

i'm back from my seven-days vietnam trip! felt kinda detached from the world even though i had access to internet via jm's netbook almost everyday. i miss everyone, especially my favorite boy of course. still, i spent too much on smses. despite vomiting twice and having severe diarrhea during one of the many nights there, it was a good trip. i learnt so much, love the fact that we pick up skills and learn things along the way - not just about the culture, people, but also ourselves. will blog about it soon(i know i haven even blogged about bkk, but i'll try my best to do them all asap!) came back just in time for christmas! x

sean got me a mini doughnut maker from little chefs, when he was in australia earlier on last month. i've always wanted one of these! showed him a link from thinkgeek eons ago, he must have remembered that i wanted it. the popular ones are from babycakes though. besides this mini doughnut maker, thinkgeek offers mini cupcake maker, personal pie maker, and pop art teaser. so few weeks ago, we gave our new toy a try! bought premix from the grocery store instead of mixing our own batter, and it didnt turn out sweet at all, we had to dip our doughnuts in sweetened condensed milk - but that's alright both of us love condensed milk (so much we can even eat it from the can itself) lol. this one's really easy to use, furthermore cleaning up was effortless since the cooking surface is non-stick. the next time we play w our new toy, i'm gonna frost them; roll my doughnuts in sugar, sprinkle them w cinnamon sugar, chocolate drizzles.....

Twenty years and twenty more,

2011-12-16T01:53:00.020+08:00

just got home from town, almost died on the bus... apparently it took me more than 45min to travel down from dhoby ghaut to far east plaza, which i could do it in less than 20min by foot, wtf. this public transport system in sg's really having some serious issues. yes and i dont really wanna go on on the price hikes for cabs. as much as we wanna boycott them all, we cant.. still got to rely on these public transports. so sad.
on a happier note, i'm finally done w this term. which means another term to go and i'm done w my forth semester in np. time flies. exactly two years in sajc, and now two years in np already. wow..... i cant wait to out of poly though i have no solid plans at all what to do after i graduate. some plans in my head, but still not quite yet..

so i officially turned 20, and entered a new decade last week. oh and that's also my second birthday spent w sean. it's quite a strange feeling not to be a teenager anymore because seriously, i really dont feel like a twenty-something. i'm pretty excited though, this one's quite a milestone, marks a nerve racking stage of life. can you believe we might all probably get married in like what, five years? gosh...
thanks everyone for the gifts, for coming to hang with me and for celebrating my birthday w me, it really meant so much to me. love you all so much.

i was asked to keep the eve and actual day free. right after school on the 5th, i headed over to his crib. i knew he was going to cook me a feast either on the eve/actual day. i mean it's quite obvious because he didnt deny it (what's there to deny anw) and he actually took off on both eve/actual day of my birthday. i made a post on it previously trying to guess what was he making in the kitchen. i got 2/4 of it right though, ok good try still haha

first and second course: cream of mushroom, garlic butter shrimps.

comes w a menu too haha! (and if you wonder how sean's handwriting's like...)

third course: baked cod fish in cream sauce w asparagus and greens

fourth course: creme brulee
so yummy! i love the baked cod fish the best, definitely satisfied my fish craving for that week. i love how my boy could read me like an openbook. oh and he got so addicted to making creme brulee? i knew he spent so much time on it, and i loved how he wanted to amaze me w the blowtorch, but failed because we didnt get gas. how cute. he did it the second time though! so hopeful that sean never gets tired/bored of making them, i'll definitely be a happy girl (and happy tummyyyyyy too)

the morning of my birthday, i woke up to the doorbell - ok yes apparently my boy's at the door. so me being me, i refused to reach for the door. fyi i dont actually response to the door bell especially in the morning (srsly hate salesmen trying to push sales at the door, so yeah, learnt to not response at all). my mom took quite a while before opening the door (yes the bell went on, but no one cares. so you know what to do if you should look for me haha CALL MY MOBILE). my boy came over and surprised me w homemade breakfast! definitely a great way to start off the day. he stayed on till i got to leave for school.

sean brought me up to ku de ta at mbs for dinner, i've wanted to go there since forever after hearing how beautiful the view is up there. made a reservation at the outdoor seat - which was even better - since there was some function happening in the indoor section itself. and i must say, the setting was so beautiful. thank god for the perfect weather. i felt like i was on the top of the world hahahaa.
realized that i'm really someone who'll buy into the experience after all these years, really enjoyed the luxury infusion of the restaurant/bar. the food was not bad at all, i'm in love w the curry prawns.... well still, quote zn "the food was good, but the view was even better" 'nough said.

crunchy jumbo soft shell crab
yellow curry crystal prawn tempura (this is damn good)

whole baby chicken teriyaki
steamed akitakomachi (steamed white rice for sgd5)

the meal was kinda filling surprisingly.

and of course, we took a stroll on the observation deck after dinner. apparently you got to pay $20 for the skypark charge, but we omitted it! and the view from the 57th floor of mbs (200m in the sky) was magnificent at all angles.... unbeatable. took a view of singapore's skyline at level 33 previously, got to agree the view from mbs's much prettier! both are still stunning though in my opinion.

outfit: black mesh jumper: F21; clutch, shoes: BKK
i thought it would be wise to do an outfit shot right on the top of mbs, haha.

pear cheesecake from sweet spot, it was not bad!
sean sent me back right after since i have got to attend school the next day, sigh. he stayed w me through the night though, so technically i spent the whole of my bday w him (he left after 12am the night before and on the same night)
felt so loved the whole day, thanks love!! x

celebrated my bday w my girls too! this one's at creation cafe.
we ordered multiple plates of laksa cream pasta and javanese curry pasta, so so so yummyyy. now i get what the hype is all about.

sucha pretty palette from my girls!! and also, a set of brushes i'd need!

one of the reasons why i love the fact that my birthday falls in december would be because of the pretty christmas lights/decos.

lunch w the usuals the next day, these girls are such sweeties - they surprised me w a bouquet of flowers and a balloon! i love flowers haha, i want a garden in my house in future.. lots and lots of flowers. haha ok stop dreaming alr.

met jm, hy, cj for dinner the same night!

eight years of friendship, wow. two more years to a decade w these girls, can you believe it?? x

vietnam trip w the girls in a day (ok i still have got packing to do tonight). so excited just by googling all the places we could go! will be there for seven days, i'll be back just in time for christmas. might not be blogging on bkk tonight, so probably till seven days later but i hope to post it up before the next year. i'm also thinking of getting a new layout for the blog. short term goal, lol.

made smth for sean's parents,

heading off to christmas shopping w the boy tomorrow!! gonna crack our brains still have got no idea what to get for sean's parents and sister, and of course, sean's..... (biggest headache lor)
till then x

Lightspeed II

2011-12-15T09:27:00.003+08:00

a video first, please dont judge. i got so bored at home studying for my last paper.

x

I thought I was walking on stars,

2011-12-05T20:26:00.005+08:00

i've been seeing sean for eleven consecutive days since our bangkok trip, twelfth tomorrow and i have got nothing to complain about at all. the boy's whipping a four course meal in his kitchen right now while im rolling on his bed for he doesnt allow me to get out of his room.. ok actually i sneaked out but he locked his kitchen door wtf haha. chef sean claimed that i'll be super shock by his dessert later on because i would've never imagined him capable of making that (i really dont know wtf is that lol, but i know im so hungry hahahaha) failed to guess it right with my three chances, and he wont tell me. the only hint given is that something's baked.

did i mention i love it especially when he cook smth special for me hahahahaha
mmmmmmm~~ i'm guessing cream of mushroom, some fried starters, mains would be baked fish or baked pasta, then some custard pudding or cheesecake for dessert.
i'm not good at guessing, not good at all. but i cant wait to eat already :)

neways, bangkok w the boy was so awesome. was sucha great trip! i totally understand why everyone love bkk so much. did the obvious duties of shopping and eating, so much that both of us gained at least two kgs each when we got back. love the street food especially!! fucking cheap but ultimately, the most yummy. oh not forgetting the cab rides, the cab rides were dirt cheap. we took it so often like it was free ya know (it wont happen in sg haha too ex here), and i missed khao san too - such a lovely place to be at. although it was my first trip to the city, i did so much research prior to it. planned the itinerary; what to do, where to shop, where to eat, hahaha but then again - it's so me. managed to locate the two cupcakes shop i wanted to visit, and they were so pretty and good! thanks bangkok for the great weather too. flood my ass seriously. i'm definitely returning to bangkok again.
i'll do a little photo diary the next time i revisit this blog of mine. i wished i could do it soon but i've got plenty of dinners/meetups this week, and of course, common tests to deal with sigh, need a breather.

also, i'll be turning 20 in a few hours. gonna spend my 20th in school, wearing formal attire, and yes delivering a presentation fml.... hope it'll go well though. looking forward to having dinner w the boy tmr. i have no idea where he's taking me to but i'm so thankful that i could actually get to spend my actual bday w him. thanks for taking a day off dear, and thanks for whipping a feast for me tonight.
i love you so much my favorite boy x

You get me higher,

2011-11-24T02:44:00.008+08:00

-lumiere photography

i havent seen you since a little more than three weeks ago. one more day until you’re home, i missed you so much. i'm happiest when i'm being myself and i'm myself when i'm w you... my happy pill's coming back to me soon!!!! my junkfood buddy, we need a junkfood fix! in case youre wondering, apparently my boy's one of my few friends who's willing to pig out on junkfood w me. but most importantly, no more unnecessary tears at night. gonna bury my face in his chest and give him a fucking tight bear hug when i see him (what if i run to him? hahaha so drama) also gonna drag two big luggages to the airport on friday morning, pick my happy pill up from the airport, do some catching up/probably breakfast/roam around the airport, then off we head to the land of smiles! a tad too rushy for my boy though, but i'm glad we could come up w a compromise somehow, w his army exercise grr. army exercise's a killjoy. but whatever. i'm so excited for our first trip abroad together, i even made us a travel booklet! i've got so many places i want to visit, jotted them all down, and of course we're so going to eat our hearts out. phad thai, can you hear me already? cheap and good street food, here i come!!
i know we're going to have so much fun.

i cant wait to see you dear... at the airport.
cant wait to just look at my favorite face, and be right beside my favorite boy.
i'll be seeing you soon FOR REAL this time :')

Lightspeed,

2011-11-23T02:31:00.002+08:00

dev - lightspeed

celebrated wenshit's birthday at imperial treasure a week ago. all boyfriends turned up, well except sean who's in wallaby, sigh. did i mention how i love the fact that the group gets bigger and bigger each time we meet? awesome isnt it? oh and that very day was the day i took my final theory test as well, gonna book my practical soon. really hope to clear it on the first attempt..

of course, had the usual photospam and group shot. and i especially love this one, just look at the couples - all looking so alike!! i read about couples looking alike ages ago, so apparently it's true that couples grow to look more like each other overtime, and in addition, the happier the couple the more likely they look alike... i guessed my dear girls and their boys are pretty much enjoying having each other, hehe. all machiam ctrl + c, ctrl + v please.

made a trip to haji lane w the girls for clare's photojournalism cdc elective after watching you're the apple of my eye. it's gonna be my turn soon next term, but no i'm not taking photojournalism, i'm actually taking.............. jap. just realised that this will be the second foreign language that im picking up from np (i took basic french last year). jap wasnt my top few choices though. but still, i guess it'll help me in some ways.....well somehow. oh yeah sean loves jap girls haha...
some picas from my hideous compact camera,

other than phad thai, coconut icecream, banana pancakes and the list of food that i jotted down in my travel booklet, i actually want to try some cupcakes in bkk...

heading to clare's tmr for our ecd project and we're gonna make some cake pops!
time to see black x

Shadows will be lost in the light.

2011-11-17T02:01:00.003+08:00

nothing exactly interesting happened the past week other than my whole internship application saga. just to sum up - apparently i was assigned two months internship because my gpa hasnt met the cut off point for the six months internship programme. i wrote in, appealed, got a call, had a talk w the relevant staff and there i was given a chance to do my six months internship overseas because my gpa was fucking close to the cut off. but i rejected the offer after thinking real hard for a night.. apparently most of my friends encouraged me to take up the offer reason being, not everyone's given that damn opportunity, and of course i know that the things i'll learn overseas are priceless. but after weighing my options, yes i've made up my mind, i dropped the offer. i'm pretty happy w it actually, i mean it's not as easy as it seems ya know... overseas, and there's so many other factors to think about, especially the trade-offs.
that said, i wished i knew what i really want sometimes, i mean like right from that start? i have had too many similar situations in my life - three years ago when i was in sa, i got into odac after a series of endurance run and trials(well people got eliminated halfway through) i managed to clear all my rounds, but i decided to quit joining in the end. then the same year, i got through all the student councillor's interviews and stages, but eventually i backed out after getting in. and that was just two to illustrate. i really cant figure how my mind works sometimes..

i'm quite a lucky girl though. somehow, i always have people looking out for me, caring for me and helping me with anything and everything. i'm always given lots of opportunities to do this and that too.. well but talk about seizing opportunities, im not too sure if im good at it at all.
but i truly believe that my final decision's the best for me, and it will make me happiest in the long run.

and now the question is, what should i specialise in next year?
hmm.............................

uli's 18th,

such huge love for thai food hehe. we were at jai thai again!! inexpensive yet so good, really need to bring sean and my friends here one day. super awesome thai food.

a part from our year one clique: yours truly, shwen, shiyuan, bra, uli, charm, shiyuan's georgina, sher, ricky.

w the pretty bday girly!! and i kinda look likea hamster haha

jinpei's 20th,

my year two girls: shwen, yours truly, jinpei, clare, eunice.

so cutesy, da jie da. she dont even look like 20?!

Daydreamer, sittin’ on the seat

2011-11-10T21:28:00.014+08:00

just texted sean's mom,
"hi aunty! tmr's 11/11/11! even though from what most people see, it's just another ordinary day, it actually only happen once in hundred years. so do spend his day w your loved ones, and in this case, uncle.... :) hhaa"

wish you were here.

my not-so-romantic 11/11/11:
gonna head to school for lect, lunch, start on our proj, attend tutorials till 6pm (ikr fuck my life it's a fri man!!)
but on a happier note, i'm gonna meet my bestfriend for some kichn yumz before they cease all operations... (ok now i feel sad again)

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flexible menu where you get to choose your own base, main and sauce.
i had my eyes set on fried dory/chilli crab sauce while weijie had chicken cutlet/cream.

so i mentioned previously, made a trip to kichn before they officially closed. sucha pity, i really enjoy the food served at kichn, sucha good find. discovered kichn way back last year after read sittingwishingeating's, bookmarked her post on kichn since then, and have yet to pay a visit. apparently i came to know that C works there, and they're gonna close down soon (again, the power of twitter...) so i told myself i must pay a visit before they close, dont wanna regret. dragged weijie along w me - he got to thank me man, brought him to some hidden gem. loved the laid back dinner.

my camera died right after taking pica of the menu, so weijie's instagram came handy (ok actually i dled on his iphone because i need to snap pictures haha)

same concept too for the iceblended drinks

that was some huge ass cutlet and dory fillet, and my chilli crab sauce was so good.....

good to see C, lol since primary school days..

also, weijie promised to make me these ramen eggs. i seriously have some kind of eggs obsession, i'm in love w all kinds of eggs. we had some ramen dinner sometime back and he was saying he could make these, and took up the challenge. and wow im so impressed!! because i cant even...... but thanks so much! i knew he spent so much time on these eggs (and also, had to down so many eggs prior to the perfect one haha)

omg look at the yolk, so good!!

ending the post w a collage of bestfriend and i.
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Keep the fire alive and stay young at heart,

2011-11-08T10:53:00.008+08:00

28 and 26 please, anytime.

-glamour november 2011

am i the only one who hated the long weekend that just passed? i know i could've made the most out of it and do something more productive -pampering myself, or even better, do some fucking work, but i was so uninspired. first time in my life i felt that 24hours a day's too much. even 12hours was so hard to get by. all i did was eat and sleep, and repeat. i stayed at home mostly, and i rested far too long. right, whatever. just let me ramble on here. before you think that i'm crazy for hating the long weekend, i shall make things clear - reason why i hate the long weekend: i'm away from my boy. he's my "only" friend, oh well... i do feel sad for myself haha.
wanted to work to keep my mind off negative thoughts and shit, and possibly stop myself from missing that boy too much, but things happened... even so that i wanted to work, my colleagues and i were all dismissed. sad is life. maybe i should just go have fun(my definition of fun changed so much ever since i got a bf..... nope not even strip dares anym, everything's just so dull and boring w/o him around haha fuck this), make lists of happy things, bake some cupcakes, do things i always wanted to do, go to the cd stores and grab some good old record, or plan on our future trips? or i might as well start day dreaming all over again. i'm pretty good at it. i cant wait for him to get back to sg, weekends with the boyfriend are never boring even if there's school.

well fact is, i just want to grab him and kiss him all over, so bad. it's killing me.

i have quite a bit to share:

sunday brunch date at riders cafe! two/three weeks ago i think? finally crossed this one off the list. wow it actually means a lot because both goodfren and i agreed way back that we must not visit riders at all (yes, at all) w any other people, and that we will have our double date right at riders cafe. i actually went to dig out this post, i have evidence. most importantly, cheers to the double date! ♥ (and am constantly feeling happy for all my girls hehe)

the place was bustling, and we did not make any reservations prior to that, hence we waited quite some time before we had a table to ourselves. so it's advisable to actually make a reservation before heading down - i mean you wont want to leave without having a meal at the cafe especially when you actually traveled all the way to the barely accessible place (yes you NEED a car or you know, you can just cab away)

haha i haz a retarded face, so ignore. but do look at my cute boy, and of course, the sweetz couple right there. awwwww

everyone had latte, someone extra ah must drink mocha hahahaa

stupid wind(+we're not ready for the camera) resulting in the goodfrens' having fucked up fringe hahaha

we each ordered a set from the brunch menu! i wouldnt say the food was fantas (my poached egg yolk wasnt even runny..... meh disappointed), but the place was not too bad, ambiance wised. it was a good date my the goodfren couplez nonetheless hehe.

and back in september (yes i know how long ago alr), sean and i moved around quite a bit. uhm i mean we explored quite a bit, especially the east and the north part of sgp. we traveled back and forth, and it actually went on for two consecutive saturdays. i love long bus rides, especially spontaneous ones - we didnt know where we were going, we just hopped on a random bus, drop off at random stops, and hop on another bus - and repeat. so for the first weekend, we had our bus hopping adventure after our lunch at canopy garden dining restaurant off bishan park 2(situated at angmokio), ended up returning to mountbatten, kallang, and marine parade for a couple of times, before landing at toa payoh - where we decided to head to the bedok for dinner in the end. (my love for hawker food...god. char kway teow, fried carrot cake, fried hokkien mee, xiaolongbaos... four portion of food just for the two of us.)

i love foodhunting, and checking out new places. been wanting to head down to canopy for quite sometime, i bookmarked it's url since i first discover it during march last year. i especially liked the fact that it is located among lush greenery. (well at least you dont always have to travel to botanical gardens/dempsey....) there's another resto directly opposite - greenroom cafe. they serves mostly organic and vegetarian dishes though.

took this after the rain....

we were stucked in the rain, in fact we stood outside aramsa spa for more than half an hour before we actually went in, borrowed an umbrella from them so that we could head to the resto. wanted to dine in the charming outdoor garden though, we had no choice but to have our food indoor. i chose eggs royale instead of the usual eggs benedict i would order when i pick from any brunch set, while sean picked some lobsty pasta. the eggs were poached beautifully, those yellow sunny goodness oozed out at the poke of my fork. i love runny yolks so bad. we also ordered milkshakes that cost us more than $10 each, the drinks did not do the job for either of us though.

bus hopping adventure began and we only dropped off at tpy in the evening, we were just navigating around aimlessly. made our way to tpy town park just opposite hdb hub, we were here once for a photoshoot. there's always something about parks which calms the soul, the rays of sunlight brightened up the whole place too, so refreshing to watch...

outfit shot... the sun was so bright.
top: ohsofickle, bottom: bugis, necklace: f21, shoes: fep, bag: coach, hat: daiso (yes $2 only?!)

we actually came back the very next day for dinner w sean's family at the oasis restaurant (see that white building over there?)

haha my jungle boy

didnt have to edit at all, love this one!

hehe my mr stroke face.

also, here's a link to adele's someone like you cover i did the other day, i was bored.
okay, that's enough i suppose. shall prepare for school soon.
x

We might as well be playing with lightning

2011-11-03T23:14:00.012+08:00

When your lips touch mine
It's the kiss of life,
I know, I know

That it's a little bit frightening,
We might as well be playing with lightning.

I've been addicted to you
Since it first date,
Out of control like a surge of electric.

Run, run and don't look back again

2011-11-03T23:01:00.001+08:00

need to tempt him w food, so he will hurry back to me LOL we are the greedy couplez AND my handwriting changes quite a bit, so.......

so sean flew to aussie few days ago for his army exercise again. this is his last army trip, and he should not be that busy anymore when he get back. stayed over the previous night before he flew, in fact, i got to spend the whole of last week w him, no less than a day - so thankful for that. i miss that boy so much. he called back last night for a good forty minutes, well but i dont think it's impossible for him to call back everyday like how he did during his trip to taiwan. broke down last night on the phone - had a pretty bad day in school due to that internship notice, i mean it's really nothing much but i was so affected because i had my hopes up so high. who would've known my gpa was just less than 0.05 off the cut-off mark from six months internship? mayb i'm just dumb or what, i couldnt hold back my tears anymore when i hear sean's voice. but he always have his ways to make me feel right, somehow. always.
i made him a little something to bring over - he can only read a page a day unless stated. a few pages where he could flip to whenever he feels like too... i hope he'll be able to read them all. dear boy made me videos to watch too, same rules apply (only a video a day) this time round he signed off w "see you tomorrow - same time, same channel, channel laptop" instead of seantv from the previous army exercise. my very own entertainer hehe, cant wait for his bonus video but im only allowed to view it after 12nov. i'm thinking he might be singing me a song (i have been bugging him for one so long and i told him if he dont sing me a song someday idk when, im not gonna marry him lol) or maybe he does that wiggle wiggle shit from lmfao's sexy and i know it hahahahaha, god.

hahaha so cutez.
pretty much inactive for the past few days, because i sent my lappy for repair yet again, this time round i had problems w my trackpad. hmm even though i have a bb and itouch w me, i still feel handicapped w/o my lappy. thank god i got it back within days. it rained for about two weeks straight here, i wonder how is bangkok doing. fyi if you guys wondered, sean and i got our flight tix before the flood and it cost us about $450 each (flight and hotel). now, the tix are as cheap as $120 (flight, hotel, hotel transfers and meals included)..... we paid almost four times more for our trip (to think that we actually booked much earlier because we're afraid the tix might be more ex when nearing our travel dates haha) but still, i hope our trip will happen eventually. i cant wait!! exactly three more weeks.

some picas from the previous week,

ma maison's @ mandarin gallery

simple pasta lunch w the boy, it was a late lunch btw. even so, we decided to drop by strictly pancakes for early dinner - just because he had cravings for pancakes and wanted some before he leaves singapore. so there you go, strictly pancakes for the 64526th time. have to order garlic prawnz pancakes every single time i visit! tried their version of eggs benedict for the first time too, i dont really like the thick floury pancake tgt w it (it's too thick for my liking), but still, garlic prawnz made my day.

gurney drive @ suntec for dinner, they serves mostly penang/malaysian food.

ma maison's @ millenia walk
third visit. this time, we ordered the escargots. i had two of those.... had a little difficulty trying to pry those little creature out of their shell. i love the herb butter that comes w the escargot, pretty good actually. i personally ordered the neapolitan pasta, the portion was so huge.... and it wasnt impressive at all. love the beef though, the one tgt w the egg in my picture above. i dont rmb what they call it, but that was good.
got cupcakes from twelvecupcakes back home again, bumped into vivien at work that day too. there wasnt any red velvet anymore though (i love those), ended up w the rainbow vanilla one, YUMYUM

and how i wish the sun will come out for a couple of days..

I wear my heart upon my sleeve, like a big deal.

2011-10-29T01:26:00.003+08:00

caught what's your number and one day last weekend, and we also caught in time today. i love student price tix! if we were to catch all the shows on weekdays, we could've saved so much. well anw i thought all three of them were pretty good! jim sturgess, chris evans and justin t are so yummy... i cant help but to catch captain america on dvd the second time last night, haha poor sean i was ogling at my captain right from the start till the end. had my dose of gosling goodness the other time from crazy stupid love, but i cant wait for more already. need another dosage from ides of march next week... i still have a whole lot to go on - lolol and it's okay, i cant stand myself either. i dont know who would actually listen to all my nonsense and listen to me talking about all my fantasies w my self-proclaimed boyfriends anymore when sean leaves for wallaby..

got my room painted the other day, and i still cant actually get used to it. like i mentioned, i painted it all white, and now my room seems so bright! or should i say, too bright? i clearly need to do something to it, i have some ideas in mind but i'm not so sure yet. thanks so much painter loke - he actually brought a whole tin of paint over, and all the brushes, pails and whatever necessary equipment all the way from his crib over to mine, that's quite a lot of shit to carry, and i made paper hats out of newspaper and made him wear it hehe. of course, he did a great job helping me w my wall too.

this has been w me for close to three years. so here's a snapshot before bidding farewell..

i'm gonna turn twenty in a little more than a month. i think i did quite a lot of shit over these two years, but i really wanna do some real crazy things before i hit the big two...... real crazy things. but now, what?

Take the world that's at your fingertips,

2011-10-21T14:56:00.001+08:00

bored last night, so i sang a little. and of course, i dont put make up before i sleep lol

tidied up my room last night. oh i really tried to, (i have shoes, clothes, books, bags and everything else you can think of lying around. especially at the corner of the room) sent a bag of clothes to the salvation army, and i still have a wardrobe and luggage full of clothes, and a whole box of shit to clear.. waiting for my painter to come by, and we shall start painting!!! no fanciful ideas in mind though, i had really crazy ideas in the past like graffiti wall etc, but today i'm just going to paint my pale pink walls white, and remove all those scribblings since three years ago.
i still wish to have a green rug in my room though. do you think i can get it in bkk?? the floods are so bad, i dont even know if i could go still.... but i'm still hopeful about that trip. i dont go on trips w my family, or rather i dont even have the chance to go on a trip w my family - so you can actually see i dont really travel a lot even though i'd love it, and am always reading travelogues. maybe this is reason to why i make it a point to explore and move around our little city, i mean that's the least i can do. so i'm really really excited for this one, i've been waiting for so long for this trip to happen, and the best part of the trip? i'll be heading w my favorite boy.

bintan w my ong goodfren in august,

hehehehe happy kids

ong goodfren so hotzxz

i love this photo >>> i haz skinny legs! hahaha this is one rare photo.

our dinner which was so yummy.

sparkles/mini fireworks that we played

woke up to a clear blue sky, it was unusually sunny and bright,

breakfast by the sea/pool. sea on the left, and pool on the right. wowsome much?

the first mall, but there's nothing much. we got some stuff from their supermarket though.

laksa at tanjung pinang, which was less den SGD $1.50! and it was so fucking good, no joke.

finally post these pictures up on my blog, wow our little getaway actually happened more than two months ago, this is how inefficient i am! like i said, it was pretty short, just 2d1n, and we spent most of our time at the resort, just chilling and eating away, but it was a much needed trip before my exams. we stayed at bintan agro resort if you wonder, it's nothing compared to popular resorts like bintan lagoon or nirwana gardens, but i thought it's adequate since it's just a short trip, a really short one. still, i enjoyed myself very much w my ong goodfren just sitting by the pool, snapping away, food and more food (what's new for us), speaking about food - the food served was really good and it was so cheap!! so worth it, i'm so happy haha, enjoying our tehs from the convenience store, playing w the sparkles/mini firework, supper in our bedroom, all those htht! night falls really early though, it was already pitch dark by 7pm, so we had to spend a lot of time in our room instead. instead of playing water sports, we rented a car and headed out to tanjung pinang the next day. oh and we were so close to getting into a car accident! our driver managed to save us from a quick maneuver though.... but i still ended up w a really big, fat and ugly bruise on my leg, which actually did heal itself only after one whole month. we came back to the resort and did henna tattoo too, that thing lasted for a week. it was a good trip w ong goodfren nonetheless, i wantz another trip in the near future!! and perhaps w the all my girls too mwwaaaa

*chants* mr painter lokey where are you????

November Blue,

2011-10-19T01:39:00.004+08:00

the idea of spending an entire month without you is killing me....

I want a love that's crazy, yeah

2011-10-16T02:34:00.003+08:00

here's to another round of shameless vid of myself,

i always sound so awkward when i talk in front of the lens.

@ sean's cousin's wedding dinner two weeks ago,

my first time receiving poker cards as wedding door gift, there was a giant pen along w it too. so cute isnt it?

l: sean and myself, tgt w the chosen one.... green lantern srsly just appear from nowhere.
r: pearlyn(sean's sis) and her bf, teck.
and we have another wedding dinner to attend tmr, another cousin of sean's getting married!

newayz, all time low on 6th oct was rad even though there was a huge storm that night. i blogged about how much i longed for it, and i had no idea it was going to be like this because i didnt know there were so many ATL fans in singapore srsly. they were relatively unknown when i started liking them few years back. the crowd was insane, i was insane. havent headbanged and jumped so much for the longest time, really partied like it was my civil right (haha lyrics from i feel like dancin') plus i even crashed my cam. got to repeat i was so stoked when their show's announced officially, afterall i've waited for years just to watch them play my favorite song. got into wavehouse a little after 6pm, and it started pouring so bad, the crew threw ponchos from the stage (which we didnt find it helpful at all), everyone didn't give a damn about having a poncho or not, especially when we couldnt stand those things blocking our sight. the rain did not stop afterall, we stood for close to three hours in the rain before the opening band, TDR played their set to warm us a little. i hate how we have to wait so long before every gig, and three hours was just too long! got so restless and almost went into my sleepmode. but i'd like to think that i've waited for a few years, three hours is nothing. haha i'm pretty delusional like that.
the lights were dimmed for the second time, and yes we knew that was the moment when art of state blasted through the speakers. note, it was still drizzling but it didnt dampen our mood. ATL started off with do you want me dead, damned if i do ya damned if i dont - and so on. in fact, i've alr memorised the full set list before heading down that day lol. somewhere into the show, fangirls threw bras up on stage just like any other ATL show. what's an ATL show without bras, sex talk and boobs? jack hanged those bras on his mike stand, and had 'nice boobs' written on his guitar. my favorite part of the show was definitely during jasey rae, coffeeshop soundtrack, remembering sunday, therapy and dear maria (ok sorry i know that's a lot of favorites). notice all these are songs from their older records. i loved all of them. now even sean's obsessed w ATL's older record (he keep quoting me lyrics from their songs!!!) i love how he make it an effort and take note of my favorite songs. all in all, last thurs was just one hell of an experience, a show that i'll never forget. my life, complete.

w kenneth, the oc guys, and friends:

the only decent pica from my cam before my cam died on me, the set when alex's singing remembering sunday:

check out glenn's page, he was so lucky to be able to shoot atl backstage!

hi jack haha
xx

Endlessly,

2011-10-12T17:26:00.007+08:00

the cab - endlessly

there's a shop down the street/ where they sell plastic rings/ for a quarter a piece i swear it/ yeah i know that it's cheap/ not like gold in your dreams/ but I hope that you'll still wear it
yeah, the ink may stain my skin/ and my jeans may all be ripped/ i'm not perfect, but i swear i'm perfect for you
and there's no guarantee that this'll be easy /it's not a miracle you need/ believe me/ yeah i'm no angel/ i'm just me/ but i will love you endlessly/ wings aren't what you need/ you need me
there's a house on the hill/ with a view of the town/ and i know how you adore it/ so i'll work everyday/ through the sun and the rain/ until i can afford it
yeah your friends might think i'm crazy/ but they can only see/ i'm not perfect, but i swear i'm perfect for you

i must say my sept/oct holiday was pretty fruitful. i got myself a job (need to use that money to pay for my trip and to learn driving), met up w my girls every now and then, and went on many little adventures w the boy. i managed to engage myself w lots of me-time, and i love it. i like being alone sometimes. oh and there was ATL!! best night of my life. still, quite satisfied w myself even though i did not check the whole list from the list i made previously, at least i did complete more than fifty percent of the activities stated. i love making lists.. man i do feel good now.

some recent picas as well as overdued ones to share - last two days of work,

a small part of the registry, i work on these documents.. and probably few hundreds more of those. i also got my three colleagues and supervisor a little something before i left.

and here's how my work place looks like. i like my job because it's not deskbound, i get to travel every single day - up and down the whole building collecting mails, as well as in and out the office, to the museums and to the post office. admin isn't as boring as you think it is! or maybe just what i was doing. but i sure had had some fun.

philo treated margeret and myself to lunch! margeret's leaving two weeks after me, both of us are temp staffs on contract. chatted over lunch and that was when i found out so much about their lifes and some of our colleague's life - about how much they love their parents, their husbands, and of course, their children. how they watched their children grow and now, all obtaining their degrees, masters, getting married this and that. i think it's really amazing, and i can sense how much love they have for them, they feel proud for their children. such lovely people out there. also, i cant help but to get all teary while listening. haha im so bad at this, cant hold back my tears haha, but such love... makes me feel lousy again. really should do something about my life. sigh this is what happens when you work w people much older than yourself.... so much to learn from them. also, thank you uncle gabriel for the marks and spencer's goodies! he got me so much goodies, and before i handed him my access card and left, "just remember me when you take your first bite" hahaha why so cute.

random night at butter w the girls (after idk how long),

really pretty galaxy backdrop, had to snap a pica for keepsake
still managed to head to work the next day, and only more awake.

hari-raya openhouse at wati's,

wati/gayfriend invited me over to her place for hari raya celebration, so good to see her after so long!

porn's sexy thai food w jm, hy and cj,

stuffed chicken wings, kangkong, some random chicken dish, tomyam pot, and red curry
gosh i love thai food so much.... cant wait to have a taste of authentic thai food at bkk. also, i'm gonna bring sean to jai thai (sher's mom's restaurant, hehe really good) one day man.

shwenz's 18th,

met these girls for dinner on a random friday night, and celebrated shwen's birthday! hehe we looked so happy here, looking forward to the new sem w these girls (tgt w jp who cant make it that day)

and on the same night after shwen's, supper at 126 w my girls! sean turns into seanlina for a few hours heh heh,

picas of food at cx's, i'm lazy to resize all of them before posting up. love the dimsum there, the cheecheongfun was so goooood!!

will do a separate post on atl's and the weekends w my boy sometime later, i have like four weekends worth of photos to post on my little space here... well, looking forward to dinner w the boy later. he's booking out in a jiffy :)

(500) Days

2011-10-10T14:06:00.006+08:00

i knew i haven been blogging religiously, and have lots of post not up to date, but i really want to blog about this one, so here's go:

last saturday was the 500th day since sean and i first met and we thought it would be pretty sweet if we could celebrate it tgt. (think 500days of summer haha but we're much better hehe) it would be pretty retarded if we count day by day deliberately, but hell no. i actually took note of it after we turned a year old in june, i thought it was... cute lol. we had plans prior to the weekend but they were all ruined thanks to army, sean was told that he has got 'turn-out' that weekend, and had to be called back to camp after a page. we had no choice but to stay in and wait for that damn call/page. i think we waited close to five hours and it didnt happened! i was so hungry and we ended up having instant noodles for breakfast since we couldnt head out to get something decent, in case he got his turn out call. that was the first incident that day, the rest of the day turned out as interesting (ok it was more of funny) - the maid incident, macs for lunch and there was a funny sight, cab incident - where the driver took a long way from town to barrage - it cost us a freaking $10 to travel from town to barrage. the driver thought we were idiots and dont know the way to barrage. sean and i were so pissed off when we realise he deliberately took the longer route so we started exchanging sarcastic remarks at the back, just for him to hear, funny sight at barrage - we engaged a photographer - i bought a groupon voucher back in june and thought we could use it that day since it's pretty meaningful (and we were scheduled to meet at barrage) but as soon as we reached, wtf we realised it was PUB's family day hahahahaha what a crowd and it was so noisy............, then we didnt purchased the photos in the end even though some photos are really not too bad. made our way to explore some part of cbd since it's weekends and hence, pretty empty. then we got lost at marina bay (took the train back to where we were initially) hahaha we do that pretty often when we walk aimlessly - we always get lost but realise it's yet another roundabout so we always end up from where we started. oh and we brought his dad's dslr out for the first time, i still prefer a compact/slr haha, the dslr's so bulky! but quality wise, definitely so much better.

some happy pictures,

our outfit shotz haha i have issues w the lighting and stuff.
i dig sean's outfit haha my handsome boyyy

his chino pants, maroon socks matched so well w those shoes. (all from topman)

the boy treated me to a really awesome dinner at level33. dinner was sensational - the cod fish and duck confit were worth a mention. we tried duck confit at quite a number of places and we both agreed that the one served at level33 was one of the best we've tried so far. we were given a seat at the private dining area (we didnt make any reservations so i guess that we were lucky enough to get a seat there even though we were looking forward to have a place at the airy outdoor terrace) we headed out to the terrace w our pint of beer, walked along and stood on the balcony just taking in the splendid views overlooking fullerton, esplanade and mbs, which turned out to be really amazing. enjoying a cold glass of beer, gazing the skyline and panoramic view w the love of my life, enjoying the moment together - what more can i ask for?

mains - cod.

starters - beef; mains - duck.

made our way back and caught friends w benefit, before researching on our bkk trip and calling it a day. woke up to a lovely face the following day (hahaha) and we spent half the day at chinatown checking our possible deals, before heading back (we decided to book our own flight for it's cheaper) for dinner, and lying on the couch watching (500)days of summer - again, but this time feeling much cheery as compared to the first time i watched the film. i love us. and yes, our bkk trip's confirmed! bkk in november w my love, and vietnam in dec w the girls!

thanks so much for the lovely weekend babs, you're a godsend. thank you for wanting me as much as i want you, and most importantly, thank you for being mine.

I can keep a secret if you can keep me guessing,

2011-10-05T23:20:00.007+08:00

(from my bb)

1. a part of my 18th birthday present from my favorite girls
2. my favorite atl record (put up or shut up), as well as atl's wristband from hottopic
3. scribblings from my jc days - on the left: atl's songs titles, on the right: lyrics to the song therapy (thanks mins!!) i've kept them so well

all time low has been my favorite band for a long time. i remember days where i watched them play every single day (via youtube), watched their shows and gigs, ALL their interviews prior to 2010 - i could even memorise their lines. and also days where i listened to coffeeshop soundtrack/remembering sunday/six feet under the stars for at least once everyday, gosh. all time low's definitely the soundtrack to my teenage years..... my girls from jc, my previous bandmates and my closer friends would've knew how crazy i am over alex gaskarth - spending so much on their merch and preorders, getting all updated on their news this and that especially in 2009, and early 2010 - all i ever wished for was to attend bamboozle, warped tour or any tours featuring these guys. i was so crazy, so so so so damn crazy over these guys. folders and folders of their images on my laptop, my phone, their lyrics and song titles are titles of my blog posts(and it's a yes for this one as well), their printed photos all over my wall etc. wow it's been so long i cant even remember. fyi if you dont already know, my blog title 'sunrise on the eastside' as well as my youtube acc 'flavorofyourlips' are lyrics to the song coffeeshop soundtrack, and of course, by all time low.
ps: i searched for my posts back in 09, lol check these out - selective eating, gaskarth, sex hair.

so many things have changed, i dont go all gaga over bands anymore. still, it's a fucking dream come true. it was not even close to possible for them to come over to play a show here since they werent mainstream when i started listening to them. and you dont know how long i've waited for this shit to happen in singapore, for them to fucking play a show here. four years. i've waited for four years to watch them live. they were brillant. they still are. tomorrow's gonna be one of the best days of my life.

hi

2011-09-30T00:39:00.006+08:00

i'm still very much alive.

sorry for the lack of updates, i cant seem to get back on track on blogging. and i update way too much on twitter, i think i'm starting to annoy myself very much. i dont like how people think that they can know me, or my life story merely by reading my posts/tweets or even worse, by just looking through my photos. sorry but my life is so much more than this, there is a difference between public and personal life, and i very much know about my own life more than any one of you, fyi. october is just round the corner, in a few hours actually - which means i'm leaving my work place soon, another school term is starting all over again soon, and also, sean's departure to australia for his army training is approaching too. (oh and not forget halloween!) also, i finally registered myself as a candidate at bbdc. yes i'm gonna take up driving! i know i'm ambitious but i really want to try getting a license by the end of this year or maybe by january next year. i'm hoping i could drive sean to his camp at least once before he ord next year, haha ikr what kind of motivation manz, but we'll see..

lately, i'm been thinking a lot about life. i mean it's nothing unusual for me, i do this pretty often if you know me in person or perhaps read my blog since my junior college days. but because working at nhb (despite times that i wouldnt consider favorable, you shouldve seen how i curse and swear so fucking a lot everyday on twitter due to annoying colleagues) it is really difficult to narrow down my experience at nhb but i must say, i learnt so much from my older colleagues, they definitely have way more life experiences than myself. i love hearing their life stories even though i dont response much, but deep down it got me thinking a lot. today, i attended another farewell session, another lady from the department i'm working at is leaving. we chatted about the past (how they started working and knowing each other thirty odd years ago, how the others joined them becoming their colleagues, their younger days when they were twenty odds having really enjoyable and fun working environment and so on) i wonder if i would reminisce this way in future too. "you never know what life will throw at you", shirley, my manager spoke to me today, i mean it's true who knows she might get sacked one day or go onto a new journey - we just have to keep picking up and learn on the way. i guess she wants me to embrace the fact, and find joy in every different paths in life. which i think i did pretty well so far, second year into my poly education, well i still have a long way more to go..

i think being alive is an amazing thing. i used to dread life a lot, listen to emo and screamo songs, wanna slit my wrist lolwtf (isnt that what all emo kids used to do hahahaha) oh well, the phases of life. maybe i should go a little further back to times when we were still young and naive haha. remember the times where we start to learn how to trust and how to have faith in people and how we learn to adapt to changing environments? remember the times where we start to learn to explore the world? and then when we enter primary school (ok, for my case), we start to initiate and plan our own activities w our friends etc; our parents/guardians set goals and values and that's how we find out that we should discover life on our own terms. my primary school days were gold. i can remember so many shitz from then. then we grew into the next phase of life, we start to compare ourselves to others, we start to question our self worth, it started from just a small group - then it grew eventually to outside your circle of friends. i think it happened somewhere before puberty and throughout our transition years as adolescences. yet into another phase of life, i say teenagers. times where we rebelled, and we just wanna go against everyone's ideas - especially our educators and our parents. we just find it so hard to appease to anyone, except ourselves, and probably our friends. been there done that. grew out of it. just that inferiority complex still exists, but in a different form. days where i got sick in my mind where all i cared was to fit in and to be skinny. i needed attention. then i realize my life is so much more than just being cautious on my fucking weight, and i moved on. i remembered the days where i was seventeen, eighteen -i questioned myself on what am i going to do in future, why am i doing this why am i doing that? who the fuck i am? why am i here and not in uk/usa (hahahaha yes that's so me) and especially this one, why the fuck am i studying? (haha) we were all confused who we were, and we wanna do things we like and fuck the rest. fuck what everyone think. i mean as a child, we were taught to work hard, study, etc. it's true. it's a good habit to have but to abide it or not is entirely up to us. along the way, we experienced failed friendships. we learnt about how people come and go, who gives a fuck and who dont. trust issues. inferiority surfaces yet again. decisions after decisions. accomplishments and failures we face..... nobody said it was easy.

i'm glad that my parents are not so strict w me, and i can do whatever i want as long as i'm not endangering my life. in fact actually, as long as i'm happy. i hate to conform to views and i'm thankful i wasnt pushed to any of that kind of shit at that point of time when i was growing up. i know my limits anyway. so like i said, i had my share of fun. for me, i thought i was unique and i could do so much more than just books, books, and books. i was so inspired by all the bands i listened to, all the female fronted shit, i wanted to sing and go out there, make a name. and i was so excited at the point of time when i joined a band, it was a dream come true. then again, it was a part of me growing up as i searched for my true identity. life goes on, and as i had fun along the way, i met someone who changed my life completely. here i'm talking about growing into yet another stage of life - young adulthood. love - for your friends, your family, and other r/s. the ability to love and the kind of intimacy shared. who i wanna date etc settle down or not... and as for me, i chose to commit in a relationship. i dont know how long am i going to stay stagnant at this stage, but i'm truly thankful i'm alive, learning bit by bit along w my love, and as well as documenting this down.

fact: i think my post is getting lengthy so i figured i should throw a combined photo of my cutesy catboyz and myself, no doubt he's my favorite boy.

right now, i just want to live this stage to the fullest, the way i want it. the way i want to tell the world in future. i want to learn and experience as much as i can, also applies to the future as we enter the next stage - adulthood, middle age (think providing for our kids, helping the next generation) and eventually our aging years. by then i would be probably saying, "oh how i wish i was a kid again" hahaha before we touch on material and other responsibilities of the adult, i think we all see a pattern. life cycle. we have new crisis to face, and it's just another set of life's challenges.

Nothing but the beat,

2011-09-11T13:02:00.012+08:00

title taken off from guetta's latest album hehe.
and i was bored at home last night, yes i did yes i did it, so please dont judge

LOL just for fun

caught some movies over the span of two weeks (or was it three) - crazy stupid love (gosh my dose of gosling goodness!!!!), bridesmaid, bad teacher. just downloaded friends w benefits and never let me go (andrew garfieild, keira knightley), excited for the latter!! also, uncle gabriel from my workplace has got a couple of dvds and cds from the 90s that he wanted to disposed, and he got us to grab what we want before he throw them away. i picked a dvd out of those - the wedding singer (1998) - from adam sandler and drew barrymore. that's where my fave song came from, and i cant wait to watch it w sean.

been lagging so much, but i'm still alive and kickin'. i started work at national heritage board, felt like it's a good environment so far, helps me a lot. i'd always feel that i learn more when i work anyways. my jobscope's pretty simple, i mean i'm just a temp staff. so handling mails, in-coming couriers, despatch to various departments and museums everyday, and to assist anyone in the office if they need any help and so-on, been sorting out documents! received so many boxes of mooncakes this week, seriously.. managed put my knowledge from my previous jobs to good use too - using the franking machine. i love how people in the office are really helpful, and offer to guide me through everything - especially philo! my new friend here, she's in her sixties yet she doesnt even seem like. still learning so much both within or outside my jobscope from her, a really wise woman who makes me think a lot about if what i'm doing is worth it or not. mdm tang and mdm yati from the same office are leaving next week, and i'll be taking charge over mdm tang's duties from next monday onwards all alone, gosh. this is pretty exciting isnt it? also attended their farewell reception on thursday (i dont have any pica w me) and there's mooncake festival celebration in the office on monday. i like how i feel like i'm working you know, lol no one bothered to invite me to company celebrations or have lunch w me when i was working at my previous work places.
so work didnt actually drain me out at all. but i have no time to blog since after work, i would be meeting up my friends over dinner and what not. i met five groups of friends last week, but i dont have a single picture yet, i'll get them up on here sometime later then.

last weekend,

baked muffins (forgot to add in baking powder...... so it didnt even rise you see) what a failed attempt, dumped them all to sean in the end LOL too sweet of him to down them all even though they are pretty horrible. i told him that i will make a comeback LOL #joke

heartshaped lolly @ a curious teepee
oh i bought breakfast for sean and his family that day! we all stay around the same area but they havent actually tried this fucking awesome carrot cake off bangkit. it's a random stall out of nowhere, not in a coffeeshop if you wonder. i had to wait for close to twenty minutes but it was worth it!! so i chionged all the way, lightning speed LOL because the carrot cake wouldnt be as nice if it's cold, ended up sweating like a dog. at times like this, i wished that i had my driver's license. gah.
ok back to a curious teepee, it's a pretty horrible place because they made us waited for an hour plus, for nothing. made orders and paid for our waffles and then an hour later, they said "they ran out of waffles" lol their machine spoiled or smth i dont know. yeah that only happened after an hour, the fuck? i mean obviously there was a refund, but still, what a bad dining experience!! no wait, what am i talking about, we didnt even get to dine lol

oh hi this is good

cheese shakers and my horhorhorlicks mcflurry
fattyfatty food, but they never disappoints

twelve cupcakes (http://www.twelvecupcakes.com)

visited pretty @VienQY at work, cant remember when was the last time i see her, so long ago! been wanting to try these cupcakes since forever, have heard so much about them and read about them on the papers too. fucking finally. we got three of those pretty cupcakes, and they were incredibly good!!

sakae sushi,

not a big fan of sakae sushi at all, i used to like it when i was a kid because we dont get to dine in these restaurants often. so the other day we were here again for buffet, and i must say this joint is pretty horrible. it cost us almost $40 for buffet dinner, like wtf $27++/pax added up to about $40, fucking scam seriously. thank god i made the money worthwhile - downed 13 plates in total by myself, and that inclusive of 8 red plates. yes v aunty, but i dont like to spend my money on food like that. i rather accumulate all these unnecessary expenditure and dine at somewhere nicer

and overdue picas from all over,
this is super long ago but i actually played my part for the 'cook a pot of curry day' on 21 august. and if you dont know what the event's about, you should be...ashamed. haha just go google it. i found that event quite interesting and wanted to join the fun, apparently i see a new upload on the event page every less than 5 minutes, it's amazing how everyone get involved in stuff like that. and also, #replacesongnameswithcurry started trending worldwide on twitter, LOL and yes we singaporeans started it, amazing.
i offered to cook dinner for my boy and his parents that weekend! told him i wanted to cook curry for him, so yeah might as well for the whole family you see. sean was stucked in army prior to that, and they had to go fetch him back while i spend sometime preparing some simple dishes for my lovely boy to come back home to,

it's not too hard for me since i've been cooking all these chinese food since young, yes i love homecooked meals - and i will make sure my kids love it too
his parents were amazed w my vegs and of cos, my pot of curry. it's really not too bad. in fact extremely commendable for a first attempt. LOL shameless but yeah, so proud of myself you know

main lead

simple homecooked dinner for four yay!
xx

And it's progress, progress if it's made

2011-09-02T02:43:00.009+08:00

this is extremely random, but i cant wait to catch ryan gosling in the theatres tomorrow.
oh and also try the new horlicks mcflurry, horlicks milkshake and cheese shaker fries from mcdonalds. i'm such a huge horlicks lover and i HAVE TO try it. the only time i had horlicks icecream was at island creamery, but oh well since macs have it.... i just have to. and i heard there's this new bacon shitz on their breakfast menu too. seriously mcdonalds, why all my fave things together, huh? want to earn my money so bad?! LOL well i got to try them all over the weekend anw.

also, i've gotten myself a job. starting next monday. not exactly excited at all, but i need money and that's exactly the reason why people work, no? so there goes my holidays. but i can still make time for dinner dates, people. am hoping i can pick up as much as i can while working, kinda like the idea of exposing myself to new people and new environments. i'm also trying to make a list of goals for myself, not exactly surprising since i've been doing so for the past decade and i admit i'm a avid goal setter (but completing it is totally another issue) it's fun setting goals you know - especially when you experience that sense of satisfaction if you accomplish them all. i love that feeling. so even though i'm working full time, it only takes up my day time, i'll have most of my evenings free and mostly i just want to have fun. i should be taking some time to compile my list though, but here's some:

1) bake/cook food or try a new recipe every week

2) dine at at least three totally new-to-me restaurants/cafes in the city

3) repaint my room and hang up photoframes

4) with that, reorganise my room gosh, storing shitass junk in boxes

5) get a film camera and start snapping away
6) take more pictures of myself and others
7) make it a point to look awesome at least five times a week
8) get more makeup and look for the perfect lipstick

9) restring my guitar and do random covers

10) pick up at least two new skills

11) clear my wardrobe, either start a flea w my girls or donate them to salvation army

12) stayover @ mins
13) mid autumn w my girls, or our picnic/tze char date to work

14) have a picnic

15) meet up and spend time w people i've neglected
16) have dinner (or dinner parties) w friends
17) spend more quality time w sean

18) go to the river or visit new places at every opportunity
19) arrange my chrome bookmark folder

20) sell something online

21) get at least one photoshoot done

22) make a scrapbook

just listing them down has got me so pumped, haha and yes hi i'm weird like that.

i have some pictures to share from the whole of last week:
nus arts bash 2011,

that's my cousin for you, haha looking so dashing that night.
so it was actually my first time attending a uni pageant and it was quite an experience? expected more like question and answers session this and that, but it didnt happen. and the whole event was just so short and it was actually a little boring, thank god for jiahui, xinhong and jacq's company. but still, am proud of my cousin clinching both mr groovy and mr glow!!

so right after the pageant, i pulled sean along w me for supper because my tummy started growling and make weird noises non-stop for no apparent reason (though i had my meal), thought i should just feed myself again oh well

and there you go- my chilli noodles, yuan yang and har gao, and sean's kaya toast!! been eating a lot at hk cafe recently. the other day after tzechar dinner w jasmin and gang, we had dimsum at hk cafe too... and if i'm not wrong, we're meeting this weekend again for sushi buffet lol, life of a glutton srsly. that also explains where most of our money go.

soup restaurant,

i've not tried the samsui ginger chicken at soup restaurant (ikr.......) so sean brought me there and omg we actually finished the whole portion of samsui chicken (serves 4), lotus root soup and some toufu dish, and you can see how bloated we were - close to dying haha i'm serious. but it was so gooooooooood, i will never get sick of that samsui ginger chicken omg, it's so perfect. i want it in my mouth right now no joke.
(been eating so much chinese food recently i realise)

simply sandwich,

met pretty gerri for breakfast one day last week! apparently strictly pancakes was closed and we had no choice but to make our way to somewhere else. popped by this place called simply sandwich off the cbd area, and it's pretty good for sandwiches! caught up w gerri over breakkie, it's been so long.. way too long, the last time we met/set down for a meal was i think, three years ago? gonna plan another dinner date w her sometime this month.

xx

We go together like copy and paste,

2011-09-01T00:38:00.006+08:00

last weekend, we met up w gaggy to help her out w her photo assignment. i thought the photos turned out really pretty (i love all of them) despite my much horrible receding hairline..... i really have to do something about it before turning bald even before i hit 20. thanks gaggy for the pictures, i hope we'd helped!

so the other day when we were waiting for a bus to town, i told sean something really cheesy, this line that i got from somewhere i dont even rmb. haha well we had fun coming up w more nonsense before boarding the bus and i thought i should just share it here,

me: without you, i'm a pencil without lead, pointless. (LOL srsly cheesex3)
sean: without you, i'm eating tori-q chicken without tori-q sauce, tasteless. (love this one)
me: without you, i'm painting a picture using just black and white, colorless.
sean: without you, i'm having an arrow and not having a target, aimless.
sean: without you, i'm a head with nothing inside, brainless.
sean: without you, i'm like having a butt and nothing inside, shitless.

hahaha we're made of nonsense, but i love us just this way. hehe love you so much my skinny bean.

Have a little faith in me,

2011-08-22T11:28:00.002+08:00

this morning, i woke up to sean's mom's text:
"all the best to your exam and god bless. we all have faith in you to do well cause you are a smart girl :)"
thanks for having faith in me. thanks for believing in me.
i dont know what i've done to deserve so much love, but i'm truly blessed.

i'm constantly afraid of letting sean down again and again, i've always been a disappointment. i've been to my bottom and it's not exactly easy climbing all the way up alone. so thankful for all my beautiful girlies who have been encouraging me all these while, and of course, sean. it's not an easy task handling a girl who's so emotional and unpredictable w my temperament. but he do it all so well, especially the whole of last week. we even had a big tiff because im having exams now yet i had not and didnt want to study, and he kept on pushing me so hard (i asked him to, yet i didnt even put in any effort) that we both got annoyed. last weekend, as usual, i started feeling sad all over and gave up on my studies. but this time, sean came to me, and wrapped his arms round my body. i needed that hug so bad. i started crying, telling him how much of a disappointment i am and i would fail him again, i'm really lousy. i used to be able to do it, but i cant anymore. i'm a dumbfuck.. he hugged me even tighter, and said "results dont matter, i'm proud of you as long as you're tried your best. i'm proud of you as long as i know that you didnt give up, you tried. you matter to me the most."

sean, i just want to say thanks for pushing me, and getting mad at me if i didnt put in any effort. i knew you got mad not because you gave up on me, but because you cared, and i like how you use reverse psychology on me and it pretty much worked. you know i'm just really scared of another failure, but you're always there to comfort me, to assure me that i could pass any tests, and even do well. thanks for not doubting me, even for a second.

Slut walk,

2011-08-15T20:24:00.004+08:00

The SlutWalk protest marches began on April 3, 2011, in Toronto, Canada, and became a movement of rallies across the world. Participants protest against explaining or excusing rape by referring to any aspect of a woman's appearance. The rallies began when Constable Michael Sanguinetti, a Toronto Police officer, suggested that to remain safe, "women should avoid dressing like sluts."The protest takes the form of a march, mainly by young women, where some dress in ordinary clothing and others dress provocatively, like "sluts." There are also speaker meetings and workshops. Some objectors have remarked that this approach is an example of women defining their sexuality in male terms. SlutWalk is a movement to stop violence again women and specifically aims to challenge “rape culture” which excuses sexual violence through messaging such as “Don’t Get Raped”–instead the message should be “Don’t Rape!”
- extracted from wiki/slutwalk

so basically i was watching cna and there were footages on slutwalks held in DC and other cities, that's how i got to know about it. i get how slutwalk aims to create dialogue about sexual harrassment, assault and rape and the culture that perpetuates such violence, and how it aims to encourage everyone to put the blame on the perpetrators of violence instead of the victims. i dont know whether to support this cause, or not. firstly, the police officer is definitely not tactful, so he deserves it when people condemned him as a arrogant, idiotic chauvinist freak. but he do make some sense. i mean honestly, girls who dressed up w black gothic make up, w exposed thighs and dress up like hookers (image) are more likely to attract these perpetrators, they are basically already saying "yes" to sex w anyone than to girls not showing their tits at all. i mean i wouldnt be surprised if they got raped. i also oppose the name "slut walk". slut - hmm, seriously?
true that women have the right to make decisions about their sex lives and the right to control their bodies, and i support women's right to not get raped (of course), i support the whole idea BUT i dont think slut walk is a good way to express and bring this message across, though it has become the most successful feminist action of the past twenty years just in a few months. it only changes focus on it's important issue, and allow women to be labelled as sluts. just saying.

bintan w goodfren @cixian was great - though it's pretty short, just 2d1n and we basically spent most of our time at the resort, just chilling and eating away, but it's a much needed one. will blog about it soon. i have so many plans this coming holidays! nope, not travelling, but i've listed out some things i want to complete by this holiday. i have to pick up a new skill at least! maybe go on a little course? or i could pick up something from the interweb. plans to set up a flea stall w my girls (NEED), club and picnic w my girls, meet up w jm and the rest to plan on our trip this december, meet up w everyone that i promised to, spend more time on my guitar again, revamp my room is definitely a yes, and to visit so so so many dining places, try out so so so many recipes, and to go on photography trip w my lousy camera... and yes to look for a job.

outfit of the day,
(top - f21, bottom - cheap monday, heels - anna nucci, necklace and bracelets - f21, bag - flea)

dressed up in all black last weekend, and attended sean's army mate's 21st party at a villa at amara sanctuary. finally wore my pair of cheap monday's out after say almost half a year?? sean got this pair of jeans for me last year because he thinks that i look good in it (though i think my thigh looked humongous then, so i refused to wear it out) i really hate how not proportionate my bottom is to my top, but i shall wear it out more often. love how comfy cheap monday jeans are.

pictures from all over,

bestie evonnie's bday dinner at watami a month ago haha, i'm so late. my third time at watami, but first time trying so many new shitz w the girls. food was so awesome!!!! i want to drink that soup from that awesome pot of goodness again... gosh.

met up w weijie too, #3! i was in my formal wear, had my final presentation for this semester that very day. so we took random buses from np, ended up at paya lebar, and back to town. had so many things to share w him, and i thought i was the one doing most of the talking that day! we ended up at haji lane for dinner, nice ambiance! we should be doing a #4 after my exams (ah shit yes because of my shitass papers again)

To adventures' doors,

2011-08-09T20:50:00.000+08:00

august is here and i'm officially done with semester 2.1, cannot wait for my holidays! (been telling my friends since the start of school, but oh well this really is it, i lead a pretty much boring life) not that i'm prepared at all for the upcoming exams ahead but this is nothing new, i mean we already conquered 2 semesters.... i shouldve got the hang of it already. just three more weeks and i'm a free bird!! ok i am actually one now. need some sense of urgency urgh.

sean was out from camp last friday, and i did not have to attend classes! what a day really, a rare one. made our way to wessex estate along portsdown road, pretty troublesome though it's just few minutes from hollandv, but well we dont have a car and there's only one bus directed to the estate, the waiting time for the bus's horrible (30mins freq). still, i wanted to go there since forever after reading and looking at pictures of all that green, quaint and brit looking apartment and houses, couple shots, swings, this and that on flickr - an absolute hidden find! so we took and changed three buses (one-way trip) altogether. the weather was perfect. i cant emphasize how pretty and how beautiful this place is esp w the natural morning sunlight, wowsome. i dont even have to edit (the pictures) much.
some pictures below to document our little adventure:

yes almost everyone living there owns a private pool in their own houses

the food sold here are definitely overrated. our glass of milo and horlicks were actually $3.50 each... hahaha and i was telling sean i can actually make him a $5 iced milo next time.

love these colors! the flowers were so pretty, i couldnt help but to pose w it.

tarzan lokey

his face really damn stretchy LOL, and i see his stroke face again on the right hahahaha such a cutesy.

and i love these two picas of us even though we look so retarded. i love how camera's timer captures happy moments like this ones hehe, only he has the ability to make me laugh like that, and i absolutely love being around him.

made our way to barossa's at holland v for our late lunch!

brought sean to with a pinch of salt two weeks ago - always wanted to head down to katong to take a look at this themed restaurant after reading reviews on various pages, but have not had the chance to. i spotted a deal, close to 50% off a 3-course set meal on this website (i cant remember which, there's too many deal webpages going around already) the other day, so i thought, why not?

we took quite a while locating tanjong katong, the east is pretty much foreign to us. we do head to the east once in a while, but cant exactly recognize the route since we're always taking different buses while exploring. anyways it's not too hard to spot with a pinch of salt once you locate tanjong katong since it holds quite a contrast to the shops around it. and all in all, the food was just okay, and of course they hit the basics to plate them all bistro-style. i would say all those reviews i read online are pretty much overrated, i dont feel that warm and cosy, jolly and friendly feeling and that kind of ambience/setting. but the food's definitely decent for it's price(super affordable). with that, i still have got at least 50 cafes and restaurants on my "cafes/restaurants i wanna dine at" list, it just keeps on multiplying..

portugese egg tarts from some random shophouse, and it's extremely good!

lokey's my mr good man!! lol

and my outfit of the day,
(top - myrosebullet, bottom - wearerubbish, necklace - f21, boots - my mom's)

since we seldom head to the east, we decided to travel a little by foot (can explore more uh) before making our way to city plaza (because i wanted to shop) but i ended up w nothing because i looked horrible that day, hence i got a conclusion that everything i tried on turned out ugly. we ended up at bedok reservoir, strolling along the reservoir under that hot hot heat, looking at kids overcoming obstacle courses and talking about how we should let our kids do it too in future, despite all those things that happened earlier in the day which totally ruined our mood. but love always win. we ended up whipping dinner tgt at sean's, it's pretty simple but still am so glad it turned out fine. well it was the first time i made chinese food at sean's, and his mom even tried it and said it was good....... well i really hope it did.

That super cute smile of yours,

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and because you're so fucking cute it kills me.... love you so much silly.

Day oh me say day oh

2011-07-29T09:37:00.003+08:00

poor title for my post, but this song's catchy as hell and i cant stop listening to the chorus. haha
am currently sitting on the couch, watching prime time morning(apparently their final show today), enjoying my self-made ham and cheese sandwich, and also, w this laptop within my reach. i extremely love lazy days like this, but this could only happen because i was late for school. i think my sandwiches are pretty good - toasted my bread, added a slice of cheese along w three slices of ham (it would be awesome if i had bacon strips at home), and some mayo spread. then toast them all tgt again........!! ok this is getting really random. it's almost august, and that means it's time to start studying for those goddamn papers which will take place towards the end of the month. le sigh, but before that, i'm going on a little getaway w @cixian, and im pretty excited! we finally stepped out of panjang LOL. also, i think it's about time for me to start searching for a job placement since i really wanna work this coming holidays, need some funds for my december's trip.

some pictures to document my life recently,

we had our grooming lesson the other day! gosh there's so many things and steps to take before applying make up on your face. cleanse, tone, moisturize, before putting sun block. bb cream this and that, but i had fun because i'm learning so much. haha i'm quite a noob, usually i just put on liquid foundation (most of the time, i dont even..) haha and that liquid eyeliner looks so harsh.the instructor needed someone to help her out with demonstration, and so i volunteered to, and she ended up trimming my brows. anw i'm starting to look more like my age now, gosh. it's like i woke up from sleep one day and i look like i've aged, at least ten years older.

how do you find his new hairstyle?? haha i think he's still looking so good ^^

buffet dinner w sean's family at tung lok restaurant at arena country club. well i mean normal civilians wont even head there since it's like so far away from civilization (lol). it's right in the west. hehe but we ate so much food! the highlight was that i had more than 40 slices of salmon sashimi along w many other shitz to myself and i must say, it's pure bliss. lol i love salmon sashimi so much, the next time i'm gonna try to have 100 slices to myself. ok that's crazy. we also spent the night discussing about sean's sister's wedding next year, wow. and apparently, i know so much about planning and where to get photographers and their rates LOL im not the one getting married anytime soon, but i feel like i'm so well fed w all these information in my head. yeah i dont read books, these are the things i read online lololol. ok so now the point is that i wanna get married young too.... but i think i cant even support myself just as yet. so oh well. that night saw us at zouk too, sean went over to surprise his friend. pretty close friend, but apparently they haven met for the past one year, and to him, it's not very long and it's nothing much!??!?!!

s: "one year only ma"
me: "ok what if you dont see me for a year"
s: "like that lor"
me: "k i go change boyfriend"

met up w ying, ming and mr tan for dinner the other day at oriole cafe! jeannie wasnt feeling well, so she couldnt turn up. it's amazing how the topics we talked about changed so much over the years, i can still remember how we used to be stressing over which jc to go to haha. so i've known these girls for almost 14 years, a huge part of my life indefinitely. and mr tan, he's our relief teacher for just a week as much as i can remember, i think we were primary five when we first met him. that's nine years ago. he's not even our form teacher, and he's definitely more than that. he's a friend. so we talked about his new profession, no longer a teacher, and he might be pursuing his masters for his job. and my girls, both enjoying their university lifes, and both feeling so so so loved by their boyfriends. awww so happy for all of them :')

@ulimali developed her films finally, and they turned out so good!! tempting me to get a film camera for myself too. yes??

woohoo disney pook-a-looz that sean's crazy about ever since he got back from taiwan.
you dont want to know how many pook-a-looz he has.

macs delivery for breakfast! i love laying out my food this way before i start eating. makes me happy. and i cant finish all of these if it's not laid out nicely (i'm serious) lol

need to start on my e-portfolio and hrock assignment soon. i have to analyze the lyrics of 8 songs this weekend, or maybe back to some flat out sleeping
xx

Soak up the moon beams with love,

2011-07-21T01:28:00.008+08:00

it has been a long week so far, and past few days has been pretty rough. bad mood every now and then, feeling down over absolutely nothing, or just revolving around my usual self pity. rough, it has never been easy coping alone, but i'm just so glad it's over. at least for now.

so the week before last, sean and i celebrated our first anniversary, or perhaps it should be post anniversary. i know i know, major time lag but yes here i am trying to keep this space updated. it was a great weekend, we spent a relaxing weekend at moon hotel, a boutique hotel somewhere off bugis/little india. it was our first anniversary together and i was really excited!! this boyfriend of mine definitely spoiled me so much....... he surprised me w so many gifts. other than that bouquet of flowers, he got me a couple of photoframes w our photos in there (he'll put it up on my wall after he paint my wall in this weekend haha), then there's this chain clutch from f21 that i wanted since forever (it's perfect), he also made me a giant card especially because he knew i love handmade cards and i have to say it's so nicely done... he's a genius. we had an amazing time together, in short, we had a romantic dinner, perfect night stay and definitely a whole lot of quality time together and i really cant ask for more. cant help but to tear a couple of times throughout the whole day, i'm one lucky lucky girl..

dont know where to begin, so i'll just post pictures. sean's mom drove us down to moon after our late breakfast,

here's the lobby. we checked in in the afternoon.

our room for the night! if you are wondering why moon hotel? i had been researching quite a bit on hotels in singapore, mainly boutique hotels actually. wanted to throw sean a party on his birthday last month, or maybe just a nightstay at the hotel w him, but obviously it didnt work out. sean knew i liked stuff like that, and decided that we will do it to commemorate our anniversary instead. so the other day, we were browsing through rooms and suites together, and decided on moon's moonlight suite. there were mixed reviews though, but we were both pretty much attracted to the outdoor bathtub..

the room wasnt as spacious as i thought, but not too bad, i mean it's just two of us.... and we are not giant-sized lol
1.bathroom 2.outdoor bathtub 3.seats by the balcony 4.boy who cant live w/o television 5.magazines from all over

the amazingly comfortable bed. and so we roamed round the room, check what we were provided, this and that.. there were free drinks in the fridge, that was a bonus. we didnt touch it at all though, am not a fan or sprite/coke/sparkling juices. we figured we should start making full use of the bathtub,

i love how the bathtub looks like a mini pool in the room huh, or i'd like to think so. and yes this bathtub takes forever to fill itself up, we ended up watching tv (we watched shows from this gossipy channel and i got to know how much prince william spend on each trip, and how much princess beatrice spent on her birthday LOL and also, the rock and classic fashion icon - fergie and anne hathaway, life of the kardashian family... haha interesting) and snapping pictures.

hahaha sean looks so cute in the first pica haha so cutesy

we soaked in the bathtub for about an hour or so after making reservations for dinner that night. sean chose to dine at au petit salut, and that's because i wanted to dine there since forever and i once told him so, obviously, he listened and remembered.. funny thing is that he called the restaurant up and the guy on the line told him that the place's fully booked till after 9pm, so we didnt reserve any seats because we'll probably finish eating at maybe 11plus, just slightly before midnight LOL. i decided to call back two minutes later, and there, they told me the same thing, it's fully booked but well seats are still available at 6pm. LOL i really think the staff on the line liked my voice more. haha well one thing we dont understand's their definition of fully booked. the restaurant wasnt even half full. but we enjoyed the food nonetheless.

vain vain vain

and so this is us, all ready to head out for dinner,

outdoor alfresco dining and their indoor dining. love both settings!

our eats at au petit salut:
plat de fruits de mer - millefeuille of alaskan king crab, smoked french eel and salmon tartare
crispy french duck leg confit, sautéed potatoes, bacon, mixed greens and walnut dressing, lobster risotto with truffles, green asparagus and parmesan shavings, oven baked apple w light calvados custard cream, vanilla and crumble, choux buns with vanilla ice cream, warm chocolate sauce and sliced almonds.
(yeah i just ripped off the menu from their webpage)

i had duck confit while sean had the lobster risotto, our oven baked apple and choux buns looked really horrible from my camera so i didnt post photos up, but the choux buns were absolutely mindblowingly (lol) delicious! i would definitely recommend this one, it's really really really good. go on, google "choux buns au petit salut" and take a good look at it! we had a really quiet and slow paced dinner, that's what i love about dining at a french restaurant. good service, quiet, food looks pretty, nobody's rushing you to leave - and we took about two hours plus to finish our meal.

took a stroll along tanglin road, and to traders' hotel before cabbing back to the hotel. a caucasian couple offered to help us snap some pictures, how sweet!

so this is how the bathtub looked like when we got back to the hotel.
oh and we popped open a bottle of red wine, since sean brought a bottle along to the hotel. we ended up chilling at the living room/wine bar area,

i love how he handed over the glass of wine to me, and that look of his..... really, i thought i was featured in some tv drama LOL, this boyfriend of mine really know what i fancy and know how to impress his lady.

managed to take just a few pictures to dictate that night before my cheeks turned red and before we were all emotional. so here are the only three successfully attempts. i also loved how this boy looked me in the eye as we exchanged toasts, i couldnt stop smiling. what a way to mark a new phase of our relationship :')

decided to head back into the bathtub before it gets really dark,

so i brought candles along w me, and i lid up the place. threw in the petals we got from the tanglin mall, and the sight was breathtaking - as usual, my photos do no justice to how pretty it looked. this was probably the most memorable part of our night's stay, well at least i feel so. think soaking up the moon beams in our own private little pool/tub after a romantic dinner, bliss. we spent the whole night soaking in the bathtub, w a glass of red wine each, (we also realise that day that filled wine glasses actually floats) pouring our hearts out, playing, kissing, talking and taking trips down the memory lane - remembering what we did together, talked about every single detail of our relationship, future plans, and how much we loved each other. i hate how this sounds mushy, but it sure was good to spend time w this boy of mine, just know that every single thing he does, is for me and our future... he spends so much on me, he spoils me, he pampers me. he does everything to make me happy, and he wants me to have good life. how he has never been the fittest dude, yet he strive to at least get a ranking in army so he could use his pay on me... and so much more, ok i'm not going to say every single detail but i'm just so... grateful and thankful for sean. he really dotes on me, loves me so much, and want the bestest for me. i couldnt stop smiling, but i ended up crying as usual. really dont know what i've done to deserve him.

we got up say, four hours later or so, past midnight already.

our handmade gifts for each other against the bedsheets, so this is one of his favorite pages haha.

the next day, and yes we almost couldnt wake up in time for breakfast,

the morning light's really pretty, we drained the water away the previous night, so we got to fill it up again since we decided to soak up again after breakfast.

breakfast at the lounge, i love how the food appears so good w the white backdrop lol. but it was just adequate, the normal and essential things a normal person would eat for breakfast. but we had no complaints because we knew they didnt have a restaurant or anything like that in the hotel, so it was not too bad for catered food.

and back to our room,

we took advantage of soaking in the bath tub when the sun's at it's brightest, had a amazing time - definitely a different experience compared to the previous night, and our pictures turned out pretty good too.

sunlight, timer, and our little tripod = work wonders.

i absolutely love this happy face haha and i think he should smile more :)

we checked out before lunch! sean's mom picked us up, we had lunch tgt w his family, and headed down to church in the evening. such a fun weekend, the stay turned out wonderful - relaxing and fun at the same time.

brunch @ spruce,

LOL stroke face on the right hahahaha

eggs benny w corn waffle and leg bacon

the spruce big brekkie

creamy macaroni and cheese

the weekend prior to our anniversary, we headed to spruce for a wonderful and hearty brunch. we didnt make any reservations, and were lucky to even get a table! i (in fact, both of us) had a hard time deciding what to eat, everything seems really good you know, it's so hard to pick a favorite. the food was really good, and we were so satisfied! yumyum

i am so thankful to have spent the past year w sean, as the girlfriend of this amazing boy. we endured some tough times, but still, we have grown so much together as a result. i am extremely thankful, i wouldnt even want to imagine a day without him. i am not always eloquent in putting my feeling into words, it just made everything sounds cheesy, mushy, wrong intentions argh whatever. but i just wanna say i'm really thankful for everything, for a relationship that is full of laughter, respect, fun and love. it's such a fun adventure w you, sean. i wouldnt give up the past year with you for everything.

Every day,

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i realise more and more that we are meant to be together.

These words you don't swallow,

2011-07-14T15:01:00.005+08:00

this is an album cover i made for our hrock assignment, it's nothing fantastic since i did it just the night before submission. disclaimer: i dont fancy metal much though i used to have them in my ipod. ted wanted to do a metal based album, so she chose the songs while i designed the album art. as much as i feel that IS is pure shit and also a waste of my time, i'm actually thankful that i dont have to submit reports to be graded for every single module. i hate to write reports and i suck so bad at it.......

school hasnt been amazing, projects are piling up and exams are drawing near again. still doing no tutorial, and definitely not ready for any revision yet, i dont even know what's going on in school. hoping that things will work out fine huh, *crossed fingers*. bcomm can totally be the death of me. we had our first impromptu speaking assignment yesterday, it didnt went exactly well because i totally just kind of blanked out a bit. i hate to speak, i'm pretty much soft spoken actually, ok not really, i just hate to present to a whole group of people because i don't have any substance in me LOL (i feel), i sure can talk shit but that's about it. i'm an airhead. as if my tutor will ask me things like, how would you like to cook your egg?, where can i find french food in singapore? or even, tell me about your favorite x-men character? haha i have so much to talk about then, but whatever. meow.
wished i'm as good as my smarty pants boyfee, he can speak so well sometimes and i think that's really charming.... i mean even when he talk cock, it makes sense!? i seriously think he can sell an apple off as a banana (yar i know wtf) - but this is how good he is.

Rapid eye moment,

2011-07-06T23:31:00.007+08:00

i realised i'm really old today. i used to be so hyped up about every single god damn news on paramore, alltimelow, versa and all the bands i used to listen to, not so now. i mean they are still my favorite bands, i'll stick to them no matter what, and i still liked their songs though i dont spin them in regular rotation, but it seems like i'm not so stoked about them anymore - not just the bands but all the news, new music in the scene, this and that. or should i say, not at all? it just feel like... another piece of news, nothing special. maydayparade and eyesettokill's in singapore today, so the zn probably a year/two years ago, would definitely spend whatever money she has and get so excited over shitz. i remembered getting all excited in school, sharing all the news and gossips i knew, sharing all my favorite tracks w my friends, pre-ordering merch and cds, going to concerts, and i also remembered crying over a tour which i obviously could not attend and that it featured all my fave bands at that moment hahaha. good times, good times. i was young, and i definitely had so much fun, and especially because these tracks influenced and inspired me so much as i grow up. i dont know why i feel this way, this is probably just another stage of growing up? maybe i have better priorities now, or maybe something's just really wrong w me. i tried to recreate the passion i had, think of the times i spent listening to these music, looking at the merch collected.... but those spark sparks no more. what's this? is that a heartbreaking affair w music? i dont think so. but i'm not sure what's this either. haha i'm so random at times.

picture updates as usual,
1)tian's farewell dinner and sending him off at the airport,

last weekend, well sunday night to be exact, tian flew off to brisbane for his university education. and that'll be four and a half years. we had a farewell dinner at jacq's place on saturday night, and we met up again the next day at the airport.. four and a half year's pretty long!! i mean he'll return during his breaks and such, but still... anw got to thank him so much for the countless car rides, we probably wont get the chance to sit in his car and he wont get the chance to drive us around anytime soon (sean and i doenst have the driver's license mehh, and usually when we meet up w the rest, either tian or jacq will drive us back) and hopefully by the time i graduate from poly, i'll have enough money to fund myself a trip to aussie, w the rest. bon voyage!

2)yiqin's twenty first,

headed down to marina barrage for yiqin's birthday picnic before tian's dinner. the wind was so strong, and it was a pretty lovely day. the girls (and guys) flew their kite, while sean and i just sat down by the side and snacked on nachos lol, yes yes we are greedy couplez. there was ndp rehearsals going on that day coincidentally, and we got to see pretty fireworks from afar. and from our view, the fireworks were just right above mbs's infinity pool, cant describe it w the right vocab (i failed lol), but it was soooooooo stunning.

3) ma's surprise chalet,

so we had a simple dinner at buddy hoagies, and we 'went off' after that. well truth is ruben had planned a surprise celebration for her, he has booked a chalet and invited all of us, ma's friends, as well as her whole family, awwwww :') i mean it was pretty obvious since we went down all the way to pasir ris for dinner, hahaha but it was still so very sweet nonetheless! so i was saying, we rushed to the chalet after 'leaving' ma,

ma's pa and my pa LOL. hahahaha ok, ma's pa, and ma's ruben :')

so the few of us stayed over at the chalet, think lots of heneiken, chrysanthemum tea (hahahaha), oh our fave drinking game, karaoke, and supper at 4am. i love that game really, will never get sick of it and i love how everyone turns out to be everyone's slave at the end. haha and suddenly someone'll change or set a new rule. my poor bestie had to drink every single round!!

HAHAHA hi wenshit are you reading

lovelovelove ^^

4)cj's birthday dinner at ma maison's,

my carbonara that was just okayyyyyy, really. but i finished it anw lol

dined at ma maison's, a jap-french fusion restaurant, before heading down to nydc for cakes! so we have two birthday girls in the month of june, and the next one's a long way more to go - december - ok that's mine. HAHA. caught up w the girls, so all of them are working now, while i'm stucked in poly. i love listening to them, sharing their different encounters at work, seems so fun and stressing at the same time. i dont actually think i'm ready for work, base on their stories, i think i really suck and cant do shitz. oh well, at the same time, i cant wait for internship next year, and please please, grant me a six-month long internship..

5) outside zouk on some random wednesday,

this is way overdued, so anyway, i got to hang out w gag's and ma's friends on some wednesday probably weeks or months ago, what a funny bunch of people. and i had fun! oh and especially my gag who puked curry leaf out (wtffff), and my bestie who cant even lie at all. hahahah they made me laughed so bad. anw, now i truly believe that the whole world resides at panjang. no i'm serious, just that night alone and i got to know three people who stays at panjang..

and here's something different,

sean whipped up a simple lunch the other day. we were too lazy to get out of the house, yet i wanted to eat some proper food (and also because he promised to make me food....) so we makedo with whatever we had at home - eggs, crabmeat, fishcakes, diced pork -a simple lunch that is! and i love it. boy also made me iced horlicks the other day while i was busy completing my assigned task for my project, urgh, it's done alr though. my boy makes the best iced horlicks ever, haha fyi i'm really picky for this one, it's my favorite beverage since young, well i mean other than bubbletea, iced horlicks definitely my favoritesttttt handsdown, i have it at least thrice a week. i love how he pays attention to what i like and what i dont.

three days to our little 'getaway', though it's still within the city, i'm sure we'll have so much fun hehe.

praying hard that weather will be alright this weekend, hi sky/sun hello there, please maintain this kinda weather k? you've been doing too fine these few days, but can you keep it this way till sunday? that's all i ask for, do me a little favor i love you so! so you better listen to me yay. bye

xx

Counting the ways,

2011-07-01T02:52:00.004+08:00

counting the ways - kate voegele

sean showed up at my doorstep and surprised me w a bouquet roses on monday!! he lied about booking out later, when he was already out there getting the flowers and then waiting outside my door, such a sweetheart. had a simple dinner nearby since the boy had to book in again later that night. we will celebrate our first year's anniversary sometime next week since he had to be in camp last saturday as well. *chants* army oh army.......
but i'm pretty sure next weekend's going to be fantastic.
i love flowers, all kinds of flowers. i can still remember my dearest girls goodfren, wenshit, kaishit, ma and mins were the ones who gave me my first ever bouquet three years back.

i'm really thirsty lately. probably due to the crazy weather huh? or i might just be really tired. but it's been really annoying, because i'm always drinking, i have to run to the toilet few times in an hour. ok but charmaine still owns. caught a couple of movies and dvds over the span of two weeks, my favorite would be x-men first class indefinitely, and maybe the private lives of pippa lee which featured robin wright penn and blake lively. just booked tickets to transformers' tomorrow, and i seriously have some high expectations because i've been anticipating for this one. please dont(try not to) fail me.

my cdc module's boring the shit out of me. content's fine i guess, i'm more than interested to complete my assigned tasks, ok basically, i just want to complain about having this particular lesson four hours straight. how to stay awake you tell me, better still, i'm all alone. cant fucking wait for six weeks to whiz by, sit for my exams(not that i'm prepared, i just want to get it over and done w), and here comes close to two months of holidays! but i should be working.. poor fuck. let's just hope sunday would be productive for me, or at least i get my reporter's assignment done.

also, i've set up a little selling post, not too sure if anyone's interested. but i'm sure i want to get rid of these items haha - so it's really cheap!! (less than $20) mostly brand new items, bought them a long time ago but have put them aside since then. do check it out!! email me if you're interested x.

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An amazing year,

2011-06-27T03:02:00.004+08:00

i cant begin to explain the way my life has changed with sean in my life. my life just seems to get exponentially better ever since i met him, ever since he became part of my life. it has been an amazing ride, i've never shared such a bond with anyone else before. someone who can read me like an open book, someone who knows exactly what i need, and how to love me. sometimes i wonder how is it even possible that he knows me better than myself.

today's our first year anniversary. i made a book that contains lots of memories between the both of us, a book that captures some of our happy times together over the past year. i want to let him know that every minute, in fact every single second with him is so damn worth it. thankyou for a love like this sean, a love that has made me cherish, smile, and laugh so fucking much. the past one year has been nothing short of amazing, and there is nothing more i could ask for.

happy first year anniversary love ♥
i have loved this year, and here's to many many more adventures together.

A decade long love story,

2011-06-23T02:34:00.005+08:00

cousin carol(yingqing)'s wedding day,

day pica. and yes, sean and i look like midgets right next to my cousin(s), as well as my cousin in law, yongzhi. in fact, all my other cousins from the extended family are fucking tall, even the younger ones - my nieces and nephews (my niece is two years old standing approximately the height of an average five year old kid) i have no idea what happened to my family lol
snapped some picas from the wedding album,

so pretty!!! potential model material srsly - fair skinned, tall (real tall), and look at those features! they're so defined :) anws, if you wonder, both carol and yongzhi are teachers. primary school and jc teacher respectively.

am ogling at her features again, sharp nose pretty smile all.... and this photo's so sweet!

reached the venue real early and got to snap a few shots w the pretty bride!! i just felt like posting the last pica of sean and myself because the pretty bride liked this picture hahaha

we looked as if we were attending prom lol. i was wearing heels, i still looked so.........

w my family.

and i love how my mom offered to snap photos for us heh heh maybe she had got nothing better to do, but i like taking countless photos w my boy anyways. so these two shots were taken by her.

second outfit that night, and i love this red gown so much! i hope i'm not just biased because the gown's red, but i thought she look really pretty in it.
the photos below were taken using someone else's phone, i grabbed them from fb. and i'm really impressed by the picture quality, i mean, using a phone!? i very much believe it isnt an iphone or a bb.

yp and my sis as the emcees. i dedicated and sang a song on stage that night as well. carol's a really close cousin of ours, both our families have been real tight and we always hung out since young... which explains why i couldnt hold back my tears when the siblings hugged each other, and when she gave her thankyou speech at the end.

awwwwwww. the couple have been together for a decade, ending ten years of courtship exactly on the same day that started dating, awww heh heh. blissful and blessed marriage, my dear cousin! :)

antonio's 20th birthday,

yet another friday night at @forgottenflame's, i think we all have to agree that we do love hanging out at his place haha. birthday boy got a beer tube (or some call that a dispenser) and started mixing his own kind of.....alcoholic beverage. hehe yet another fun night w antonio(&friends) and my girls!

hahahaha look at gaggy doing her gaggy dance

look at what i won myself last week,

hehehehe i feel so fly yo, say hi to a new dress! or maybe two. lucky lucky me ^^v

22,

2011-06-16T13:38:00.016+08:00

so exactly a week ago, the boy turned 22!!

the original plan was to stay away from home for a couple nights, say a little getaway, but with sean's shitass army schedule, that wasn't going to work. also, it was my common tests' week and i had a paper the following day too.... well, things clashed. but i had other plans in mind. i contacted sean's mom and made a trip down to his crib earlier that week to put this up on his wall, a little surprise for him! because that would be the first thing he'd see when he get home from camp (before meeting me), i had only an hour to put this up, so i'm pretty satisfied how it turned out. i also made a little gift for him using chalkboard and other paper materials before his birthday, and managed to send him a picture of it while he's stucked in camp, thought it cheered him up a little, really do suck to have field camp on your birthday, you get what i mean. my boy was indeed surprised when he first saw them on his wall after he booked out on friday night, and he liked it! i assumed so because now he refused to remove the pictures and that quote off his wall heh heh!! stayed over that night to prepare for the next day.

prior to that, i did a lot of research on places to dine at, especially because it's really expensive to dine at somewhere nicer during weekends, and most places offer a different breakfast/brunch menu on weekends, not quite my idea of a birthday lunch. i'd love to splurge on my boy at this particular fine dining restaurant, but i do have some budget constraints.. wished i was rich. liked i mentioned before, i feel that food is really important in a relationship and i wanted to treat him to somewhere nicer especially on his big day, so i was really delightful when i found pamplemousse. i like their concept of offering only set menus instead of an ala-carte menu. made a reservation beforehand, as well as contacted their manager for a little birthday surprise at the restaurant, and of course, sean was unaware of it.

made our way down to pamplemousse and was greeted by their friendly staffs, they were also v helpful. really friendly and efficient service. they even offered to snap pictures for us, and started asking us about our instax camera. i also loved the intricate details of their decor, and i'd totally loved the atmosphere more if it wasnt raining that day - because my plan for that night requires perfect weather!! back to pamplemousse, we managed to order their signature dishes because i alr knew which were the ones upon our visit, i've been spying on way too many blog reviews.... you know, for the sake of quality assurance. also, we seldom dine at french restaurants, in fact it was our first time? we've tried all kinds of food - chinese, malay, italian, mexican, european, japanese, blah, but not french. i love anything french, and i'm so glad sean loves the food too :)

complimentary bread w butter, i like how they actually served us coffee/tea right after our main courses. really thoughtful.

and i really love the presentation of this tagliolini.

shortly after our main courses were served, the staffs came out w this birthday dessert that i arranged (i didnt know they were coming right after main courses lol), the staffs, including the manager, came over and wished him happy birthday. i was waiting for something to happen, like maybe a birthday song? but it didnt, and i was quite lost actually, sean should be the one, but our roles somewhat switched lol, i just kept smiling to the manager. even though they missed out the word "sean", (i actually wanted "happy birthday sean" to be written on the plate), i'm still happy w their arrangement hehehehehe

we carried on w our creme brulee and rice and tea dessert before leaving the restaurant.

have not got him any practical present yet, and i planned to get him a shirt. so we spent the next few hours searching for his birthday present, but we cant find one that suit him, and he's really picky when it comes to clothes. so, right now, i still owe him a present............... hopefully i'll find something that looks really flattering on him. we made our way to the theatres for x-men first class, our first movie that day(we caught two others on dvd that night) and it was so good! i watched all x-men series, and i really love this one.

we made our way to taka to meet my mom right after the movie. yes, my mom. i actually baked sean a birthday cake that friday afternoon, and prepared some utensils and champagne glasses, and asked a favor from my parents if they could send them to me at town on saturday. so thankful for my parents, they actually agreed to fetch them down for me, and my mom actually packed the utensils pretty professionally. she wrapped the silverware w tissue paper, and folded them nicely. also, she knew i'd forget to bring a lighter and she threw in one of those. i fucking love my mom.

we started shopping for the picnic mat, drinks, and food. got ourselves some pasta, bratwurst sausages and rosti from ambush, and doughnuts from sapporo petit doughnuts, tao kae noi, as well as TORI-Q!!! how could we forget tori-q?! thought i should get more 'REAL' food, if you know what i mean by that, mains. we made our way to the botanic gardens for a night picnic. it was meant to be a surprise, but sean managed to have guessed it all right... from meeting my mom to getting food and all. but not the last part, he didnt guessed right about the night picnic. i wanted too add a romantic tinge to it, so i bought candles, LOL. we relaxed a lot, had all the time to ourselves, talked about everything... surrounded by hues of yellow, it was close to perfect. i love hanging out with my boy, and i'm utterly happy i could plan him a celebration, and spend his special day with him. as for the birthday cake, i actually researched for a cake recipe that includes milo powder because sean likes milo a lot, i knew he's one fucking big fan of milo and wanted to make him something milo-ish. unfortunately, the cake looked really awful because i added too much chocolate ganache, so it tasted really rich and heavy.... in a bad way. too much of it makes me sick.

twenty two candles, each for the last twenty one years i did not spend w him hahahhahahahahaha idk why i always sound so cheesy when i'm next to him

heh heh so cute.
we got back to his crib and ended the night with dvds!

sean's birthday dinner @ peperoni pizzeria,

take that XXL pizza!! i'd love to conquer one of those w sean one day, or anyone else, just two person. i wanna give it a try!!

also, crayons were provided for us to scribble on the paper table cloth hahaha. what a good way to kill time, and here's my master piece,

hi from an almost twenty years old lady. lol and we had angry birds too! (opp where i was sitting)

so on sunday, we met up his friends at peperoni pizzeria off greenwood avenue for his birthday celebration. tian drove us that night, it's pretty inaccessible without a car! i must say their pizza's really good, but we had to wait for half an hour for one of that XXL pizza. we ordered two pizzas, and two sets of pasta. i got sean a birthday cake from bakerzin! i rmb reading from somewhere, i think it's emma's blog, saying a cake's entitled to three wishes. i didnt know that! this time round, i got sean three cakes, and so, he got to make nine wishes!

happy birthday again sean, thank you for being the bestest boyfriend, the guy i can always count on. i hoped you had a wonderful time w me because you deserve no less, i wished i could do much more though.. so glad to have met you even though we are several years late, but they say good things are always worth the wait. ♥

(365)

2011-06-04T02:27:00.015+08:00

humans - the scene aesthetic
five months have come and gone officially, where has all the time gone to? i have no idea. time is still escaping me quick even though i spent most of my days bumming around and eating. besides getting rid of my ugly roots, and got my hair dyed and trimmed, i'm not productive at all. i dont mean just studies. common tests in just two days and i only started revising my first module today. urgh, so hopeless.. i dont know what's wrong with me, but i'm mega unprepared. right, i'll make this my last post till after next week.

before our bcomm networking assessment,

w clare, leon, charmz and shwenz.

sean and i celebrated our eleventh monthsary as well as the 365th day since we first met last weekend. nope we didnt took note of it deliberately, but we met a month before we got together, so it's pretty easy to remember. will be celebrating the boy's birthday next week, as well as our first anniversary three weeks from now. wow, isnt that incredibly fast? i can still remember a year ago, at this point of time, i was bursting with hope and was hoping to have a love like this one.. thanks for making me so happy every single day. cant wait to make more memories w this boy, i absolutely love everything about the both of us.

tao's for lunch! my pictures are really horrible, so i'm just gonna post a pic or two. anw, price's extremely reasonable for a six-course set meal, there were many choices as well. i enjoyed every single thing i ordered, esp the bacon and cheese gratin, and prawn roll w pork floss. jizzed in my pants. hahaha i apologise for always using the same line, and i didnt wear pants. but it was so good! v satisfying, we finished every single goddamn thing. it's good to have a bf as greedy as i am, and we're constantly hungry. i love how the staff came back and forth to check on us if we were pleased w the food served, and even joked w us! made our day. perfect place for casual dining, excellent service and food quality too considering the price.
here's other picas from my humble camera, we did some shopping before making our way to fort canning and the national museum. and it was totally unplanned.

outfit of the day.

hahhaaha emo boy boy

yay peking duck

hai tien lou @ pan pacific for dinner to celebrate pearlyn's (sean's sis) and sean's birthday, before heading to town for kungfu panda, hahahaha and i did something really embarrassing in the cinema. gonna miss watching movie this week due to common tests, oh well. let's just hope i'll be able to catch hangover and x-men next week.

and here's some really old picas i've yet to post. i figured i should just post all of them in a single post. make it a little visual treat (lololol) since i'll be away from this space for quite sometime, i call this an attempt to keep my blog up-to-date as well.
1) kaiqi's bday,

kaiqi's celebration @ dtf, we had a little private space to ourselves due to us being a large group. a pity sean couldnt join us, army hates me like i said, haha. we made so much noise, a dtf waitress came to ask us to lower down our volume. but she should've figured it was redundant, we have like eleven ppl in total? hahaha and some picture spams at ion late at night!

2) at @forgottenflame's,

yes i'm wearing sean's shirt, i dont have a raglan tee to myself. anw, a good night as usual! somehow, i fell asleep for an hour in the middle of the drinking session. got a little tipsy, puked, and fell asleep. and i have totally no idea how i managed to post a picture on fb, even though i was asleep? nope, no one stole my phone, it was w me all along! till now, i have completely no idea how that happened.. lol i'm serious!

3) because i had cravings for ayam penyet,

and the boy had cravings for pizza,

just the two of us, and we managed to clear this after having a yoshi bowl each. nomnomnom. i rmbed we were so fullllll after this! i love the bread stix so much.

4) sean's dad's birthday,

dinner @ singapore yacht club w sean's family tgt with his grans. earlier on that day was FLB's flea at the f1 pit, stocked up lots of leopard printed items haha. have yet to wear all of them, we also got ourselves a new friend each before this shop at ion closed down, our stuffed toy mascot! caught a movie w yt, chin and tian as well after dinner.

5) the weekend sean came back from taiwan (ok, i realise that's more than a month ago already hahaha)

we made our way to ann siang hill because i wanted to visit oakham market, the boy bought me three items in the end heh heh ^^v. visited k ki too, i've been there a couple of times but it's always packed so i didnt managed to try the cakes. this time round, there was an empty table and we were more than happy to sit down, have a good time, and of course, get a slice of cake each. hopefully i can make my way down to flor patisserie and green pumpkin to try their cakes soonish..

also, sean made this velcro patch. the army boys are allowed to paste this velcro thingy on their army vest, and they're also free to design whatever they want to put it on there. he managed to find a ambigram generator and made our ambigram. "we are one!" :)

Lapse,

2011-05-25T23:57:00.001+08:00

chloe's 18th birthday:

poor chloe had to execute 18dares! think dancing w the filipinos outside taka and make them sing a birthday song for her, wearing a cape and w underwear on the outside, dressing up like a bird using honey water and feathers, pouring milk on herself, sitting down in the middle of nowhere and start shaving her legs.....and that's just a few that i recalled. hahaha my favorite one would probably be kissing ryan's butt or the one whereby she had to put her feet into the toilet bowl and flush it!! gosh, i cant even imagine..... and shwenz actually flushed it three times!!

later that night was dinner at sher's mom's restaurant - jai thai.
love the food!! and especially the thai milk teaaaaaaaaa. i'm sucha sucker for milk tea.

and more picas from last month! think i've blogged abt them but have yet to post picas up, so here goes,

charmaine's 18th birthday:

min's 20th birthday:

march's chalet:

food for thought:

heh heh heh ^^v

red velvet cakeyy, sexy sexy.

Make you smile,

2011-05-24T13:28:00.001+08:00

stay-at-home saturday w my boy before meeting my girls at @forgottenflame's.
esp love the last pica, we looked like we're going on a roller coaster's ride heh heh

right, all of a sudden, may was half way over. may was good, and is still going good. i got to spend the last ten days straight with my favorite person in the entire world, bliss. i think i stayed over for five days or so. caught a chinese ghost story, water for elephants and pirates of the carribean together, got the potc lego set and fixed it together, played w our kids (yes we have like seven kids to date, and one grandson heh heh), pigged out a whole lot, spent time w his family, my family and of course, had lots quality time together. we stayed in pretty much this time round, i had quite a lot of work to do sigh i cant wait for my short break in june, but that would be after common tests (for which i think i'm pretty much screwed)

i love staying over at sean's, actually anywhere will do. i just want to be around him. i love cuddling, spooning, kissing this and that of him and especially falling asleep together. i love the idea of waking up to him, morning kisses and hugs instead of the virtual ones on bbm, my hand on his chest or his face, and his hands brushing my hair, slow (unprofessional) dancing and making silly faces at each other. i also love how he took care of me when i was unwell. mr sweety loke piggybacked me everywhere as i command, brought food to me and made me honeywater as i do my work. i dont remember mentioning this but he help me blow dry my hair every single week without fail, i know i'm lazy hahaha and he tugs me to bed/stays awake to accompany me just because i refuse to sleep, even though he's mad tired.. poor boy had his eyelids hugging each other, yet still insist that he's not tired and not sleeping.... and even as i cried hysterically for god-knows-what reason because i just felt like crying, he held my head close to his chest as i bawled, then wiped my tears off my face and hugged me so tight, and talked to me. i remembered telling him that i want him to hug me every single time i cry, and he apologized to me well because you know we still have army coming bewteen us. anyhows, i love talking to sean. he knows exactly every single shit that's going through my mind, and he have his ways to chase my darkest clouds away. always end up w both of us smiling like lunatics. no need to crack jokes or tell me lame stuff, he just know how to talk to me. he knows how to love me. no one loves me the way he does, and i always wonder what have i done to deserve him. boy's too sweet to his girl. this is also the reason why i'm always insecure... yes irony because i'm so afraid i'll lose him one day.

In conversation,

2011-05-23T20:25:00.005+08:00

as we were cuddling on bed yesterday,
sean: "baby, put your head on my chest.."
me: "why? want me to listen to your heartbeat right" *and i gave him a cheesy look hahahaha*
sean: "just put your head on my chest baby"
me: okay *and slowly, i placed my head on his chest*
me: ya i can hear your heartbeat.... goes like that *starts tapping his fingers w mine*
sean: yeah and somewhere in the middle my heart skipped a beat right. for you lor

hahahahahahahaha we ended up laughing, we are stupidly silly in front of each other and i love it. boy never fails to give me dollar sign on my lips

and today (through text),
me: "gss is starting soon!!! what does it mean hehehe"
sean: "yeah it started last week baby!"
me: "starts on 27may, end at 27june or somewhere in july. dont anyhow baby"
sean: "the last time we went out everywhere sales alr leh"
me: "people having sales doesnt mean it's gss alr what"
sean: "it's considered start of gss ma, they warm up ma that's why there's small sales"
me: "baby let me ask you, when you wanna run, then you do stretching as warm up and all. hmm but you still haven start running right?????"
sean: "when you go for pe lessons, you do stretching and all before the run. and that can only happen because pe lessons alr started right??????"

Constant Motion,

2011-05-16T01:08:00.011+08:00

i'm aware i havent really penned down a proper post after sean's return from taiwan. i could make up a lot of excuses about doing other things, but only a part of it is true. yes, i've been spending so much time w sean, spending our weekends together again and so on, we caught three movies over the last two weekends, attended a flea market, went on dates, photos and food trails as usual, and of course spent lots of time together over at his crib, two of us, and watching him sleep. he got me so many stuff from taiwan - clothes, accessories, a hello kitty plushie, chip&dale plushie, food and more food! i feel so pampered. school is also taking up pretty much of my time. but the real truth is that i'm on a lazy streak.. so i guessed it should take me quite a while to keep this space up to date again. like i said, the three long torturing weeks were long over, my life's back on track again. well at least no more vulnerable and fucked up nights for me, worrying about my boy over at the other side. i guessed i'm too dependent on sean, i dont know if it's good or bad, but too comfortable and used to being around with him is for sure..... hmm. apparently, i have accumulated SO MANY photos over the past month, they shall appear in my next few posts! uh i can see myself taking forever to do it though.

according to sean, my blog's hits are increasing recently not because my blog's content is interesting (yeah i know i have real boring shit here), and also not because people want to you know, stalk me. apparently he said the increase's due to a whole lot of people wanting to er.....check him out. wtflol oooookaaaayyy, if it makes him happy.... :) i still love you!! and i decided that well, since he's back (and i'm extremely satisfied, feeling like i'm walking on the air tonight LOL), this post shall be made for him then. i have a couple of pictures from his army trip to taiwan below. stalkers, if you guys do exist lol, enjoy!

HAHAHA this is too cute

dude cheating on me w a random statue tsk slut

on mothers' day last week, i did some craft! i folded paper flowers for both my mom and sean's mom,

it's a simple gift, and i'm glad they liked it. thanks mom for loving sis and myself unconditionally, and thanks sean's mom for treating me like a part of the family, and of course, for giving birth to sean.. missing out my aunt though, and i really missed her. i used to get her flowers/cake when i stayed at her place during my younger days, hopefully i can pay her a visit during my two weeks's break next month.

Five years time,

2011-05-08T04:53:00.011+08:00

rushed to sean's from town, stayed up late for the elections results, just like any other singaporean. i do not understand at all why some people do not give a fuck about ge2011. not cool, the least we could do is to show some concern for our country, the country we live in, afterall we are all working towards improving our lives. been catching up w the news everyday, twitter(overwhelming), watching rallies, videos... well, it's the talk of the town anw. tough competition, the government being threatened by the fact how strong the opposition parties are, names popping after names, popular candidates like nicole seah herself. exchanged opinions and engaged in little discussions over meals, which is rather interesting. i mean not to the extreme of debating, but at least to understand how different our minds work and how rational or irrational some people are, to think all they do was bashing and bashing, supporting your party doesnt mean you have to insult are people's choices. it makes you a joke. so anw results are finalized, and votes conveyed the messages somehow. change is gradual, but it's still kinda surreal, definitely a pity that mr george yeo, had to leave his seat. i'm greatly touched by what he said in his videos, his speech rallies, as well as videos made for him by some residents living under his grc previously. well because he's such an inspiration, he's genuine and sincere towards his people, as well as the nation of course.. i'm sure god has greater plans for mr george yeo, thanks for believing in the youths. time to put party politics aside, keep your words and start working together w the country and people's live in mind. thanks to the returning officer, i've learnt something new today - pursuant to section 49, subsection 7e, paragraph A of the parliamentary election act. (he's fb page owns everyone involved in the election, no but srsly 24k likes in four hours is wowsome, plus he's too cute) that dude actually made my night. -#sgelections

[edit] wah cannot tank, this one's too much alr hahahahahahha it actually sounds good
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zzzYzqKNJRw&feature=player_embedded [/edit]

May,

2011-05-02T13:10:00.014+08:00

yet another day closer to the boy's return. i really cant wait anymore! i've got so so so many things to show him - things i've collected and bookmarked over the past three weeks, snapshots of clothes, happy faces, news and videos i subbed, stalkery findings lol, this and that. had been doing my dailies alone for the past three weeks, it's just weird to do everything alone, i mean what's a boyfriend for if you're going to do everything by yourself.. debatable line, but that came from my boy, and yeah that's just how i feel too. now i'm envisioning for many little dates coming along, just fucking deprived of my boy, hehe so excited. got to thank and love all my sweet friends who kept me company while he's away, sweetest bunch of people :) well, i have a new friend for him!! mr hippopopo and it's so cute, i wonder what name will sean give him. last night was fucked up though, felt completely vulnerable. sean had to call me three times in a night, and i just couldnt stop being a bitch. thought i was forgotten and never missed, all sorts of crap. not a good feeling at all, but i figured that was just completely bullshit, im just thinking of ways and other reasons that doesnt make sense at all, to make myself feel sad. i'm all alone!! i hate to feel unwanted though, really. but why did i even feel that way? my boy loves me so much but i'm always doubting him.. or rather, i feel that it's the other way round.. but the night got better, or rather, he managed to turn the night around anyways with his final video for me, yes the last episode of sean's tv. tears kept rolling down my face, yet i couldnt stop smiling after watching the video, he told me about how grateful he is that i'm there for him, and that he missed me. so what the fuck was i thinking about earlier that night? sigh.... thanks for everything, sean. i'd totally understand if you got pissed off w me after all my shit, but you didnt. instead, you chose to stay by me and make sure im alright. you just got so many ways to make me happy again, sucha amazing pie..

did some covers few weeks back, or maybe a month back. i cant really remember but yeah i did it right after getting the album. it's so good - even my boy loves it!! (ok maybe i forced him to since i grabbed his itouch and put some of her tracks in it) wont be going to her concert on may 9th, this is real sad, but i'm real tight on budget since i have some plans coming along for june hehe! unless someone gets me a tix, then it would be a different story.

kinda suck. it's so raw but im still gonna post them up anyways because im shameless like that. yay.

may, let it be a good month.

#RoyalWedding

2011-04-30T12:05:00.007+08:00

happened to be on Kate Middleton’s Wiki page to read up on her bio, and watched the phrase “Prince William’s fiancee” change to “wife” literally before my eyes the second that the Archbishop declared them as married. :) (via yesthatblog)

my twitter timeline's definitely flooded w #royalwedding last night, i think i contributed to quite a bit, i apologise if i filled your timeline w it! i was really excited, watching my first royal nuptial and a modern day fairytale unfold, had to take twitter to cheer. london looks so beautiful, i was literally glued on to the tv for 6hours -kate and william's lifetime 'movie' (hehehe), guests and members of the royal family's arrival, london and more london, pretty hats - only in england will you find people wearing super big hats not looking like fools lol, pretty girls and elegant girls, the always-look-perfect-together's posh and becks, how the brits there and from all over the world are celebrating the special day, westminster abbey, and when kate walked down the aisle, choir boys, when kate and william travel back to buckingham palace on carriages, and of course, the kiss at the balcony. thank god for live broadcast all over the world. more than 2 billions of people watching and celebrating at the same time. totally romantic and flawless everyone looked unbelievably stunning. kate is so pretty....... and totally down to earth. love how she chose to put on her own make up! well actually her entire family looks good, her mom's super pretty too, and her sister, pippa - the bridesmaid who's another hot stuff, her brother james. my mom even had to bring my dinner to me because i refused to move LOL. damn why isnt sajc affiliated to university of st andrews hahahah, alright, i know i have to stop swooning over the wedding between prince william and kate middleton already

i spammed my boyfriend w countless texts lol, close to 60? ikr, what the fuck hahahaha, but i'm v sure he's used to it already, since i do that all the time when i get excited. (yeah even "OMG!!!!!!"'s a text if you wonder how did i even reach 60) ok so now you know that's what i do when i get excited.. "omg PRETTY HATS i want to wear!!!!","omg becks and posh are gorgeous, all those random ppl look so good too fuck why am i not a brit","i want a union jack flag la wahlau i love the brits they are so happy!!! i am so happy! aww they love their kings and queens so much", "wah i want a prince too alr, i should be in england now hahahahha love you, can i have a royal wedding too prince lokey?","kate is so pretty omg so stunning im speechless baby" hahaha later at night (can imagine his face after reading all the texts), he dubbed me his princess, i'll take it HAHAHA. omg bimbotic moments, but i wished we couldve watched the wedding together, then i wont have to give him "live updates" lol. have been updating him w the ongoing sgelections news,well i'm surprised and even discussed it w a handful of friends. good to know, good to know. also, i sent my macbook for repair today and i will only have it back next wednesday. i cant wait for next wednesday, will be at the airport early in the morning, waiting for my life to come back to me heh heh.

Snippets

2011-04-25T04:29:00.010+08:00

some recent pictures from my humble camera. the other day, i put on some make-up, dolled myself up a little, grabbed my compact camera and macbook, and went on a little photo assignment with myself - just because i was bored! no other reasons. this is my first photo assignment in a very long time, especially when i'm not a professional photographer and all i wanted was to make some pictures to post them on my blog to share. so i decided to decolorize and leave my pictures b&w, since it was pouring before i whipped out my camera.....i thought 'b&w' could be a possible sorta theme or topic to do huh..

anyway, it's the good friday-easter weekend last week. didnt make a big deal out of easter (no easter eggs, no easter feast), but i got to spent my weekend w two groups of friends. friday saw seven girls hanging out at town, and as usual, possibly making a whole lot of din hahahahaha met up to celebrate min's birthday in advance! wanted to dine at strictly pancakes but it was packed, so we had to make our way to TCC at pomo, which was just directly opposite. were given the bean bags seats, comfyx10. i've not eaten a proper meal at TCC prior to friday, all i had was coffee (because i wouldnt expect much from a coffee joint), but the food turned out pretty good heh heh. nice dinner, great catching up, we stayed for as long as we wanted without being chased out. i couldnt figure if the portions were too little (we each ordered a plate of pasta), or if we were pretty big eaters, we decided to go back to strictly pancakes again for another meal since they had available seats after some time. my third visit to strictly pancakes but my first time getting my hands on the garlic buttered prawns pancakes, and chocolate pancakes. i'm a savory person so i actually preferred the garlic buttered prawns pancakes. fucking addictive garlic sauce....... loved how the pancakes' are soaked w garlic sauce and maple syrup. i really dont mind having it every day.
charmaine's 18th on saturday - bbq party held at her residence. there were too much food haha, i thought the german deli sausages were awesome, especially the ones wrapped w bacon. omg, bacon's my favorite!!!!! i can haz bacon every morning LOL. i'm sorry but i get excited over my favorite things this way, especially when talking about my favorite kind of food. so the usual clique were there, and charmzzz wore a black dress! definitely the first time i see her dressed this way, she's always wearing jeans and tees in school. stayovered at her place as well and this morning, her maid whipped up breakfast for us.. scrambled eggs, sandwiches, and sausages from the previous night. the last time i had scrambled eggs was at sean's, he made breakfast for me..... gosh, i miss that boy again :'(

here are a few more pictures from my photobooth,

i know my face's as big as the lcd screen, dont judge.

am constantly counting down. ten more days till the boy gets back to singapore. i cant wait to be around him, watch him breathe as he sleeps. i cant wait to fall asleep in his arms again.

Sleep deprived.

2011-04-22T04:04:00.000+08:00

not gonna lie, these past couple of days had been tough. i'd always have problems trying to control and deal with my emotions, and my mind's been running wild. it is not only taking a toll on me mentally, but physically as well. right, somehow i fell sick just before school starts, and conveniently took it as an excuse to skip all my lessons. it's been a week into school, and today's the first day i actually crawled out of my shithole and made my way to school.. i havent been sleeping well, been tossing and turning on my bed for at least three hours before i blacked out everyday. insomnia. even crying myself to sleep doesnt work anymore. wow, totally reached a whole new level.

now, all i want to do is sleep, and just fucking sleep. and i want sean back to me. maybe i'm just really selfish, but i feel so helpless and there's nothing i can do besides missing him even more :'( i'll just end up washing my face with tears, not like it'll do any help, but that's just all i do. better still, send a hell lot of texts to him, make him worry and he had to call back home to get his family to look after me. i would say, probably the damages from welling everything up. sigh i'm such a horrible person... in fact, i havent really been my usual self, i've been crying so much for the past couple of days, good gracious... one point of time i felt like i have nothing more to do w myself anymore, no idea how did his absence triggered so much negative thinking. it's not like he's not contactable or anything, he has been calling me every single day! yes he is very sweet, i love him too much. i'm just weird and...not in my right mind. there's so many things caught in my head..... or maybe i'm just clearly sleep deprived.

URGH is it too much of an expectation to hope that i can get rid of insomnia? i just want to shut down my mind, stop thinking shit for once and have a fucking good sleep......

Sand beneath our feet, big blue sky above our heads.

2011-04-20T18:25:00.000+08:00

so here are the picas w my boy at the beach few weeks ago,

like i mentioned previously, the afternoon sun was kind and close to perfect. i dont even know how to describe it, but all i can say is everything seemed to glimmer off the water. we sat on sand, sunbaked, got into water, snacked on the cheese sausages and seaweed chicken that we prepared earlier that morning, took little walks and engaged in deep conversations, took a hell lot of pictures, piggybacked each other (yes i'm strong!!! no actually my boyf's just too skinny) and just having fun, being around w each other -my idea of a perfect beach day. thanks my love ♥

'Cause after all, we are actors on a stage.

2011-04-16T03:40:00.007+08:00

i've been on a food trail lately, everything i blog about's related to food, and somehow, more food...... it's good i guess? better than posting all sorts of unnecessary (and boring) rants coming from my stupidly crazy mind, making my space gloomy. but i foresee them coming in soon since my semester break's coming to an end.
am not exactly looking forward to the new semester, i say that every time before a new semester starts lol. but here i am contradicting myself since i even made a trip down to the book store last week to get new stationeries for school.... i mean really, whatever.

@wild honey,

last monday, we made our way to wild honey (finally) after much procrastination. we've been wanting to dine there for the longest time, but the crowd on weekend's horrible. so this time round we made a trip down on a weekday, at least there wasnt any queue. we were given the sofa seats, and i thought our seats were the best seats available at the restaurant. i dont know about everyone, but for me, i prefer sitting next to sean, on the same side, to sitting across when we dine. i dont know, that's just uh personal preference.. i like it more that way. i'm also perfectly fine with sitting across, much easier to talk and make eye contact, just saying. it didnt take me that long this time to decide what to order, even though everything on the menu sounds delish. i knew i had to order the european breakfast set as we checked out the menu on the board, they even had an ipad at the counter where we can refer to the pictures from the menu. wild honey's version of egg benedict it said. sean went on ordering the tunisian breakfast set, the picture from the ipad looked too good not to try, and i conclude, our breakfast was....... yumazing!! (yummy and amazing) really enjoyed every single bitez.
everyone seemed to be relaxing too - either reading a book or just good friends meeting up and chatting over coffee. we had a really comfortable experience there; think sipping a cup of coffee each, talking about nothings, and having absolutely delicious brunch w your other half... hehe, close to perfect :) i think we spent more than an hour and a half at wildhoney.

@carl's junior,

so after checking in, foursquare alerted me that the last time i've been to carl's jr was in november 2010. that's quite sometime........ carl's jr isnt my favorite place to have fastfood - i'm not a big fan of burger, so the only reason i'd go there, would be for those chili cheese fries. i love chili cheese fries, just so you know. my typical weekend lunch would be a two-piece chicken set meal either from kfc or popeye's, or a mc wings meal from macs, so the closest i could get from carl's jr would be chicken tenders and w chili cheese fries, woooooweeeee (and the chicken tenders were yummayeeee)
yes that explains where my flabs come from.

@cafe epicurious,

@cixian and i went on a little lunch date, hehe our goodfren outing once again. well lunch at cafe epicurious, super worthy i would say. our three course set meal cost us only $18!! made the wrong choice choosing salad as an appetizer though, i couldnt finish my greens, but my white chocolate cheesecake was really good!! we also went up to the railway tracks, intending to snap some pictures for the sake of keepsake, we did in the end, pretty satisfied also, but it was SOOOO dangerous!! (okay also partly because i i'm exceptionally timid lol) we were happily snapping away, and there we saw the train approaching.................. so the train driver honked like mad (i guessed he couldnt stop the train) and i also screamed at the top of my lungs manz. we had time to move the fuck out and hid by the sides, actually there were ample space by the sides. still, thank god we were keeping a lookout constantly. shall elaborate no more, but it was really scary :( i'm one timid girlz because my hands remained shaky for a while even though the train left and we suffered no injuries. then, we realise it's not a wise thing to do to get on the railway tracks just for some pictures, we might end up getting killed, well unless you use the abandoned railway tracks instead, not too sure where it is.

i also made another trip down to cafe epicurious for a dinner date w judith, that makes it two impromptu trips down to cafe epicurious in a week! love the fact that it's located so near place, just a few bus stops away. we were looking for a dinner set (i rmb there is????) but we couldnt find it..... oh well, good food still! well i'm actually really thankful that she's willing to meet me up, felt so much better after talking to her and realizing we had quite a lot in common, we could pretty much relate to each other on certain issues. i dont remember talking to or even, knowing her back in sa. funny how we only started talking after we graduated, not that it hasnt happen before - same thing for some of my friends back in secondary school - but i'm just thankful for having friends who are really genuine and i must say, sweet. i think we touched on quite a bit that night and our conversation made me think a lot about my relationship w many people, not just w sean, actually in particularly, w my family. i love deep conversations that leaves me thinking about things like that, it makes me reflect.. much much better than being all alone at home, and feeling sad over nothing, definitely not a good time now especially when the boy's away.... i was pretty down the previous night, feeling lousy all over again. weijie immediately texted me and met me up over a little booze, hoping that i feel better. sean's mom also texted me to check if i'm coping well, and if sean's stuff (i stole many of his things over for the three weeks lol) were keeping me well companied. and my girlfriends are keeping me busy, talking to me online, on twitter, texting and whatsoever..
i have the sweetest friends around, what more can i ask for?

sean took this, when i was asleep lol...........

goodnight, i'm sleepy.
probably hugging stitch to sleep, just like how i did in the picture.

xx

Three days later,

2011-04-14T01:43:00.004+08:00

at the airport, i hugged sean tightly, i just didnt want to let go... that's the closest picture i can find, and it was wow taken from photobooth. no i didnt cry at the airport and just when you were thinking omg zn didnt cry for once...?! you were wrong. i cried even before reaching the airport. i'm sucha crying baby, but i couldnt hold back my tears. i'm just really worried for him, and i know i'll feel lost when im alone. so i actually started crying when sean was packing his travel bag, poor boy had to stop every now and then to check if i'm alright, giving me countless hugs, assuring that he'll take care of himself and that i need not worry for him. on our way to the airport when sean's mom started praying for sean, granting him safety and protection throughout the whole trip, i started tearing again. i was pretty discreet until sean blurted out "why are you crying, silly girl", sean's parents sitting at the front seat, both turned back and took a look at me omg that was definitely one embarrassing moment. but hey that was probably the most heartwarming and genuine prayer i've ever heard from someone close to heart, aunty betty even prayed for me that i'll be fine when sean's not around and that both of us would be alright even though we are miles apart. she even asked sean to call me more instead of calling back home, i dont even know to feel bad or touched, but she's really understanding. he held me close, i love it when he places my ear next to his chest. then, the boy pulled me back and said, "we'll be here at the airport again next year, not for army again of course, we're gonna go travel together ok? dont worry, twenty three days is not too long, we've alr been tgt for so many months, twenty three days is nothing. we still have a lifetime to go. we'll have all the time together when i get back." alright, not word for word but close to the above, stupid boy idk where he get those lines from, but tell me how not to tear like that? thank you my precious boy, i luvvvvv you :')

so i caught the first two videos sean recorded for me, he actually took the time off to record videos for me to watch, he signed off today's video w "see you on seantv again tmr" haha that boy just know how to make me smile from ear to ear effortlessly. i also wrote letters for him to read everyday, and by the time he finish reading his last letter, he should be coming back to me hehe. twenty three days aint that long actually, am really glad i've got all the time tgt w sean during his off in lieu days - no work, no school, no nothing - i feel so blessed, another thing to thank god for.

Dreams only last for a night,

2011-04-08T03:29:00.010+08:00

weekends are here once again, and it's going to be the last weekend before sean's departure to the land of fried chicken cutlet and bubbletea....... boy doesnt wanna to leave, i dont want him either, though seriously, i dont mind drinking bubbletea everyday.. no really, i dont mind.

the past two weeks (mostly referring to sean's off in lieu days) were completely jampacked, but it could not have been more perfect. sean hasnt got to try my cooking after getting together w me for so long, i've baked for him but have not cooked actually, ok i've been a bad girlfriend lol that boy has made me pancakes twice and also one full meal already.. so on one of his off-day, i asked him over and whipped him a full meal, a three course meal..... garlic bread, spaghetti alla carbonara, and strawberry and nutella filled crepes. i cheated for garlic bread though, bought a baguette, spread garlic butter spread that i've gotten from the supermarket(which is fucking salty), and toast it. i'd very much love to make my own garlic butter spread the next time round though.

the other two are really simple as well, basically, i picked the ones that were easier and safer to prepare, they wont go wrong that's why i picked them. i should try something more interesting the next time round, hehe am glad that my boy enjoyed his lunch!!! he stayed on for dinner at my place that night too, and my mom was more than happy, ok she didnt say that but i'd like to assume that because she actually cooked porkchop specially just for that day.

last monday, on my last day of work, sean came by and picked me up from work! he surprised me w my favorite tori-q, the first thing i did was to exclaim "omg i love you tori-q!!!" hahaha well i was telling him the other day, jokingly, some day in future if i have some private event sorta stuff going on, like you know my company uh-huh ok whatever, but i'll not hesitate to cater tori-q at all, and i'll just sponsor everyone w different sticks of tori-q!!!!!!!!! who doesnt like tori-q? no one. alright totally off point, so i was saying, my boy came by and we had dinner together, did some grocery shopping for the next day before heading back to his crib. tuesday was sweet, i had the best time ever at the beach. i'm so glad we made our way to the beach, and got to enjoy the sunny warm weather. i cant even remember when was the last time i stepped on sand lol, oh well the pictures taken that day turned out pretty well too. i guessed we were really happy :') no stress from our everyday life on our minds at all.. in fact, i'll probably create a separate post in a jiffy, i think it's worth a post hahahahaha (no i'll probably post lots of pictures up, and let the pictures do the talking) on a random note, this is what i wear to work on a typical day - blazer over a workdress or blazer over a top w shift skirt,

last weekend saw me at NEX mall, my virgin visit. that mall's filled w food, food, lots of food and probably more food. i'll return, make a trip back again hahaha am pretty sure. so that day, we checked out freshness burger as well as sharetea - ohhhh our love for bubble tea. it's a must to have at least three times a week for myself, and it's a must for sean to have it every weekend. we have quite similar cravings sometimes... which is good! back to freshness burger, i've heard so much about it that's why i pulled sean along w me to check it out, and....... it's awesome! yumbo burger, and comfortable ambience, it doesnt even look like a fast food joint seriously. spotted cheryl at the counter as well! i didnt know she was working there, and even sean thinks she looked like wenshi, i even showed cheryl wenshi's picture last year when we just got to know each other omg. so we ordered the classic cheese burger and the bacon omelette burger, YUMS the buns were so soft!! i love how every filling say the patty, it's packed and also much less greasy than the usuals; and the tomato slice was unusually thick too, everything i love in a bun. what can i say really, everything jap's nice. we explored the mall before making our way down to amk, and yes we were travelling all day. OH how can i forget, we had tzechar for dinner! wow, i've always wanted to eat tzechar w my boy, or even steamboat. so i was actually pretty stoked, though we didnt get to order much dishes, i mean you know just the two of us....... enjoyed my meal nonetheless :') i have some pictures below,

yumyum bbq stingray yumyum

@the queen and mangosteen for xinhong's birthday,
awwwwww :')

went to get xin hong's birthday vouchers before heading down to queen and mangosteen. food was not bad at all - i had wild mushroom risotto w asparagus and oven dried tomatoes, service was really slow though. apparently trixy had a pretty bad experience over there, but it was quite alright for us i thought.. and oh it was the night tian couldnt find his car!!! we walked rounds and rounds round the carpark at harbourfront centre, it really took us quite a while to locate his car hahahaha tsk

and pictures from two random wednesday nights back in march,
1) zouk night. ma and pa (huiying and ruben) were about to celebrate their sixth months together, so pa was overjoyed and couldnt maintain, hahahaha ok more of want to share the love (hehehe ^^v) and decided to treat us all drinks!

took a pica w emma and warren too! :)

2) impromptu night and sleepover w my girls (missing mins and bestie *sadface*), at ma's cosy cosy crib. alcohol, deep conversations, girly talks, random awkward yet clumsy dance moves, hysterical laughters, yada yada. it's always fun w these girls, we have endless things to talk about, every single god damn thing in the world.... and i dont know why but at this point of time, after typing my previous line, i feel like singing rihanna's only girl. i think i'm weird..

a week more before school officially gets in full swing again. i'd need to do something about my hair. new colour and a trim perhaps, let's see.
xx

Something in your heart,

2011-04-06T01:01:00.003+08:00

been hanging out w my boy pretty often these few days - five days last week and i'll be seeing him again tmr, thank god he has off in lieu and i cant ask for more. he's flying off on monday though............. three fucking weeks. three weeks without my happy pill by my side, and the thought of it just made my eyes watery again.

meow

If I were you, I'd dare not speak.

2011-03-31T14:54:00.008+08:00

i'm pretty shameless, i'm always posting my own videos hahahahaha

@hairloom&caramel,

yet again, i'm behind in updating this space and posting photos in a timely manner. but this time, i have valid excuses! i took over another receptionist position at an insurance agency last week, pretty short period of time, actually, it is VERY short - just three days. basically, i had to open and lock the door for all day, entertain walk-in customers, get officers to assist the customers, receive couriers, sort and distribute daily mails, and to file in relevant claims.... i enjoyed my work, though i'm sitting alone, am isolated from the whole entire office. i like a space to myself actually. sorting out mails was probably the best part of the entire work, there are so so so many return mails everyday, and i got to play around with the different stamps. i also got to sign a few registered and courier packages, and bring it in the office for the relevant staff to verify and sign. it's quite fun, trying to guess who's who. good thing is that i'm not that bad at remembering faces and names haha. i dont know if it's just me, but (i feel) because i'm a temp staff, i guessed my presence wasnt significant at all. though i smiled and greeted every single one for the three days, i dont actually get all of them back... maybe they think i'm retarded or something, but i like to be greeted w a smile, so i'd do the same. comparatively, i'd prefer working as a temp recep here to the other one i was working at previously. i had more things to do, i dont really like to idle when i'm working....

other than work, last week was considerably eventful. on monday, i met fym for the first time, made our way to botanic gardens and we collaborated a few covers together! intended to just cover the wrecker's leave the pieces, but we ended up doing more. i like how it wasnt awkward meeting her, and i like how friendly she is. thanks for the sushi and also that old-school biscuit, idk what's the exact name of it, but i loved it so much! that's my childhood snackz yo'

the following day, i reunited with my friends whom i've not met up for a little more than three years? eileen, limei and zhiying! jm suggested heading down to hairloom&caramel, a combination of hair salon w a cafe located at shaw towers. such a crazy idea, but you dont really have to worry because the hair cutting area is quite a distance away from the open kitchen. i love the knick-knacks decors and mismatched furnitures that were well transformed, it made the whole place more lively. the items going on sales are pretty interesting too, but we were actually preoccupied w our food...... haha so i had the set lunch, consisted of my salmon spaghetti w pink sauce, a glass of lemonade, as well as a scoop of icecream. it was not too bad, i like it. makes me feel happy. made our way to cityplaza at the later part of the day w eileen, limei and jm before having dinner at liang seah street. i lovelovelove that place because i got myself a pair of wedges for just $18, and it actually cost $38 on some blogshops. sorry but i was really overjoyed and still am! i need to find an occasion to wear that pair of wedges out.....

it was wonderful to catch up with the good friends again :')
but my hair needs some maintainence, just look at my black roots. omfg

You're always there, you're everywhere. But right now i wish you were here.

2011-03-25T00:56:00.007+08:00

look at my mr three stripes! the rest's in grayscale in case you guys cant spot him, or in case you guys are blind. hahaha sorry i kid. i managed to spot him while he's marching...!! my eyesight's v power i know, HEHE. uncle tommy and auntie betty (sean's parents) says, it's the power of LOVE hahahahahaha aw :') dude right at the far left, that's tawei, my ex bandmate! apparently he's in the same camp as sean, though they dont know each other personally.

♥.♥ !!!!

dudes in green, hehe sean's closer mates in camp!

sean was like, "pic w tallfren" LOL

w gx & judith! hehe

aiyo my handsome boy again :$

attended my boy's passing out parade last friday w judith(gx poped the same day as well!), hehe my sergeant lokey!! there's another one coming up either in mid april or in mid may, i cant remember. his next POP would be at sungei gedong (and sean hates that place so much), passing out as an armour specialist?? er truth is i'm not too sure either, i'm one unreliable source. but i'm mostly excited to see lots of armour tank, why because my boy has license for that k! he can drive a tank va va vrooomzzzz.....hehe. oh i didnt get all emotional like how i did at his bmtc's POP, i remembered i teared or something, because it wasnt easy at all. for him, for the both of us, but for him especially. he had to suffer both physically and mentally, i dont have to physically.. okay i should stop speaking like a mom. so i played the same old game i played during his previous parade, the 'spotwhereissean' game, but this time round w judith helping me out!! though she's more like playing her 'spotwhereisgx' game hehe, it's really quite tough k especially when all of them look the same. but why do all army guys look the same!? (no it's quite scary actually) and it's so heartwarming(er actually more of funny!) to actually see everyone running high and all taking out their cameras when their son/bro/friend/bf march past the stands.

@odeons towers,

the same night, sean's dad sent us down to soul (the old supperclub) because sarah howell's in town and i wanted to catch her so bad, oh my reverie! i had no one else to ask (le sigh) so i pulled sean along even though i knew he was mad tired from all the heat, marching and such. he had a long day.... and apparently, i took part in some q&a contest and i won myself the chance to get an instax w sarah howells(they told me so)! i was overjoyed. arrived at soul, the management staffs made me wait for four hours, i waited for nothing. fucked up management, i mean i dont mind not being able to snap a picture w her, but they told me 'i won it', so im actually 'supposed' to, and the fact that day texted me to be in the club at 9.30pm (who the fuck clubs at 9.30pm?? - so i had nothing to do in there), and made me waited till 2am. they didnt reply my call and text after that anyways, oh well so i decided to just go grab a bite and head back to sean's crib. what lame pieces of feces.
other than this piece of shitnews, sarah howell's set was good, i love her jam! i'm actually singing to out of the sky right now, hehe i love it. it's a pity there arent much people, that explains why the crowd's pretty horrible..

saturday and sunday that followed were great, i love waking up to my boy....he looked so cutesy i cant even help myself but to plant a kiss or two on his face everytime, or to just take lots of picas of him w my mobile (i have plenty HAHA). oh and i love to mess his hair up, im only allowed to do that anytime i want at his crib, he doesnt allow me to do that when we're out obviously, i mean which guy allows!? i wouldnt like it if he mess my hair up as well (even though it's messy most of the time, but still NO means NO) LOL it's good that we're both so.....vain. back to saturday, sean snatched my pillow away when i got up to pee, then i was forced to wake up!! he stole it subconsiously though, apparently he'd rather hug his pillow than to hug me lol, i made him wake up anyways because i was starving.... i wonder why am i constantly hungry, it's scary. we had lunch at sean's, before heading out for some shopping, i got my hands on avril's new album!!!! i'm so addicted to it, been playing on repeat since the day i got it. and my boy got me a pair of cheap mondays, as well as a package from kinokuniya, that includes a cupcake stand, spatula and cupcake recipe book! :) i hope i'll be able to bake something nice for him someday huh, hehe :)

we made our way to wild rocket for our monthsary dinner,

we had a little trouble getting up emily hill (we were at oldschool and we lost our way), so we got down in the end, landed at selegie before making our way up upper wilkie road again, by foot. it's not that far from each other actually. cool location though, so we found out it's located in a hotel. what i liked about this place is, it's tucked away from the main part of the city, not somewhere we would usually go. though it would definitely do some good if we had a car, but none of us can drive.... anyways, we'd always take turns to decide where to dine at, and this time round's my turn to! i had three other places in mind, but eventually decided on this fusion restaurant, and we were pretty satisfied w the food.
i ordered the legendary laksa pesto pasta, and i personally has not much love for it.... it's quite an interesting dish though, i mean laksa, and pasta, seriously? i stared at my boy, while he took a mouthful of his crabmeat w chilli tomato cream pasta. he knew i didnt like mine, and immediately he switched our plates... sweet gesture, he was attentive as usual, but i feel bad though. i mean he might not like it as well, had no intentions to exchange w him, but apparently, he told me the laksa pasta's actually not that bad, and that he preferred it over the crabmeat one (i think he just didnt want me to feel bad lol, but i'd trust him anw....) on he other hand, i thought that the crabmeat pasta was perfect. i love how the striking colors make the pasta look so inviting, hehe yumbo! for desserts, we had molten chocolate lava cake (nothing special), as well as salted egg icecream w eggtart. yes, salted egg ice cream! we scanned through the menu and the moment we saw this, we knew we had to order it. were both curious how would salted egg ice cream taste like, sounds pretty weird right? and wow, it was so good. there were even bits of salted egg hidden in the ice cream, yumz.

and sunday starts in the afternoon as usual. had lunch w sean's dad, then we spent the whole afternoon cuddling and watched the last episode of skins, as well as blue valentine, before heading for some drumlets' fix! and as usual, i ended up w tears after the film :/ i asked myself a couple of times, and i cant actually name a single movie i watched, er without crying. so the film's about a married couple, or i say the modern married couple, who began to grow apart after a few years of marriage. they were just really unhappy. and i felt so sad. two individuals who fell head over heels for each other when they were younger, got married, and they ended up falling apart. definitely something very common in real life, but still, they were so in love... cant help but wonder why must some things turn out the way they do?

xx

Paint it black,

2011-03-18T12:49:00.001+08:00

here's my outfit for today and the next two days,

"breadtalk's chicken floss bun; beard papa's chocolate cream puff; polo's cream roll (swiss roll), bengawan solo's kueh that is half green and half white (kueh salat) and the other green green kueh w coconut inside (kueh bugis)"

i made sean name me five different kinds of food as soon as he wakes up the next morning, and apparently he craves for all kinds of snacks hmmm, i would just actually crave for tori-q (hehe) and probably lots of salmon sashimi, and maybe toufu. i love toufu, and egg.... look at my boy, tsk but he really has a sweet tooth, not gonna lie. i'm heading out in a jiffy to get whatever's above for him, that's for his POP later!! the other time i got him a baby stitch, he liked it, but still, i think i should be more practical. hohoho FOOD. everyone loves food!! and yes he better gain some weight already urgh why's my boyfriend so skinny?? but i still love you anyways :)

Mind reader,

2011-03-17T20:13:00.001+08:00

sometimes, we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them.

Let it all out,

2011-03-14T17:27:00.007+08:00

the output on this blog hasnt been amazing lately.. nope, im not exactly busy. like i said, i'm so done w exams, and i'm super free, pretty bored at home now (i'm looking for a part time job actually....) and i lead the life of an owl like how i did a little more than a year ago. sleeping and waking up at ungodly hours, fucked up meal times, uh huh.... basically i sleep my day away, or i end up eating way too much at night. today's an exception, my mom made me breakfast and lunch before heading out for work.

my life hasnt been productive, but at least i didnt 'waste' it away entirely. i've had a few things done. last friday, i took a one-day off temp position as a receptionist at this foreign exchange company. "(name of company), goodmorning/afternoon, may i help you?" i sounded like an automated message, except that it's on a low budget because i made serious mistakes. part of my job was to transfer calls and yes i actually transfered a customer service related call to the human resource department lol, oh and to the wrong bryan (there are two bryans in the office), oh god. other than that, work was incredibly sitmulating actually, i had a lovely space to myself and also a fun-loving lady who guided me along the first part of the day. i also packed close to 250 letters, and used the franking machine for the first time. i'm learning so much.

i did a photoshoot w thestudio two weeks ago. i didnt have to pay a single cent, thanks to uli! but i only got to keep a picture, it's still good huh - i've got a free makeover, pretty hair and experience being a model for a day. chalet at nsrcc was fun as always, uh lots of photospams as well as ps3. the guys are so obsessed with poker, and more poker. i also went out to dine w my girls, at robert timms (off wheelock place) as well as on a boat!! dining on board was fun, and my steak's pretty lovely. i've so much love for beef and steak i realise. this is my first time eating on a floating boat, ok actually i think it's more like a ship, it's quite a nice experience, i mean it's one pretty interesting venue isnt it? we dont have to charter the entire ship anyways haha. but the location's (marina south pier) so..... not accessible. and like i said, it's a floating boat, so we're constantly rocking from side to side, haha so if you have motion sickness, i suggest you give it a miss.

i also whipped up some food at home too, to kill time actually. bought like 40$ worth of groceries and kept myself busy in the kitchen, it turns out good though! just last weekend, we dined at charlie brown cafe! i brought my lucy out, haha i think it's all over twitter and my fb, yeah i brought her out for breakfast and SHE WAS SO EXCITED OMG!! LOL ok i think i'm not going to say much, i dont want to creep people out. haha but i love her so much, she's been w me for the past fourteen years..........then sean was joking that it's time for her to meet her boyfriend again - charlie brown. haha as far as i know, lucy was never w charlie brown in the show itself, but i dont care, she needs a man! and charlie is good, he cooks and he has his own cafe hahahahhahaaha, though apparently he isnt a really outstanding one. ok and in the afternoon, i helped a girl w her portfolio. she did my makeup, trimmed my eyebrows and styled my hair, haha i dont know if she'll send me pictures though (and i didnt take pictures myself) uh.... but it was a good, minus the travelling and waiting time. thanks sean for accompanying me, i knew he was dead bored - sat there and did nothing for two hours, just waiting for my hair and make up to be done... i also caught three movies in a row. i'm excited for this weekend, i'll be attending sean's POP and he's going to pass out as a SERGEANT. i'm so proud of my boy :)

@robert timms w charmaine,

uli (so pretty!) joined us a while later. and for the nth time, i'm in love w her camera..

date w my girls on the boat,

and i like how my hair turns out in these pictures ^^v

lucy visits charlie brown!!

a v happy lucy hahaha. but it's time to get her hair dyed..

lucy's damn excited when she see herself on that crepe hahahahahhaaha

and because i was so bored at home that day,

there're six songs in there. sudden urge to dance on the dancefloor hmmm
xx

8.9,

2011-03-12T06:16:00.005+08:00

my heart is overwhelmed today. especially after watching and reading coverages of the japan earthquake and tsunami off the coast, stuff like "A ship carrying about 100 people was swept away by the huge tsunami that hit Japan on Friday and its fate was unknown", "Countless workers, who had earlier fled violently swaying office blocks, found themselves stuck far from their families — and unable to speak to them because the overloaded mobile phone system could not carry most calls." and "People rushed to the city’s ubiquitous 24-hour convenience stores, quickly emptying shelves of bento boxes, sandwiches and instant noodle cups...." so unreal. it's devastating and i'm truly shaken. picture this, you're driving along the middle of the road and the massive waves just comes right at you.... pretty horrifying huh and i cant believe that we're witnessing all of this, right before our eyes. so maybe what they say about the world ending could be true.... this isnt my usual blog post but i couldnt help but to write about this quake, it's in my mind all day and my mood's just really very affected by it. and we all know it's going to take some time for japan to recover from this tragedy.

this got me into thinking about the fragility of life and the need to be grateful and bring good. hi i'm a douche and all i do is complain about life, complain about being imperfect all the fucking time, this and that, and all the most trival things in life! omfg??? time to repent. sometimes, i wish i was a superhero, uh powerpuffgirls (not meant to be funny k), and i could team up w my girls and have our own super powers to you know, save the day?? yeah i'm still a kid at heart (hmmm), things like that in mind all day, but if i could do that now, it would be most amazing isnt it? then, i could stop all this shit from happening. and i wish i could teleport to sean right now..... may we all stay strong, and most importantly, be prepared.

my thoughts & prayers goes out to all life forms affected by this disaster. i'm pretty sure that god will find a way.

#prayforjapan #prayfortheworld

March, we know you're kind hearted.

2011-03-04T11:13:00.014+08:00

though fieldcamp drains and fucks the shit out of him, he never fails to call and send a text over before crashing, and still leaves me a text to wake up to every single day. it's pretty risky for him to call me at night, i mean w all those superiors/masters around, who cant wait to charge their trainees and get them confined (and obviously i wouldnt want sean to play with fire, i mean i already dont get to see him often and what if he gets confined!), it's really a tad too dangerous. so to actually make it less chancy, he got himself a fiftybucks phone, a headset and he made this cover using ziplock bag, red and black colored tapes, yes just for the fieldcamp.. (click for image) and he hid it somewhere i think. looks like... ninja? hahaha but, awww the effort he puts in, and the extent that he'll actually go... :') two more days to go baby!

anw, im fucking done w exams! with that, i'm also done with year one of poly education. i cant even believe that happened, still remembered what exactly happened a year ago, the day i got back my A lvl results. i was wearing this red polka dot vintage top, and black shorts.... hahahaha. and a year ago, poly wasnt even one of my options, but hey look at me now, man i'm so done with year one. twenty four more months to go, i'm ready. i know i'm lagging the norm by three years (occasionally i still brood over this fact....) but all thanks to my boy, he constantly reminds me that i should just live my life. yes, indeed and i cant be more contented of what i am and what i have right now, let's just see how it goes.

i've been wearing my boy's black hoodie every single day since last weekend. "i want to smell you,"that's what i said hahaha. i have some of his clothes in my wardrobe, and i usually wear his other stripey hoodie to sleep, or rather, i have to smell it (lol) and put it on everyday after i get back home, but cleaned up of course. he calls me a big baby for that, because babies gets comforted and soothed by familiar scents. whatever but i really liked his hoodie, it gives me this warm fuzzy feeling, after a day long of hectic nonsense. that hoodie actually accompanied me through every night of last minute mugging! i think i just.. miss him.

i dont remember mentioning, but i did relatively well for my common tests few months back, this means a lot to me after failing for whole two years, and i didnt do well at all for my first semester either - you wont know how demoralising that is and how my confidence level is beyond low. it's been soooo long since i last got 'A's for my papers. i told sean i could do it "because you(sean) made me so happy, that's why i did well". had his hoodie w me throughout the papers, all i could think of was him telling me not to give up on myself again, so no matter how tough it is, i'll still give my best shot hahahahahahahahaha yar i told him that, i think im just a cheesy piece of shit. hahaha and this time, for my finals, i took another hoodie from him (yes that's how i got his black hoodie w me too), plus a pen to go with as well LOL and i used it for all my written papers. tsk.... maybe it's just uhm psychological issues, but whatever the case, he helped me so much indefinitely, and i thank god for him.

End of the night,

2011-02-25T03:03:00.005+08:00

well, it's been a little hectic lately since i should be studying for my examinations but at the same time, absolutely nothing is going on. story of my life. socially, for this week, i have nothing interesting to say. i just slept in the whole week, wake up intending to study but as usual, i always screw things up, so all i do mainly's just sleep, eat, hanging around my laptop, sleep and eat more. i hate this routine. three more days to cram a whole semester's worth of nonsense into this tiny little brain of mine, so urgh PLEASE BE PRODUCTIVE. note to self.

shall reward myself w a little getaway if i do well!! (highly doubtful but whatever)

i need a job this coming semester break. a rather short break, a month and what, a week? well sean told me it was two months break during his time, bummer. i need to work. no job news at all even though i've contacted recruitexpress(fucking kiasu i know but im desperate alr) perhaps i should consult other consulting agencies too, need a job badly. just anything. sigh keep a lookout for me? :>

i have some pictures below to document my past weekend,

1) finally got to meet weijie up and we had this black pig shabu ramen for dinner. oh we had icecream and a slice of cheesecake after dinner as well, how i missed talking to him about everything. and one day, i'm gonna learn how to make those japanese hanjuku rutan!
2) strictly pancakes w sean for brunch on a saturday, it's quite a rare opportunity since we are sleepyheads and it's almost impossible for us to get up early during weekends. we should do this more often!
3) oomphatico’s for goodfren's birthday dinner! it's an all girls night out, so much fun hehe. i liked how the restaurant's done up, a myraid of bright colors and unique furnishings... it's pretty cosy and peaceful too (with that, i meant not much of a crowd) i should also start to visit tanglin mall more often, it's so quiet and it feels more 'private', compare it w orchard road which is always crowded......... bores and irritates me.

ask me questions on my formspring? hehe
sleep time. xx

Cry.

2011-02-25T00:58:00.004+08:00

cry and feel better. the miracles of tears. :'(
moments when i feel stress, completely helpess, face certain problems, feel unloved and lonely...... when i'm angry, scared, or even guilty, when i miss someone, this and that, when i watch a movie, the list goes on, whatever, i cry. actually, scratch all that. just remember, i cry everytime i'm not happy. whatever emotions included. all i do is cry, well other then talking to sean or someone else about it, i (still) cry. it clears my mind, and it's just so effective, it's like the only possible solution to keep me functional again. sometimes, i dont even know why i cry, something might just happened and trigger my tears. fact: i cry easily, since young. i wouldnt say it's an upper hand to cry easily (lol?), i'm just soft hearted. my mom used to think that i'm weak, just because i could cry in less than ten seconds? not fake cry of course duh. i have no idea what's the purpose behind this post, but i just felt like sharing how incredible crying is. it never fails..... i just cried, few minutes ago, over the phone.
in fact, i like crying. i love it. it's becoming a habit now, not healthy i know, but i actually feel good after shedding tears everytime. people actually feel worse suppressing their tears.... i don't do that at all. i like to feel refresh, and i like the idea of getting in touch w my inner self.. tears are really amazing huh

sometimes, we should just cry it out. just fucking cry our hearts out. lungs out. whatever. i got rid of all that burden in my mind.. it's actually good/alright to cry.
weird way to end my post, but er i encourage everyone to cry. hahahahahahaha
*hugs myself*

xx

Happy birthday, goodfren/tallfren (because sean calls you that)!!

2011-02-18T00:00:00.001+08:00

gosh you turn 20 now, the first to turn 20 among us! wanted to write you a little something, not because you wrote one for me on my birthday k, i just felt like it! thanks for being one of my closest pal, whom i can tell almost everything too; whenever i have any issues, or any other problems, this and that, you're in fact the first person i think of other than sean. you're also the one other than kshit (because she is damn unglam), and wshit(HAHA) whom i can do silly things w, probably because our humor level are as low as fuck, or maybe it's a panjang thing LOL. rmb your previous birthdays? we surprised you at your doorstep on your 18th(rainbow theme!), and last year, we changed all our dps to your unglam pica and the response was bad at all HAHA. i hope you have a great birthday this year! and all the years that follows, you know you can always count on me(and the rest of us!) when you need someone to talk to, you have my words. thanks for being such a wonderful palz, i love 966 (hahaha) and everything that happened that brought us close together!! suddenly reminded me of our goodfren notebook and benzene ring song, nostalgic much! cant find a second goodfren anymore :$ (wah sai, since when i so cheesy)

good luck for your prelim papers, and i hope you find your sean too! (sean becomes a term now lol) you'll find your perfect someone dont worry, im absolutely certain that someone, somewhere out there, would want to be with you, it takes time but it'll be worth it :)
will be waiting for the day we have our couple datez at riders cafe :D:D

more than two years ago, we looked fucking young haha look at my emozxzxz fringe

Like St. Valentine,

2011-02-17T23:57:00.004+08:00

sean and i celebrated our first valentine's day this year, had to celebrate it the weekend before monday since he wasn't planning on being around on monday. he had to be at camp (he told me that! haha my boyf's a liar oh oh oh) but it turns out he gave me a surprise on monday itself hehe he knew i liked surprises :') but in other words, i'm easily tricked.
i apologise for blogging close to a week late after v day itself, but i cannot skip over valentine's day post especially because i had such a nice one this year. i kinda miss sa's celebration though, all that writing little notes to the classmates, hand made gifts, candies and what not. and the ongoing activities in school. so much fun!! well then, it never held much significance for me, romance wise, for two years i s'pose. i know many despised valentine's day, and think that feb 14 is nothing more than a commercialized day, or the entire idea is meaningless since 'everyday is valentine's day with you'. it's true, to a minimal extent. i'd like the idea of making the person you love happy, feeling special altogether. it doesnt have to be romance wise, it's a day to recognize someone important in your life. i mean i know you have to, every other day, but how do i put it? uh dont want to sound cliche, but i think thought still matters, so fuck the cost. just make your loved ones happy.

like any other girls, i spent many hours, in fact, weeks, in brainstorming sessions and i still find it tough to decide on what gift for sean, we exchange gifts every month and... i've ran out of ideas. i got him a vans tee shirt in the end, and a box of something(as seen in the picture, i blurred it because the bf says not to reveal) and clubbed the gifts with a handmade card, as well as some heart shaped short bread cookies! i suck with the icing, made one whole lot of it and it didnt turn out well, threw it all away. ended up melting some chocolate and coated it on instead.

sean stenciled my name on the box!! he's really creative when it come to handmade presents. he knew that i liked handmade stuff more than anything.. in the box was two dresses from tracyeinny, as well as his cutesy little stuffed toy, mooty the cow(i used to call it moomoo until i realise there's a tag, and his name's actually mooty lol) that i've been eyeing on since forever. there was even a message from mooty himself, hehe asking me to take good care of him. awwww too cute, of cos i will!

fast forward to that evening, the boy reserved a table for two at min jiang, goodwood park hotel. it was my first trip to min jiang btw, i've heard so much about it so i was pretty excited! i like the fact that we get to dine outdoor, love the alfresco concept where the dining terraace is just next to the hotel's pool. the boy said he'd prefer in door though (air conditioned that's why), i liked it this way! wont be too cold either. overall, the ambience was pleasant and soothing.

love of my life... :$

it was a seven-course chinese cuisine. i love the idea, it's pretty unique isnt it. so different, unlike the usuals.... we had lo hei, just the two of us! it was pretty hilarious..... hahaha and obviously we couldnt finish the whole plate of it, especially when i only pick out salmon and crackers. poor sean he actually tried to conquer it, but we ended up throwing more than half a plate away. my favorites are the shark fin's soup, and that prawn dish. the prawns were amazingly big and fresh!

the usual camwhorish me. btw, i love my dress! i got it just two days before the dinner, at first day. and for my hair, i did it early in the morning(lots of hairspray at the back) with the help from youtube gurus.
hairspray works wonders.

mirror shots, since the whole place's filled w full length mirror hahaha had to make use of it.

i wanted a picture together at the stairs because of....yeah the red carpet. felt like a star huh LOL
we caught black swan in the theatres before making pictures outside sota, next to the cathay. i feel that it's important and is a must to make pictures for keepsake purposes.... and especially on special occasions like this, where both of us were dressed up. well it seems like we take pictures every date out, but nah it's so not true hehe ^^

:)

so that marks our first valentine's day together. i'll be looking forward to the day where we do memory searching and look back at the many many rounds of celebrations we had together. if god permits, i want to spend every valentines day with you ^^ hehe

and thanks for enduring my crap tonight.......... i'm full of shit. maybe it's time to clear my bowels before i move on with my work.

VVVV

2011-02-15T02:05:00.005+08:00

hahaha i know it's getting pretty plain and boring but im sorry, i just cant stop professing my love for sean. this valentine's weekend was awesome as usual (my weekends are mostly awesome since i only live for the weekends and i get to spend it w sean.....) we exchanged our gifts (!!!), had an amazing dinner at min jiang @ goodwood park hotel, and caught black swan later that night. i'd probably blog about it later on. today, sean surprised me at my doorstep w a few stalks of flowers! he couldnt get me a bouquet since he didnt order in advance and he had to wait for a few hours if he were to get it there and then. i liked it anyways! i think flowers are really sweet.. mr sneaky boy lied to me about being unable to book out. i suspected he might be booking out initially all thanks to samuel, who told me he got to book out right after lunch! but i just had to trust my boy so much.... he definitely would not lie to me!! haha. i got pretty disappointed at first, since as far as i know, most of my friends' bf were able to book out, and WHY NOT FOR SEAN?! received a text, "i'm going to take my test now :(" which assured me that he's not gonna book out at all. then, moments later i heard the door bell and when i see that smiling face....... i cant even hold back my tears hahaa :')
i love him so much.

From my humble camera,

2011-02-11T02:49:00.001+08:00

inspired by this.
i tore a tiny piece of paper and lay it over a random photograph i have, and there you go..

i snapped some pictures back in october last year and had yet to get them up on here. i worked for insing.com then. in fact, my job was pretty easy and flexible. plus i liked the fact that it required me to travel quite a bit. some interesting sights spotted on the way:

Random musings,

2011-02-08T15:22:00.011+08:00

Who I Want to Meet:

i want to meet you if you want to meet me, i dont want to meet you if you dont want to meet me. who knows i may want to meet you even if you dont want to meet me. or i dont want to meet you at all.

-taken from yours truly's friendster profile page.

i cant believe i actually have that on my profile.... what a description seriously lol., it's so me. went back on to friendster just to show my boy some really old pictures of myself, and vice versa. actually i went to his page a couple of times alr, sometime ago but i dont rmb when, i only rmbed grabbing his old pica.... my stalker's instinct lolz. well anyways, we looked so young! i looked so different back in secondary school, and sean looked... so cute. dont worry, you're still as cute now.. he was laughing at myself for that stupidly crafted statement (yeah your gf's damn lame huh) but i think he isnt any better.
on his profile: hahahaha!!! i'm a human being!

no wonder we're a couple ^^v

***

me: i got cravings for tori-q leh suddenly, how ah
sean: forever got cravings one hor
me: yar craving for sean loke lor. ate a piece of sean loke the other day, wah cannot stop eating lor, want more and more only yumyumyum
sean: but i have cravings for ba zhang ning. damn nice to eat sia.

i have no idea why am i a ba zhang!?

In February,

2011-02-08T00:01:00.006+08:00

my cny went great, even though i lost my voice and officially turned mute the second day. sean was my translator, or rather, interpretator for the next three days. i dont fancy cny particularly since i get to hang out w my closer cousins during other time of the year, so i guess, all i do's looking forward to extra pocket money, and of course, the cny goodies!!! i can never ever stop myself from eating pineapple tarts and that seaweed cracker thingo, no matter how much i tell myself that i should take control already. time seems to fly by exceptionally fast this year, it's already into the second month of the year, gosh. that aside, my boy got to book out on a weekday! we managed to spend five days together consecutively, i liked that idea totally.

oh and it's also my first cny together w the dear boy, dear boy got to meet my grandmas from both my paternal and maternal side, and my relatives for the first time :') reunion was spent at my aunt's where she whipped her usual hakka yong tau foo! we have it on an annual basis, and i must say it once again, definitely the yummiest hakka yong tau foo i've had (i tell her that every single year). relatives came over my place on the first day, mom whipped a whole lot of food. visited my grandma and sean's grandma before heading over to jacq's for some mahjong session on the second day. third day was spent at yiqin's, and at town before heading back to sean's. lou hei w sean's family at wah lok after service. just gonna post a few here, picas are up on my fb!

in a totally random order,

my niece, two years of age. she's totally amused by her own reflection. all thanks to my dual lcd camera. she's so pretty! and vain at the same time. she kept going that she's 'mei' (pretty in mandarin..) such a cutesy girl!!

fyi, i've got five nieces, and seven nephews in total.

hakka yong tau foo! love the filling stuffed inside the toufus... damn yum.

imperial treasure:

wah lok cantonese restaurant at carlton hotel:

lou hei!

yet another weekend where everything important revolved around food..

some overdue picas from huito's 20th,
had a simple buffet dinner over at crystal jade, and daily scoop right after. happy birthday huiyi!!

xx

Life as it is,

2011-01-31T13:26:00.014+08:00

how can anyone resist the temptation of not skipping school to sleep in in sucha weather!?
my bed loves me too much, and you know what? it's totally mutual.
but i shall head to school tmr, as early as 9am, for bmgt lecture. no excuses. that would be the second lecture i attend this semester, at least i did go for the first and last lecture, right?

lately, many thoughts have been going through my mind. i really cant help it because sometimes i think too much, and i worry too much. about everything. especially the people i love. i'm a fucking dreamer. i think about situations in my head which are completely irrelevant. trust issues. inferiority complex. im currently in this confusing process of getting my thoughts organized, they are all over the place and i really need some time. at times, i really want to get to know god. trust him. and let him works his miracles over my life...

i really need a little getaway or at least something close to that, badly.

happy chinese new year in three days!
i have a presentation, and an assignment to submit by new year's eve. oh wow

xx

Love will shine,

2011-01-27T19:00:00.011+08:00

"this represents us, together for six/seven months. it aint filled up as we have to fill it up as time passes by, let's complete it together? i'll be waiting for the time when we complete the puzzle, that's probably when we have white hair...."

so that's what my boy has been up to for the past few weeks! or rather, the past few weekends. he cant actually make this on weekdays since he's stucked in camp. he stayed up late on fridays and saturdays, say after sending me back home on days i chose not to stayover, that's probably some ungodly hour since we dont usually head home early(oh i rmb!! and he lied to me that he's fucking tired and had to get back earlier lol tho i refused....), baby stitch also told me that silly boy actually woke up v early on a few saturdays, way before meeting me, just to get materials, and my gift! that came along w a pair of white havaianas and a quiet yet romantic dinner at senso. well sweetie, tell me how not to love you? ♥♥

the place's filled with lots of expats, mainly couples. so as usual, bread served with olive oil about fifteen minutes before our main course, haha my boy loves it so much! and his say: bread w olive oil > bread w butter anytime. anyways, the bread's absolutely perfect. five different kinds of bread served in that basket, and i'm pretty sure it's the first time i actually finish eating them. i dont usually finish eating those bread served before meals because im afraid i might get too full, but this is too yummay.... i had to. so fucking nice.... especially that long and thin shaped one, yumyumyum. and there you see an outdoor alfresco courtyard. we dined indoor though, atmosphere was equally good. but if we could do a trip again, we would definitely choose to sit outdoor hahaha

our appetizer: pan-fried buffalo mozzarella wrapped in parma ham (served with black olives tapenade) yumyumyum

we shared a plate of ravioli (ravioli stuffed with braised veal shank, served with porcini mushrooms sauce) and taglierini (squid ink taglierini pasta with boston lobster and fresh basil) - k i quoted the name and description of the pasta from their webpage.
i jizzed in my pants from merley having some squid ink pasta in my mouth, LOL sorry i'm lacking vocabulary here, but it's so good.... my pictures dont do it any justice at all, so i decided not to post close ups. the veal ravioli wasnt that amazing though, but the squid ink lobstie........i can haz five plates to myself lol
senso's located at a quiet corner along club street, pretty close to ann siang road, and it's pretty easy to locate!

earlier that day, we dined at itacho sushi and made a trip down to candle@haji lane. i wanted to get something from the flea so bad, but i see nothing. they were offering a photoshoot at $5, provided that you purchase something from the flea. so i was thinking maybe sean and i could do a little photoshoot for ourselves in the studio, for our monthsary celebration (plus it's so cheap?! photoshoots are usually priced $100 and above no?), a pretty new thing for us and you know i'd love giving it a try! but oh well................. such a disappointment. then i actually teared, for a while, because things dont always go the way i planned. i know i'm so lame and i'm sucha killjoy!! cant stand myself sometimes, and i pity that silly boy. he had to cheer me up and tolerate all my nonsense again as always haha..

k some shots at the national library, we didnt plan on this one! just... wanted to take a look. went all the way to the reference section and it was so empty. there isnt really anyone other than the security guards say from level six all the way to twelve???

i was reading my older posts dated 2009 last night, life was pretty interesting and well i was quite..... funny, in a way. i think it's the way i talk, hahhah OMG IM A CHANGED PERSON..... kinda miss how i used to write and talk. okay im sucha awkward person now, in some ways. whatever. oh guess what, it's time for dinner again, xx

Forever Chasing,

2011-01-18T02:45:00.006+08:00

me: *giggle after some dude passed us* did you see that angmoh? ohmygod he's fucking hot.. must be french.
sean: you go lor you go lor! (pouts and lookaway)
a while later,
sean: her legs damn hot, she quite cute ah. *turns back to look at the girl* her hair's very jap..
me: you go lor you go lor! (pouts like how he does it...)
sean: but my girlfriend's cuter ma (tightening his grip on my hand)
me: i know!! obviously?
me: but angmoh hotter leh how!!
sean: (pouts again)

hahahahahahahaa our typical conversation. i love it when he pouts! then i'll pinch his lips, and sometimes plant a kiss or two. but i seriously do get pretty much distracted when a cute hot caucasian's in sight. just like the other day, we were watching burlesque..... cam gigandet's (jack) such a heartthrob, i think sean rolled his eyes a couple of times in between the movie (i grabbed his hand whenever he does something nice to ali/christina aguilera and just whatever he do. i think i'd love his cookies..., but iloveyou most, sean hahaha) by the way, christina aguilera's one gorgeous lady, i cant emphasize how much she amazed me throughout the entire movie.

no pictures of myself this week, all thanks to the you missy pimple under my lips, this big fat ugly pimple. sean even joked about it ARGH. i popped it last night, uh yes itchy fingers, and somehow it bled.. alright forget it, i just hope it'll be gone by this weekend. i'm wearing concealer to school tomorrow.

rings i've gotten from a flea market (#hookedonflea) a week ago,

it's a goddamn steal, these seven rings cost me no more than 25$.
there are three flea markets this coming weekend by the way, so yeah. you should know where to get these rings...!

oh and look how he pouts.... haha dont kill me for posting this. blame yourself for being cuter than me lol

celebrated sean's mom and teck's birthday that night too. we had a meal at this seafood restaurant in the east, really yummy seafood, and probably the largest crab i've eaten. i had a hard time getting the crab meat out from that nasty creature, so.... sean helped me w it haha i feel so spoilt. saw us at iluma for some zombie killing fix before cabbing down to butter for teck's birthday celebration. he was so drunk!! really funny, i really wonder what i would do if i'm drunk. the thing about me's that, whenever i go drinking, i'll make sure i stay sober. i just like to get high and to feel high. puked a few times and it was horrible, so i'd always remind myself not to overdrink, so well till now i still dont know really how it feels like being drunk..

last weekend, we did some shopping! i didnt get much for myself, i find online apparels more appealing for some reasons. i guessed the models made a huge impact, no? plus there's so many exclusive designs i cant find anywhere else but online. gonna head down to candles this weekend and hopefully i'll get a dress or two. i got myself shoes online as well. the only thing i got from the retails was some makeup and an animal printed tank from topshop. with that, i have to say i'm thankful that i'm a girl. male apparels and shoes are seriously much more expensive, plus i dont think they have much of a choice? i would have been so broke if i were a dude.

late night dinner, or rather supper, w my boy after french class. i havent had pratas for almost a year! yeah im surprised by that too..

4FINGERS!! i dont mind having these wings every single day..

school is in full swing right now, and i'm so not excited about it. i can't wait for exams honestly, the only way to cease all these sufferings for a little.... i could use the study week for a little break (of course, study a little in between....) and my year three friends would have graduated by then! i need a job, right after exams. i have some crazy plans up my sleeve for the later part of the year, and i need money. that's all i can reveal! i hope my plans dont fail me though..

snooze.

Girl meets boy,

2011-01-12T00:08:00.005+08:00

thank you for being yourself and making me the happiest i have ever been. you are amazingly special and i can’t picture myself going a day without you in my life guiding me in the right direction, listening to the tiny details of my boring day(s) and even though camp is pretty draining (usually you would be half dead by evening), you still make it a point to talk to me on the phone, no less then forty minutes every single night. such a sweetheart..
"we're not perfect, but we're in love and we're happy, that is more than enough for me."

see you in two days! our friday/friesday ^^